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Roswell, New Mexico: Michael Guerin: ISTP 4w5

Myers Briggs: ISTP

Ti: Michael is analytical and systematic. He’s good with fixing cars as well as tinkering with alien technology, because he looks at what’s irremovable and applies his internal understanding of how things work to different sytems. He is logical and does not trust his own or other people’s emotions.

Se: Michael is impulsive and acts based on what his gut tells him. He gets into fights frequently, not thinking about the consequences of his actions because he lives in the present. He is skilled with his telekinesis in fights because he is good at manipulating his environment. He is clever and thinks on his feet.

Ni: Michael is very intuitive about other people’s motivations and emotions. He is good at reading between the lines and discerning people’s true intentions. He is not overly focused on the future and lives in the present.

Fe: Michael has a tendency to bottle up his emotions and isolate from others, until he can’t control his feelings anymore and blows up. He pushes people away because he’s afraid of his feelings for them, like he did with both Alex and Maria. He struggles to accept his feelings for people because they’re so strong.

Enneagram: 4w5

Michael has very strong and intense emotions. He struggles with feelings of self loathing and feeling worthless. When he learns the truth about his father, he pushes Isobel and Max away because he thinks he doesn’t deserve to be loved. Growing up, he felt special due to his alien powers but also feels different and at a disadvantage because he is an alien. He is also very intelligent and inquisitive, and spends years preparing a ship to travel back to his home planet. He does this instead of interacting with the outside world because he fears rejection.

OSPP Temperament: Melancholic Choleric

Michael is very analytical and wants things done correctly. He is also efficient and wants to get results. He doesn’t interact socially with other people very often and prefers to keep to himself. He is prone to melancholy and mood swings and has a hard time opening up to others.

Nancy Drew (2019): Nancy Drew: ENTJ 5w6

Myers Briggs: ENTJ

Te: Nancy is logical and takes a step by step approach to solving mysteries. She always searches for evidence to prove her hunches correct, and is objectively logical and detached from her own emotions when working on a case. She is practical and has little patience for irrelevant emotional expressions and is instead task oriented.

Ni: Nancy is extremely intuitive about people and relies heavily on her hunches to figure out what’s really going on. She is analytical and good at making connections that allow her to find the culprit of a crime. She has a strong vision for her future before she loses her mother and needs to take a break to recover.

Se: Nancy can be very impulsive at times, but her actions always help her achieve her greater goal. She is aware of her physical environment and knows how to push people’s buttons.

Fi: Nancy is closed off and distant, fearing emotional connection after losing someone so important to her. She does, however, love her friends and family very dearly. She’ll do anything to protect them, like solving Lucy Sable’s suicide to save Carson Drew or lying that the Hudsons are innocent to save Ace, while still feeling guilty and not her authetic self.

Enneagram: 5w6

Nancy keeps to herself and is very closed off. She is very secretive and relies on her knowledge of the world around her to solve her problems. She is curious and inquisitive. Nancy distrusts people and has a counterphobic 6 wing. She faces challenges head on so that she and her loved ones don’t get hurt. She comes to rely on her friends for support and security when she learns to let people in again.

Instictual Variant: sp/sx

Nancy is independent and self reliant. She keeps to herself most of the time and prefers to work alone, refusing help from others in the beginning. She forms intense one- on- one bonds with certain people, like Nick. She can be very impulsive at times and quick to anger. She is so- blind and sometimes not aware of what the group wants and has a tendency to go rogue to protect her friends.

OSPP Temperament: Melancholic Choleric

Nancy is a perfectionist who cares about the truth. She wants to solve cases because she is interested in the truth and doing things right. She is analytical and detail oriented when solving cases, and discovers things the police miss. She is also pragmatic and wants to accomplish goals. She is detached and cold, and does not show emotion.

Attitudinal Psyche: LVEF

1L Confident Logic: Nancy believes in a logical explanation for everything. She has a hard time believing in the supernatural until confronted with evidence she can’t deny. She is methodical about finding evidence for Tiffany Hudson’s murder and Lucy Sable’s suicide. She can become frustrated with people when they are not being logical.

2V Flexible Volition: Nancy is a good leader, but can be flexible with her friends and not too pushy. She has no problem telling everyone else what to do, but also doesn’t mind if someone else takes charge. She is efficient and good at organizing her friends in order to accomplish a goal.

3E Insecure Emotion: Nancy has a hard time expressing her emotions and is very closed- off. She is prone to outbursts and has poor regulation over her own feelings. She generally prefers to rely on logic over her own feelings and is skeptical over her own emotions.

4F Unbothered Physics: Nancy isn’t overly concerned over her environment and has a very messy room. She isn’t very focused on her physical senses.

people have the audacity to ask if i'm okay after I have been listening to infinite baths by sleep token and confession by girl in red nonstop for the last few weeks

stayed up to listen to the new sleep token song and holy fuck it's worth every single moment of its four minutes and fifty seconds of runtime

there really isn't anything that hits quite as hard as hearing the singer of the band that helped you through some of your worst years sing "it's okay to cry" from the top of his lungs. like technically i know. i don't know how many songs of yours made me cry already. but hearing you say it made me feel something i haven't felt in a long time

When will my life begin?

Counting life in appointments

One week, one month, one year.

Horrified of what there is to come

Glad that what was is over.

Putting everything on hold

Friends, emotions, youth.

I have to wait for the new me

Wait until she's me.

I'm trapped inside this body

Or maybe it's her who's trapped?

What even is the difference

when we'll never be one another?

I don't know how to feel, what to feel

The hope of getting there is like a candle

in the midst of a storm at the coast.

Please end this waiting

Why cry if it doesn't change a thing

Why hope if the appointment turns into

a disappointment

Why try to build up something

if it's gonna be for nothing?

I'm here

nothing more, nothing less

flowers are slowly dying in my room

I'm rotting with them in dirty water

invariably for centuries

invariably for centuries.

16.08

"Do Not Stand At My Grave And Weep"

Do not stand at my grave and weep

I am not there; I do not sleep.

I am a thousand winds that blow,

I am the diamond glints on snow,

I am the sun on ripened grain,

I am the gentle autumn rain.

When you awaken in the morning's hush

I am the swift uplifting rush

Of quiet birds in circled flight.

I am the soft stars that shine at night.

Do not stand at my grave and cry,

I am not there; I did not die.

~Mary Elizabeth Frye

would you still want me if you realise that i’m just a melancholic girl with issues and weird interests?