Interested in doing this again please!!!
So, how big is it?
Circumcised or uncircumcised?
How musky?
What's the name you give for your dick?
Are the veins of your dick visible when it's soft?
Can you jerk off with two hands?
How full are your balls right now?
How many times do you jerk off in a day?
Have you ever cum during sleep?
What was one wet dream you still remember?
Did someone ever accidentally touched your dick? How that make you feel?
Have you ever used your ass for sexual pleasure? At all?
At what size does your dick stop fitting into your panties?
Briefs or boxers?
What kind of boy did the girls in your school perceive you as?
Do you automatically plan to pay for everything in a date?
What was the last girl you rated on how fuckable she was?
Just how obsessed with pussy are you?
Have a real woman ever called you a creep?
Your crush just told you they are not attracted to woman but love femboys. What do you do?
Can you speak without swearing?
When do you plan to hit the gym?
Have you joined the army?
Do you piss standing?
How loud can you burp?
Blue or green?
If you like boys, have you thought in buying a gay flag?
If you like girls, don't you think being more manly will attract more woman to you?
What fantasy do you visit often?
Have you ever realized you are a confused boy? If so, what made you realize?
changed my username from cis-man-echo to boymoder-echo to better reflect my status as a cute boy that shouldn’t even bother trying to be a girl.
me: Well at least my misogyny is just a silly kink, I do actually respect women after all
the truth: I spend all day everyday gooning to objectified pregnant women, feet, egirls, and a lot of SFW pics of women who probably had no idea their pictures would be used as jackoff material… and I can’t stop myself.
I think the precise terms I want to use for my identity that I want to test out rn are "femboy" and especially "boymoder"
Imagining wearing a lot of big hoodies with shorts or jeans and having my hair as kind of a shaggy mess but getting it cut once a month because I'm just a silly boy and I can't get away with having long hair.
new development!!!
I tried thinking of myself as a “femboy” and… something clicked. I *liked* it. Not just in a kinky way that made me feel dysphoric in a horny way, no. It made me feel *good* about myself. Like, maybe I AM a femboy.
I will never send a picture of myself on this blog ever but believe me when I assure you that I look unambiguously female in every way outside of the dumb thing between my legs, and that was kind of the case even before I started hrt. This kink has so many layers to me and one of the big ones is like… i haven’t really been male since before I started puberty??
I really am kind of done with this kink at this point. I’m still getting off to it I just think any genuine desire to be male is kind of gone at this point. All it took was me looking at some nude pics from before I shaved my head and really taking in like… yeah, that’s transition goals. I achieved it. I’d be an idiot to give that up.
So I am definitely going through with bottom surgery :)
It’s in 12 months!!!
What makes you feel like a girl? Asking so you know what to get rid of.
Oh that’s an interesting question with a complicated answer and I’m not quite sure I’m in the headspace to answer it thoroughly.
To be perfectly honest I’m intersex, my genitals are mostly the same for a male so it wasn’t super explicitly obvious at first, but a lot of other things were not normal for me, so my experience with biological sex when I started puberty was not typical for a male, and I grew breasts and didn’t have much testosterone. I identified more strongly with being a girl in middle school because I felt like I related to the girls in my class more than the boys and even my experiences with my body developing made me feel like I wasn’t anything like “normal” boys. I don’t know if I mentioned this here but I actually initially transitioned in middle school and don’t even really have much experience with being male besides a window of a few years as a teenager when i gave it a shot.
My voice sounds like a cis woman’s voice, and to even sound male at all it hurts a bit after a while and doesn’t even necessarily sound convincing, my mannerisms and behaviors are typically feminine, I just generally don’t come across as male in any way.
Lately I’ve had short hair, I’ve been wearing hoodies and jeans, sometimes I don’t shave for a week.
It’s still “here’s your food honey!” “we’ll be right with you miss” “have a nice day ma’am” and men asking if I have a boyfriend, guys talking down to me and over-explaining things… It has always been this way for me. I have much more experience living the typical life of a girl and then as a woman. Even when I tried to be a guy from around age 16 to 19 it was extremely fake and I wasn’t very good at it and people still assumed I was a girl sometimes. I’d get the occasional “oh I thought you were just a tomboy” from kids I didn’t know that well in high school.
So, everything about me is female. I’m basically a cis girl with male genitals. I never had any shot of being a man. I think that’s why detrans kink is so hot to me? but it’s also why it’s so impractical.
I’m like actively trying to be a guy lately and failing, so idk what to do. I’m probably just an intersex girl.
Whats the main thing keeping you from throwing it all away and what might help push you over that edge?
Well especially the past few days I really just feel like I want to totally go back to being a girl. aaand yet… I keep getting dragged back into this kink…
It almost feels like it isn’t a choice anymore. Like I’m destined to become male. The main thing stopping me is the expectations of the people in my life. Socially detransitioning would be the hard part, admitting that I want to be a guy and all, especially to people who are gonna say “I told you so”.
I’m not exactly sure what would allow me to go through with it, I think I would to be mentally conditioned to feel significantly more comfortable being male, or even to get uncomfortable being associated with anything feminine. This is why I say I think dedicated hypnosis might help.
Would really appreciate more detrans related asks! I am very honest about this whole thing, I’ll answer any question. You can also just bully me or try to convince me to detrans. Also kiiinda related… looking for a hypnotist to help me with detrans kink?? Shape my personality at my core…
maybe i should just become super transphobic
How do you feel about being forcefemmed into giving up any silly little notions of ever making it as a man?
honestly rn i’m begging for someone to forcefem me. Maybe that sounds crazy based on my blog but like genuinely if I had a 1 on 1 dynamic with someone very interested in making me in particular into a very feminine girl I’d be all over it. Please please please someone come into my dms and offer to turn me into a girly girl.
would you recommend detransitioning to other trans "girls"?
hmmm it depends. I think it would probably be good for a lot of them. I have three answers to this.
trans rights answer: chances are this kink is a complicated psychological response to insecurities you have about your gender and you should try to pick them apart and figure out what you really wanna do if you pull back the curtains of trauma and insecurity and such. There’s a chance maybe you should actually detransition! Gender is something that can change over time and maybe you used to be a trans girl and that is no longer the case. People evolve and it’s okay to decide being a girl is no longer for you.
internalized transphobia answer: You will never be a cis girl, and is being a “trans” girl even worth it? Either you don’t pass and like, okay ew, what are you doing thinking you can be a real girl?? Just be a guy. OR you pass and are pretty and stealth which like okay cutie you get to cosplay as a cis girl but how long is that really gonna last?
bioessentialist answer: i know you’ve got the idea in your head that that it doesn’t matter that you’re biologically male and that you can identify however you want but like c’mon dude 💀 it’s a little cliche to just say XY = Male but let’s be real, your genetics having programming in them that build your body to a specific design and every action you take to realize your mental gender is working against the very nature of your physical destiny. It’s exhausting isn’t it? Just give into your DNA! It’d look good on you.
What's the most depraved thing you've done for the sake of getting off?
A lot of my answers to this would be some variation of pretending to be someone I’m not. My biggest kink is transformation and that has led to me doing some catfishing or giving falsehoods about my identity.
I think specifically the thing I feel most guilty about is when I was doing some detrans rp and I sent a pic of my face and they *recognized me* (I know I keep alluding to my micro-celebrity but I’m really not that famous, still, sometimes people know who I am) and I, in my horny daze, decided it would be super hot if I pretended to be some random person catfishing as myself. This really hurt the person I had been talking to as they had previously seen me as kind of a role model and they got really upset and threatened to blackmail me. All that sent me into a deep depression and resulted in me not uploading any videos for months.
Not really a sexy answer, more of a sad one, but this blog is nothing if not honest.
Have you told anyone in your life you're a guy again?
I have not really. At most I’ve told a few friends I’m questioning if I may be gender fluid.
what's your favorite thing about being off HRT?
The main reason I’m off hrt is because of my breeding kink. I want to get someone pregnant 😘
Similarly I want to be able to get massive erections.
To take it a bit further I like the idea of no longer being able to pass as a girl because of the effects of testosterone, but that hasn’t really happened yet.
My asks are very open right now, I want to hear every question you have about my gender and how I feel about this kink and why I’m a guy and such. Please ask me questions!!!
Been hearing from a lot of people that they find my genuine public exploration of my gender identity really hot because I’m clearly also still jacking off to it and because clearly this is a very real thing for me. Honestly it’s a lot of internalized transphobia. I want to be a cis girl not a trans girl, and if I can’t I might as well just be a cis guy.
I think maybe I should shave my head again. Trap myself in this for longer.
I had kind of an interesting discussion last night that made me confront some of my internalized transphobia and it made me realize that my detrans kink stems from an aversion to being considered trans. In the past I was really obsessed with being seen as a cis girl, and then since I shaved my head (which was part because of detrans kink and part just me being impulsive) I’ve been in this weird position where because I can’t pass perfectly as a cis girl anymore I feel like I need to go the opposite direction and be seen as a cis guy, and it’s made it difficult to separate the kink from reality. I really do love being a girl and it is certainly my preferred way of being, and committing to detransitioning is probably very bad for me. I put my hrt back in my pill box because I don’t wanna go bald like my dad lol. Obviously I’ll keep jacking off to it I just need to stop acting like actually detransitioning is a good idea (just wait I’ll relapse back into it in under a week). I will miss my big erections and… hm. well I was about to take my meds right now… maybe I could skip my hrt again? I mean there’s no harm in that right? I can keep being a girl and not take hrt for a bit. It’s not like there will be any permanent damage. I just want to be able to get hard. Yeah that’s it. I’m still a girl. I am still a girl. Mmhmm…
Cute, pretty, quirky girl cursed to get an erection when she thinks about someone pressuring her to become a dirty gross man
I guess I’m sorry for a while now this blog has been less detrans kink and more detrans self-exploration. That’s maybe not what you’re here for. I think most likely I am gender fluid but I don’t know if maybe that’s just a step on a larger path towards being 100% male. After all I used to be very binary female and now I’m kinda 50/50 so it’s clearly trending in a male direction. I don’t think I *like* that exactly. I kind of detest the idea of becoming male. I’ve toyed with the idea of listening to sissy or bimbo hypnosis to reinforce my girliness.
This is pretty specific but if anyone knows of any hypnosis intended to turn you into an obnoxious manic egirl send it my way 😘
I might change the name of this blog to reflect my uncertainty.
this isn’t really a question but i do hope one day you can be happy as yourself, whether thats female or male i really want u to be happy
Thanks. I think I am “happy” just confused. The main frustrating thing to me with this whole thing is I’m a content creator and all this flip flopping about gender has made me not really want to show my face, which is setting me back a lot. How I present myself to the world is complicated and confusing and I want to stick to just one thing.
Realistically I’m probably a gender fluid person that wants to stick to one gender. Being male and female permanently both have merit to me. I’ll figure it out eventually.
I think I’ve mentioned this but I completely shaved my head in October, so for a long time even if I wanted to be a girl I looked pretty male because of the short hair.
I’m reaching the point soon where I can either start convincingly passing as a girl again or I can get a male haircut. I don’t know which to do.
reblog if you're an mtf boy who wants people to come into your DMs / inbox and tell you how masculine and manly you are
For any ftm chicks that wanna see my mtf man penis: my dms are open. 😘
Tomorrow I’m hooking up with a fakeboy irl and we’re going to start working towards fixing each other <3
Maybe I’m gender fluid or something idk, but really I want to be binary one way or the other, permanently.
Honestly tempted to shave and put on a pretty outfit and lots of makeup so I can jack off to myself in the mirror
I haven't shaved in over a week at this point. There still isn't really that much facial hair. I started hrt young, and actually the reason I was so eager to start hrt when i did was because of the slight facial hair growth I started getting. Since I stopped taking hrt I have noticed a bit of new hair growth on my left cheek but strangely none on my right cheek yet. Something I've started to wonder (and I wonder this every time I've tried to grow my facial hair out) is whether it's even a good idea to do this. It looks kinda bad and scraggly and it just makes me less confident when I go out. It's barely noticeable from a distance but up close it makes me look kinda bad. That being said I did promise in my notes game that I wouldn't shave so for now I won't :)
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