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Fakegirl Detrans Kink Transformation Story

Warnings: Sexual Content, MTFTM Detrans, Transformation, Identity Death, Misoygyny

You’re realllly pretty, and you know it. Everyone else knows it too. It’s not easy to be adored my thousands of viewers every time you go live, but you manage. Your winged eyeliner, all that blush, a little heart under your eye, you’re an egirl stereotype, but it looks great on you. You’re cute, you’re beautiful, you’re everyone’s girl.

You stare down the camera and catch a glance of yourself on stream. Totally on point, you’re nailing it today. Something deep inside you stirs… you’re *really* hot. To other people obviously. A little confidence never hurt anybody.

It feels good to feel this good about yourself. 7 years ago you were a boy, as silly as that sounds. That’s private information, only your closest friends explicitly know you’re trans, but of course it’s an open secret among your viewers. It’s hard to keep something like that toootally under wraps, ya know?

You just want to feel pretty, so you can stare at yourself, so other people can stare at you, and that’s what you’re doing.

Something is wrong.

You’re really only half aware of it. Here and there the you in your stream does something *slightly* different. She makes a different gesture, she uses slightly different verbiage, she’s not quite you.

She’s hot.

You’ve always been aware of it of course, how pretty you are. People tell you all the time. This is different. This is arousal. Attraction to a distinct person, to the you on the stream.

You hardly notice when your camera turns off.

You feel much more alone now, clearly in private, and extremely aroused, so you do the most logical thing. You whip it out and start jacking off. All your pretty makeup has been absorbed into your skin, making your face greasy and rough. Your hair starts falls out in clumps, leaving you with short, balding hair.

You don’t care, you’re focused on your favorite streamer.

Your body rapidly becomes completely unrecognizable, as you become an anonymous viewer instead of the main event. You’re misshapen and asymmetrical. Decidedly not pretty. Decidedly not a girl. Just an unremarkable man jacking off to a pretty girl.

You’re too horny to notice, in a deep haze of indifference, but god she’s so hot, and you’re so close, you just need her to say your name. You donate the most you can afford, $20, and she mentions you! It’s enough to feel every cell in your body explode in ecstasy as you coat her pixel perfect face in ropes of cum.

Something clicks.

She’s not even your favorite. There’s chicks on here way hotter than her.

She’s not really that bangable, and you know it.

Okay doubts over for now!!! I’m back to wanting to be a cis man. I went out in public today as a guy, even wearing a binder. I still sounded like a girl, unlearning voice training is harder than you’d think when you’ve sounded like a cis girl for years.

I feel like I’m really coming across as trans masc here and maybe that’s basically what I am at this point. I’m guessing most people that see me in public think I’m trans masc. My facial features are soft and feminine, I’m relatively short, if I’m not wearing a binder (which most of the time I’m not) I have noticeable breasts, my voice does not sound like a cis man at all, the small amount of facial hair I have looks like it just started growing.

I think the assumption for anyone would have to be either that I’m afab trans masc or maybe alternatively that I’m significantly younger than I am. I think add to that I’ve always been kinda afab-coded (I tone it down for this blog because of the nature of it) and trying to sell people on the idea that I’m a cis guy is probably not easy.

I would say if anything at this point I look like I haven’t aged since I started taking hrt and if anything look even younger than that because of the effects of estrogen, so even if I told someone I’m a cis guy they’d probably guess I’m like 18 or 19 (I’m about to turn 25)

This isn’t really a detrans kink post as much as it’s just a detrans post, but it’s interesting. I think pulling the curtains back on the kink stuff… a lot of this isn’t kink for me. Part of me still very much so wants to be a girl, and to be perfectly honest my personality and mannerisms and way of speaking are so naturally feminine that I would have to fundamentally change who I am as a person at my core to meet the detrans goals I have in mind. That’s not easy at all, but still it’s exciting to try and I want to see how far I can go with it.

Because of the nature of my personality my natural state is probably being female, I guess in the back of my head I’m pretty sure that if I detransition I’ll retransition eventually. That’s why I’m so tempted to ruin every chance I have at being a girl, going off hrt for a while and trying to change my personality and all that.

We’ll see how it goes :)

Need people in my dms to encourage me to continue to detransition, since I’ve been having some doubts. I’m still off hrt, but I’m really tempted to shave and ruin the notes game. Someone needs to stop me!!!

I don’t really know how realistic it is for me to not shave for months, or maybe even forever… I need someone to hold me accountable I guess. I’ve been getting a lot of doubts about detrans lately and that’s unacceptable. That’s why it needs to be forced on me to some extent. I might never stick to it on my own.

Honestly I’m finding that I’m afraid to go out in public looking like a guy. It’s intimidating. What if someone recognizes me? I need some encouragement.

Looking for a crazy yandere girlfriend that wants to obssess over me and invade my personal life and really just consume me whole who is also into/okay with mtftm detrans kink. Ideally she's obsessed with me but only wants me to be a masculine man so she makes me conform to male gender roles. Maybe kind of weird and specific but it's what I need in my life. dm me if you're a bpd girlie that needs a new favorite man.

Welp, today is the last day I’m allowed to shave before the limits on the detrans notes game kick in.

I’ll make myself pretty one last time before throwing away my femininity forever.

I would just not shave today either but I have some final business to take care of where I need to be a girl.

I also reached 100 notes so I do need to get a haircut soon.

Absolutely asking for people to come in my dms or just decide for me exactly what kind of man I should be. I need guidance!!!

what if people asked me to decide what kind of man they should be and have them completely reformat their blog and personality to match, and I intentionally chose the most incongruent kind of masculinity to their current identity

I have reached another milestone in my detrans notes game! Because I hit 75 Notes I now have to go out in public as a guy sometimes. I had a specific meaning for this in mind but it was a little wordy to put in the notes game. Basically anytime I go somewhere alone, without friends or family, running an errand or just getting out of the house, I will put on a deep voice and let everyone see my short hair. I'll use the men's restroom and no one will think I was ever a girl.

Let’s play a little game. If I can’t go the whole day without cumming I’ll cut every goal in my detrans notes game in half. (This is almost impossible)

True to my promise in my detrans notes game I have bought boxers to replace my panties. As a bonus they’re all boring, manly grey and black. I’m still a little nervous to take the step of throwing all my panties out but I’ll do that soon.

I have hit 50 notes on my detrans motivation notes game! This means 2 things:

1) I have to start using a male voice. This is actually going to be kind of hard for me. I have a very cis girl passing voice that I always default to. Unlearning using that is going to be harder than it might seem, but I will start trying.

2) Every 50 notes I need to adopt a new masculine interest/hobby. Here’s the thing about this, I already have somewhat male coded interests. I like comic books, sports, and history, among several more feminine interests. That being said when I was a cis girl and I told people I like baseball or whatever, no one raised an eye. Lots of girls like baseball. I need to find some interests that are so AMAB coded that almost no cis girl would touch them. Like if I started playing CS:GO or following UFC or something. Not sure I’d be into either of those particular but I want to hear lots of suggestions from everyone reading this! You honestly could even say something like “hitting on girls” or something lol

As I mentioned this will happen per 50 notes so I will probably be picking up plenty of new male interests. Again this more than just a kink for me, I’m using this as a push to actually become a man.

1, 5, 8, 10, 11, 17, 19~

1. I haven't measured it in ages, as far as I know it's 8 inches but that could be way off if I did it wrong. It's very thick

5. The veins on it are not visible at all no

8. I jerk off a lot, I'm addicted, sometimes I cum around 5 times a day

10. I've actually never had a wet dream as far as I know

11. I don't know if anyone has accidentally touched me there, but if they did I would love it.

17. I don't really rate girls but I should definitely start doing that.

19. I've definitely been called a creep, especially recently

Normalize cute, cis-passing trans girls throwing it all away and becoming hairy, masculine, straight alpha males.

Normalize pretty trans icons that inspired a new generation of trans girls completely transforming into perverted, transphobic dude bros.

Normalize girls that started hrt early and never finished male puberty going off estrogen and letting their real adult body finally develop.

Yes this is from personal experience. Yes I used to be a slightly well known trans Internet personality. No, I'm certainly not anymore :)

and at this point it's much more than just a kink.

I would love to answer these

Fun ask game for MTFs!

So, how big is it?

Circumcised or uncircumcised?

How musky?

What's the name you give for your dick?

Are the veins of your dick visible when it's soft?

Can you jerk off with two hands?

How full are your balls right now?

How many times do you jerk off in a day?

Have you ever cum during sleep?

What was one wet dream you still remember?

Did someone ever accidentally touched your dick? How that make you feel?

Have you ever used your ass for sexual pleasure? At all?

At what size does your dick stop fitting into your panties?

Briefs or boxers?

What kind of boy did the girls in your school perceive you as?

Do you automatically plan to pay for everything in a date?

What was the last girl you rated on how fuckable she was?

Just how obsessed with pussy are you?

Have a real woman ever called you a creep?

Your crush just told you they are not attracted to woman but love femboys. What do you do?

Can you speak without swearing?

When do you plan to hit the gym?

Have you joined the army?

Do you piss standing?

How loud can you burp?

Blue or green?

If you like boys, have you thought in buying a gay flag?

If you like girls, don't you think being more manly will attract more woman to you?

What fantasy do you visit often?

Have you ever realized you are a confused boy? If so, what made you realize?

True to the promise of my notes game I just bought TEN pairs of boxers and I will be throwing out my useless panties. It's ridiculous I was wearing panties in the first place, obviously they didn't fit. One of the things on the list is that every 50 notes I will pick up a new masculine interest. I am autistic so I'm someone who has a lot of intense, specific hobbies and interests. Some of them are already somewhat masculine, but I engage in them in somewhat feminine ways. For example I follow sports pretty closely and I like watching videos about history. Each time I hit 50 notes I will elevate one of those more male interests and I will try to engage with it in a more man-brained way. Maybe eventually I will pick up entirely new interests too, but they have to be something that I would even find interesting in the first place.

Also at this point I will not be able to shave for most of April (and counting) I intend to start the count of days I can't shave on April 1, just because it'll be easier to keep track of if it starts on the first of a month. I actually at this point have not shaved in 4 or 5 days so I'm undecided if I will shave on March 31 to reset it or not. I am somewhat leaning towards doing that but we'll see.

One last thing, I have edited the list a bit since I initially posted it. I will never change goals that have already been reached and I'll try not to move around goals I already listed unless I feel like they're in an order that is unnatural or doesn't make sense. For the most part I will only be adding new things to the list.

I intend to adhere to the list entirely and I will be posting proof that I followed through. Be sure to hold me accountable. Another thing, if I reach the point where I'm allowed to shave again, the notes game ends.

Fakegirl mtftm Detrans Notes Game

Detransitioning has become more real than kink for me over time and I need a little push to commit to it

Every 2 - One day without shaving my face (starting April 1)

Currently (165 Notes) Can shave again June 22

Every 10 - One week without hrt (starting March 30)

Currently (165 Notes) Can take hrt again July 20

Every 25 - I'll buy a distinctly masculine article of clothing

25 - throw out all my panties and buy boxers

Every 50 - Pick up a new, hypermasculine interest (be sure to suggest some!)

50 - start using a deeper voice

75 - Present as male in public sometimes

80 - I'll do everything I can to unlearn my voice training permanently

90 - Start actively rejecting anything girly or feminine. Try to get myself disgusted by the idea of being associated with girly stuff.

100 - Casually present as male publicly all the time (except when with close friends or family)

100 - My hair is already fairly short but I'll get it cut in a more masculine style

100 - Actively train myself to think more like a horny dumb bro

110 - No show to my next hair removal appointment (to prep for bottom surgery)

120 - Start working out (to get buff)

125 - Change my identity and pronouns to male and he/him on all my private accounts that my friends and family don't see

125 - completely change my wardrobe

150 - I'll change my pronouns to he/him on all my social medias

175 - Throw out all my hrt and never refill it

200 - Maintain a beard for the rest of my life

200 - Start taking testosterone supplements

200 - Cancel my bottom surgery entirely

300 - Start applying for jobs as a guy

500 - I'll come out to everyone I know as detransitioning and be a boy forever