Schizotypal Pd - Blog Posts

Kicks my feet.... Schizotypal personality disorder things.... Whatever you want to do for it . Maybe like undoing dynamics . Idk. Smile

im not really sure of exactly what u wanted but here u go -🐺

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person holding stpd flag , person with stpd symbol on chest , text reading “im schizotypal” , person speaking with disordered speech , person having disordered thoughts , person with a neutral facial expression with the word “flat”

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I keep ruining relationships with people 🙃

maybe I am meant to be alone maybe I’m unlikable maybe I’m unlovable i don’t know anymore everyday I have to fight off delusions on wether people actually like me or not I have to fight off isolation

songs that are relatable to people with schizotypal personality disorder

Ladytron- destroy everything you touch feeling a lack of empathy towards others and destroying your relationships with everyone you know 

Jack stauber- baby hotline wanting to seek professional help when your at your lowest, psychosis/anxiety 

Cristianmirror- the mind electric 4 demo - struggling with mental instability and not being able to tell reality from delusion

Balde and bath- Bloody sink I feel like think song relates to those who suffer in silence, with crippling anxiety and paranoia to the point they will have panic attacks in public 

Black Sabbath - paranoid obviously paranoia that an entity or a person is out to get you yet no one sees it but you

Marc Demarco- chamber of reflection this song could relate to the feeling of isolation and loneliness as people with schizotypal will often ghost or push people away due to paranoia that others will hurt them 

Cannibal corpse- hammer smashed face relates to those who actually killed or experience wanted to kill (not all people with stpd experience this though keep in mind)

Radiohead- creep a song about feeling isolated as you don’t fit in can relate to those who struggle to socialize as they are seen as awkward or eccentric 

I’ll make a list of songs I feel relate to schizotypal personality disorder

perhaps I was meant to be alone I hurt people or they hurt me, I do not trust them. I’m stuck in a form of self isolation I choose to be isolated the only person I felt safe around is my friend with anti social personality disorder man I love him he’s legit my only friend I confide in. Schizotypal is not fun it’s harming

I was hallucinating again the other day and I was so terrified :(

I don’t want to interact with society anymore I want to be alone

I had a psychotic episode yesterday and the maintenance saw my hell of a room when I was outside now I’m embarrassed

I think my bf secretly doesn’t like me

Last night I was terrified to fall asleep because I felt like I was being watched again :(

In the corner of my room I saw a statue of similar to those in meso America it scared me

I know there all lying to me

I’m probably going to be alone for the rest of my life I cannot trust people

Does anyone know any schizotypal characters I want to relate to them :(

Anyone else homicidal instead of suicidal?

I can’t take it anymore I’m going insane

It doesn’t matter who it is if anyone tells me they love me I think their lying

Why is everyone lying to me :(

I was crying yesterday I’m tired of having schizotypal personality disorder, I’m tired of accusing people of stuff, I’m tired of being paranoid, I’m tired of thinking people are doing rituals on me, I’m tired of thinning entities are watching me

I’m so tired of being scared to sleep I feel them watching me the entities

I do not believe anyone when they tell me they love me

I fear I am getting worse I do not trust my therapist or my psychiatrist to tell them this

Anyone get scared to sleep to sleep because they feel entities watching them

I’m getting suspicious of a family member trying to make me sick

Schizotypal is like having thoughts that people are out to get you and your mind convincing you that your friends and family don’t like you

Sometimes I’m ashamed of having schizotypal personality disorder because when I do research, I see loads of serial killers and I think to myself will I become like them? 

I’ve been feeling an entity watching me for the past couple of weeks