Cluster A - Blog Posts

Kicks my feet.... Schizotypal personality disorder things.... Whatever you want to do for it . Maybe like undoing dynamics . Idk. Smile

im not really sure of exactly what u wanted but here u go -🐺

in order:

person holding stpd flag , person with stpd symbol on chest , text reading “im schizotypal” , person speaking with disordered speech , person having disordered thoughts , person with a neutral facial expression with the word “flat”

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songs that are relatable to people with schizotypal personality disorder

Ladytron- destroy everything you touch feeling a lack of empathy towards others and destroying your relationships with everyone you know 

Jack stauber- baby hotline wanting to seek professional help when your at your lowest, psychosis/anxiety 

Cristianmirror- the mind electric 4 demo - struggling with mental instability and not being able to tell reality from delusion

Balde and bath- Bloody sink I feel like think song relates to those who suffer in silence, with crippling anxiety and paranoia to the point they will have panic attacks in public 

Black Sabbath - paranoid obviously paranoia that an entity or a person is out to get you yet no one sees it but you

Marc Demarco- chamber of reflection this song could relate to the feeling of isolation and loneliness as people with schizotypal will often ghost or push people away due to paranoia that others will hurt them 

Cannibal corpse- hammer smashed face relates to those who actually killed or experience wanted to kill (not all people with stpd experience this though keep in mind)

Radiohead- creep a song about feeling isolated as you don’t fit in can relate to those who struggle to socialize as they are seen as awkward or eccentric 

THIS. ACTUALLY THIS. Religion is fake but I am quite literally an angel.

npd + stpd culture is not even being religious but literally being an angel

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Relationships are exhausting. The effort, the expectations, the unspoken rules I never fully understand or care to follow. It’s either too much or never enough. People say they want honesty, but they flinch when I give it to them. They say they value independence, but resent it when I don’t need them.

People always disappoint me the moment they seem to finally understand me. Maybe for a second, I think they get it, but they never really do. And that’s fine. I don’t want them too close anyway. I don’t fear abandonment, if anything, I’m always the first to cut people off when they become useless, irritating, or start thinking they have some kind of hold on me. Every time, it just proves what I already know: being alone is better. No expectations, no attachments, no one slowing me down. Maybe I’m wrong, maybe it’s a mistake. But it’s the only thing that seems to work for me.

I know online PD quizzies ain’t shit. But some of the questions for this test are fucking weird. Like what does being interested in art for a magazine cover have anything to do with personality disorders? Lmao

Rivi is 22 years old. they use He/Him & She/Her pronouns.

they have been professionally diagnosed with:

panic disorder

depression

PTSD

they are currently questioning if they have aspd, bpd, ppd & stpd. They might also be on the schizospec.

they do see a therapist & psychiatrist.

also pls don’t hesitate to message him if ur curious about anything or just wanna strike up a convo!!

also, feel free to reblog. i don’t mind.