Self H@rm - Blog Posts
Okay, I got used to relapse after few days of school, but.... WHY THE F#CK I RELAPSED ON HOLIDAYS? I can't describe how much I wanna cut my arms in a bl!!dy mess, I can't describe how much I wanna make deep cuts, but... I'm still afraid of my self-h!!rm being discovered... Especially if it'll see my teachers, neurologist, parents, etc... I just don't get this feeling when I cut my legs:(. Also I'm self-h!!rm!ng about 7 months, lol
Hey guys, I've a question. What do you think about cutting cuz of grades? Does 3 cuts compensate 3 (if we're talking about USA It'll be C)? And does 5 cuts compensate 2 (F if we're talking about USA system)?
Or I shouldn't cut at all? Anyway, I'm gonna do it now...
PLEASE HELP ME!!!
I can't keep fighting with it anymore, I can't describe how much I wanna take out my kn!fe and cut my arms. I wanna make too many cut, to make them bl!!dy mess. I can't fight it. I already cut my legs, but it doesn't help. Please. PLEASE. PLEASE!! Someone, please help me. I can't fight this urge, one more hour and I'll turn my arms in a mess. Looks like I have an addiction...
I wish, when I commit suicide someone will write song about me, or become an example why you should give attention to your kid. Even few tribute groups will be enough.
I have Facebook acc, so maybe, one day I'll start livestream where I'll kms... But for now we'll just wait.
UMMM
just relapsed for no reason...its weird like.. i just wanted to...ALSO! my mom took my pills because shes scared i will try to ki11 myself lol
IM ACTUALLY TWEAKING
Bro staying clean is fuckin HARD...like i can't relapse😭my parents will definetly know theyr like some damn FBI agents
IM FUCKING CRYING
my mom discovered i Sh....im so fucked..She was yelling like crazy...i KNEW she will be angry and just say how im dumb and shes disappointed in me...i want to dissapear
IDK ANYMORE
i have a therapy tomorow...SO EARLY IN THE MORNING THO AAAAAAAA...im kinda happy to see my therapist! but still...i CANT tell her everything...my parents would literally kill me if they discover my Sh Addiction...
bruh it hurts
I tried to stop bl33ding for about 10 minutes...i hate this...Its like i can't control my body! Its getting too much...
BRO RAAAH
why tf do i keep hurting myself even when im okay and happy?! like im fine today but i still did it...i dont have control over my damn body
🤡🤡
i need to start taking my medications again eh i stopped,thinking i dont need it but i feel like shit,but when i take them i feel so damn empy and emotionless..
BRRUUUH
HAHA NOT ME CVTTING MYSELF AFTER POSTING HOW WONT DO IT💀
BLA BLA BLA BLE BLE BLE BLU BLU BLU
i was about to hurt myself...but then i was like fuck it! and did my cute jirai makeup and covered myself in fake blood and took cute pictures :33 (send help the fake blood wont come off?)
why the fuck do i still miss that person?
He made me hate myself..I cried every night because of him, I started hurting myself because of him, I wanted to di3 so much but I didn't even have the energy to get out of bed...he manipulated the shit out of me,totally ruined me
why do i still miss him...
im like „im getting better!"
but other day im crying after relapsing...
Is it wrong that i like my scars?
i like the way they look,i want more
BRO💀bro~😲
My dad brought a box full of razor blades from work...🥹ummm like...is it a gift orrr
IM FUCKIN SHAKING
i relapsed like So fucking much its deep as fuck im crying idk what to do
i had a dream about sh..it was so fuckin detailed broooo
im two days clean from sh
i know its not really speciál but its a really big step for me
just did a Sh aftercare fór the first time damn I deserve a price😭umm i went too far this time ehhhhhh
Yesterday I was happy that my cuts were healing....i fucked up today..
I lost my Blade?!!?!! like i dont give a fuck but like WHERE IS IT what if my parents founds it im cooked
edit - nwm i found it...I am such an idiot im literally laughing rn oh god 😭😭🖐🏻🖐🏻💀
im kinda scared i think one of my cut is infected 💀umm 😭😭
i love the feeling of blood dripping down my leg and arms...
ughh..blood soaked through my favorite shirt
me rn 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️idk likeeeeee idk how to hide scars and stuff i just dont care anymore👽👽
about to relapse..i dont see a reason to stop even my family hates me:pp
