Will I ever be in a job where I’m NOT being harassed or made to feel uncomfortable for being trans? The irony is the people who are the ones being transphobic are the ones who are always talking about how we need to be kinder to others but then turn around and spew some of the most disgusting transphobic bs you’ve ever heard.
maybe it's just me and the side of the world I'm in but it's slowly starting to become less and less reasonable to accept myself as trans. Like I'm starting to feel that all this dysphoria is bs that I'm making up in my head and I just need to snap out of it.
Even if it isn't, even if conversion therapy isn't real and hating your gender isn't a "privileged mindset", it still isn't worth accepting that just to get discrimination against and killed. I can do that as a woman, I'm not going to pay for hormones to do it as a trans man.
“He didn’t pass as a boy, and he made for a terribly ugly girl.”
fuck.
“You’re such a twink!” no sorry I’m literally just a trans man who doesn’t pass
I’ll always be imperfect even to the ones I love
I’ll never be a man to anyone. I’ll never be beautiful to anyone. I’ll never be satisfying enough for anyone. There is always just something wrong with me and I don’t know what that is. I will always be imperfect to everyone. There will always be something awful about me that makes people like me a little less.
All I want is to be liked. All I want is to be loved. All I want is to not be imperfect to someone. I want someone to respect who I am and not prefer things over me. I fucking hate myself man. I hate everyone that I know and love and want them out of my life. I hate everything. I just wish I could rot away forever and fucking die.
Nobody will ever truly love me. And I get proved right every fucking time.
I’m just a mistake