Tw Depressing Thoughts - Blog Posts
I should've stayed quiet.
I keep throwing up wtf
I failed at trying to get rid of myself. It hurts
Stop acting like you know everything about me.
Why do you hate me so much? I'm trying my best, but it's never enough for you.
Why i am so special in your eyes? Why do you like me so much? I wish i was a better person, i am so sorry.
I hate living, but i don't wanna die because something is holding me back, but i don't know what it is and it's killing me.
‘Me’ this image portrays me drowning in the ocean. I’m able to swim to the top but I’m only able to get a breath of air before I’m dragged back down to the bottom and each time I come up for air I get dragged deeper.
art by -erlk.01
art by Matt Hunter
loneliness and emptiness
Thank you to everyone who liked me and was my friend. Sadly, my depression is getting out of control, and I can't stand it any longer.
I don't know if I will be okay or not. I just want to feel happy again, but all there is waiting is despair. My medications aren't helping. I am desperately seeking happiness, only to find nothing.
If I don't make myself disappear permanently, I will be back.
nothing about adulting excites me, it just makes me remember that I’m forced to be alive on this earth and I can’t even take myself out of it guilt free
Anybody else get really sad when they turn on the T.V. or go into social media because of all the shit that’s going on in the world right now…? I just wish everybody could live in peace and let each other do so.
what happened to me?
because why can't i?
yeah no it's totally cool that you left me on read for 6+ hours after i finally reached out to you after an of entire week not speaking im totally not frothing at the mouth or anything
10 days sober off klonopin and sh and all i wanna fucking do is relapse !! is it even fucking worth it to keep this up !! all i fuckin want is someone to talk to and be actual friends with but i guess that's impossible !!
what i wouldn't fucking give to be punched in the face.
it's pathetic how much i fucking hate you. i can't fucking stand it. i hate that you're out with your fucking friends and ignoring me. you know i want you to be happy but why can't you see how much of my happiness you're responsible for. why the fuck did you get me addicted to you like this and then just fuck off.
I think everything is just supposed to be fucking miserable all the time.
i hate snapchat memories lol. just saw some pics from 5 years ago of me and my friends on call when we started online school during the pandemic and it fucking stung way more than i anticipated. these people don't talk to me anymore. they've all moved on with their lives and im still drowning in the past by myself, wishing they'd come back to get me. they have partners and new friends in our old city, and i got forcefully pulled away to a whole new province without my permission. i get to start all over again with friendships and family i don't want in my life.
i miss my friends.
why am i even bothering with sobriety and cleanness at this point. all i wanna do is be high and forget how fucking miserable im gonna be for the rest of my life. just for a few hours. but i cAnT because tHinGs WoNt EvEr gEt BeTtEr iF yOuRe uSiNg. who the fuck cares if it gets better at this point? it obviously fucking won't. i'm trapped in this fucking disgusting body forever. the least i can do for myself is make myself happy for a little while.