About medical attention and being the first to believe to yourself.
Some of us form into ppl pleasers due to certain circumstances. Sometimes it is even hard to tell what do you feel if nobody believes you you feel this way. Than, if unfortunately you become ill, if nobody believes you... You might accidentally believe them instead of yourself. But our body is wise, and it gives emotional and physical signals to our brain with a reason! No one is living this life from your first day to your last day, in your shoes, in your skin - except YOU. You have the widest perspective on your life story. Only you live and feel the consequences of believing them and abandoning yourself. And it is not your fault, it is all you have known till that moment. Please forgive yourself, because... At any moment you have the choice to be the first human being on earth to believe you, to be by your side. I don't know if it would help, but I am alread believing you. Everything you have gone through, any emotion and sensation you have - it all makes perfect sense to me, it is important, it deserves to be seen and respected. So if you don't get the right medical attention, please don't stop searching for better options. Even if you need to pause for such long period of time to regain trust, to save money if possible... The moment you can, please keep moving forward, because YOU deserve to find those kind compassionate allies in life - who will care, who will listen, who will help without making you smaller than the equal human being you are. Because your essence is awsome and you deserve to get the help you need ❤️