Am I Real?

the feminine urge to just drop on my knees and scream in a public space

Rules to prevent it from going too far

🌹Don’t lower your goal weight. Ever. Don’t forget that it’s enough.

🥀 When your stomach passes the flat point and starts caving in you’ve gone to far and you need to stop that shit.

🌷If you’re passing out at work you need to eat more.

🌺 If it’s too hard to lift normal things such as milk jug, PlayStation, table chairs, you need more calories.

🌸 Don’t work out every day of the week.

🏵️ When you find yourself saying “fuck this” and eating everything in your house, you’re restricting too hard.

🌻 Always drink lots of water throughout the day whether or not you’re fasting.

🌼 Keep in mind that you may gain and loose the same 3 lbs of water or food weight throughout the week and it’s not fat.

💮 If you really feel the need to eat, eat. And don’t feel bad about it.

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this actually is rewiring my brain as we speak

You MUST learn to slow down your eating these reasons:

1. You will be able to taste each bite instead of inhaling it.

2. You can savor the quality instead of quantity.

3. You remain in better control.

4. You can detect fullness better when you eat more slowly.

It’s crazy how you can teach your body to be full by eating a toddler size portion and if you eat any more than that you get sick

wouldn't wish an ED on my worst enemy cuz what if they get skinny before me

It’ll get easier. As soon as you start seeing the results. The flat stomach. The thigh gaps. The comfort when sitting down. No more need to hide in big clothes. The easiness will come from being satisfied when you look in the mirror. Everything will be easier. You won’t even have to think about doing it. As soon as you see the results, it gets so easy, like it’s happening on its own.

staring into the bathroom mirror gripping the sink and telling myself "you are not uniquely horrible you are literally just some guy"