Me All The Time

scared.

im scared to catch these feelings, these cravings for someone always end the same. they rather end in pain or regret.

but the way you act, the way you talk, the way we talk, its different. its something ive never had. 

but i end up overthinking everything. i end up asking myself “is it worth it?” “should i fall for someone who i just met and probably doesn’t feel the same.” 

then i look at you and…

what if

what if i never did what i did? would it still be hard knowing that you deserved better, that if you were with someone else you’d be happier? maybe

but i cant go back. im stuck with the decision of letting you go and that i was too scared of being with you and disappointing you. yeah i know its dumb but what can i do now? its not like i can go back?

i have a question, do you ever think about me? yes i know this is dumb and the answer is probably no because i hurt you. but i just wanna know because i think about you. yeah i know you’re probably thinking why and maybe kinda pissed but i do and its all these little things that trigger it, like the stuff that trigger memories. happy ones. but really i just want to know if you ever just a little thought about me.

well yet again you’re never going to see this…

puzzle

in the beginning

you were a a puzzle.

unable to figure you out

like a mystery nobody has solved

you were quiet, but then

we’d talk at night until later we’d realized the sun has come up.

you’d made me think about

the charming efforts to get my attention & im here thinking why? why me?

i was surprised, the man who was a puzzle

was finally figured out, but by me.

as we were getting older, you made me think about the clear road ahead of us.

the future i was ready for because you were there with me

now here at the end

and im here by your bedside

reminiscing of our young & reckless selves, as you fall asleep for the last time saying

“you finished your puzzle.”

~c.e

keep me - khalid

singing our favorite songs but the funny this is every time we did you'd always get the words wrong. and i was your biggest fan, you should never forget it. i bet you no man doesn't love you like i did. doesn't love you lioe i did. does he love you like i did? no, no, no.

holding hands · 手牵手

someone requested i post these without the lyrics so here u go

don’t blame me love made me crazy, if it doesn’t you ain’t doing it right.