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2025, week 7 (feb 10th - feb 16th) 👩‍💻

another week of ups and downs. hang in there, friends.

accomplishments this week:

I did two more presentations at work, now I am finally done with those for a little while lol

I finished going through the modules for the NVIDIA cert, now I just have to study and pass the exam

I finished going through the first chapter of my ham radio study book. it's been a hot second since I've taken a physics course, but luckily I'm mostly remembering it as I go

highlights this week:

I've continued to drink copious amounts of tea

I made a trip to a local electronics store to get some parts for a project

I read a bunch and added some new entries to my commonplace book

bionics is where information technology meets biology & chemistry🧠👩🏼‍💻

25/02/07

Daydreaming about earlier this week when I wasn't sick and left the house to work. Mind you, I'm willing to bet the study session on the left is where I picked this up.

February 27, 2025 • Thursday

--- 30 days of productivity • COLLAB CHALLENGE WITH @studaxy • Day 20/30 ---

💛 Axy's study time: 0h

💙 Iris's study time: 4h

[Axy's sleep time was like 17h lol but in their defense they were sick and terribly sleep deprived]

Made some IT notes. I'm not drastically lagging behind on that subject anymore :)

🎧 On the Run — Glass Animals

spectrophotometer lab & physical chemistry notes

25 FEBRUARY 2025 | 34/100 DAYS OF PRODUCTIVITY

started the day with physical chemistry lab!

then went to work - waiting on a couple of other departments to send me stuff, so had a chill day

evening bioethics lecture!

had a dance rehearsal after class

then finished a couple of problems for physical chemistry

🎧: everybody else is doing it so why can't we? - the cranberries 📚: ulysses - james joyce (i WILL finish it by the end of the month)

77/100 days of productivity!

Saturday reset mode: activated. You’re building something bigger than just a productive day—you’re building resilience, discipline, and balance. Keep going!

Log: 23 Feb

☀ Morning ▸ Breakfast + journal ▸ Research Work (RO) ▸ Light stretching

🌿 Afternoon ▸ Deep-clean workspace + tidy up ▸ Lunch+ write up ▸ Catch up on research (editing)

🌙 Evening ▸ Call home ▸ Yoga ▸ Go shopping ▸ Wind down with a movie or podcast

...

𝔠𝔬𝔣𝔣𝔢𝔢 𝔣𝔬𝔯 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔰𝔱𝔲𝔡𝔢𝔫𝔱

A Really Fucking Vulgar Guide to Not Losing Your Shit in College (Condensed Version)

Bitches love to put things into lists. Moreover, bitches love numbered shit. Here’s some numbered shit in list format to help you not suck in higher education. You’re welcome.

1. Go to class. Like 210% serious. I don’t give a shit if you’re a get by on nothing, A+ slacker. You’re fucking paying for this crap so you might as well get the services owed to you. Take your ass to class even if you zone out 99% of the time. You know 1% more than you did when you walked up in there. Congrats, asshole.

2. All that free time you have during your first week of classes? Make it your bitch. Don’t just print the goddamn syllabus and be like all done. No motherfucker. Take a good fucking look at that assignment list. What’s due next week? Yeah, do that shit now bc I know you don’t have anything else to do. Then when you’re coughing up a lung six weeks into the semester and don’t feel like getting your ass up to do that calculus homework, you’ll remember this week. You’ll remember that you’ve been a week ahead this whole damn semester. Pat yourself on the back, ass wipe.

3. Prepare yo self. No seriously. You got notes to print for class? Sure you could be like all those other bitches and just shove them into your backpack, or you could actually /prepare/ for class. I’m talking looking that shit over, identifying key concepts, getting a decent grasp of the material before your ass is even in class. You a STEM major? Yeah, make this kinda shit your life because now class is like one bomb ass group review session. Again, you’re welcome.

4. Snack like a motherfucker, but save that junk food shit for the weekends. From now on, you are a fucking health guru during the week or if you’re a slacker like me, at least on the days you have class. Fruits? Hell yeah. Pack some of those. Mind wandering in class? Snack on some apple slices. Can’t stay awake? Keep eating some almonds or some shit, but don’t be that bitch with the potato chips. Just don’t.

5. Read. Yeah, you heard me. Read and I’m not just talking assigned reading. I bet my left butt cheek that your campus library has /something/ of interest to you. Commuting and don’t want to drive out there? Library databases bro. We’re in the digital age, motherfucker. I’d bet my other butt cheek that the shit you want is in a nice little PDF somewhere. But na man, you thinking maybe you want to go into computer science? Check out computer science books and eat them up bro. You don’t like reading them? Probably not the field for you. You a biology major in your second year? Yeah dumbass. Time to break out the bio books and not the ones your professor is shoving in your face. Amaze your friends and teachers with your out of class knowledge. Be a fucking star.

𝔰𝔬𝔪𝔟𝔢𝔯 𝔟𝔩𝔲𝔢

I haven’t taken a bio class since high school, so I did a lot of review before our first practical :) Anyway, this is one of my favorite rooms to study in!

vintage stamps

13.02.2025 [😃]

⌨️: 기사 작성날/ The day I wrote my article

17th feb 2025

— loved my journaling session today! & also that iced matcha latte was soooooo good guys aaaa 🍵

17.02.2025

physician professional behavior roleplay at class today. we collaborated with students from indonesian arts institute, who play as difficult patients. and man it was difficult. kudos to the arts students, they are so fucking good at this.

physical activity: biking to and from medschool, pilates 10 mins, resistence training 200 leg lifts, 200 arm lifts (WOAH! UNEXPECTEDLY FELT GOOD! definitely not as hard as when i started out)

tadarrus (at taubah 50 - 67)

📖 - the bloody chambers, angela carter

paperbacksanddaisies

Internet Etiquette

Devastating! You just saw a take that you don't agree with! This is a check for reading comprehension and the practice of good faith. 

Analyze 

What emotion was this intended to inspire?

What was the goal the speaker was trying to achieve?

How could this be interpreted differently?

Is there context that would change the meaning?

Is the speaker qualified?

Reflect

What is your first reaction and why did you have that specific reaction?

Is it an issue that is harming you and/or did the group being harmed directly state that this harms them?

Do you accept the consequences that could result from interacting?

Is the speaker someone you can reason with?

What assumptions are you making about the speaker?

Speak

What is the goal of your words?

What audience are you catering towards?

Are you talking to the person with respect?

How could your words be interpreted differently?

What reaction will people have towards your words and how is it being achieved?

pov: left my apartment for the night and my friend let me crash at hers ( and infiltrate her kitchen ).

my main mantras for 2025

plot plot plot

remember people love you

end harmful pattern

love yourself and know your worth

focus on growth (in all areas)

remember people care

be scared and do it anyway

no self-isolation (call bestie)

nonchalant is for losers

2025 is for yearning

my insta @ malusokay

despite at this point ritual-like patterns of upheaval, it is definitely nice to be back. I've picked some spring research that I really am proud of and may transform into a PhD, plus now happens to be winter pride, so I am immersed in writing and queers. library in the top right is the Black Diamond :)

vintage stamps

focus on the likes and not the wants

you may not want to clean your room, but you like the peace and call it brings you after

you may not want to study, but you like the confidence and satisfaction you get from being prepared

you may not not want to apologise, but you like the relief and connection that reconciliation brings

you may not want to cook, but you like the satisfaction of eating a healthy come cooked meal prepared with love

you may not want to exercise, but you like how you feel afterwards and how it makes you confident

you may not want to journal or write, but you like the reflection and calm it brings you

you may not want to step out of your comfort zone, but you like the new experiences and growth you gain from it

my insta @ malusokay

| 13 february 2025 |

lecture notes from e&m. this is one of the nicer looking ones haha, kinda struggling with e&m but it seems like it gets better in the 2nd half of the semester (hopefully)

🎧 highway robbery — de'wayne

71/100

I've bad period cramps today... couldn't go to uni... I gotta be honest here... not everyday will be 10/10... we will have these days and its ok. accepting a not so productive day when ur body is barely surviving is more than ok! sending love and warmth to all my perfectionist girlies out there!

Log: 17th Feb 2025 running wild

Read Ministry of Time

Journal_mental health check

Gentle stretching and long shower

Protein rich brunch

Studied Gradient Descent __2P

Loss function __2P

Language P

called home

watched Run Jin Variety Show Extravaganza

Note to self: No self-hatred is allowed! u r doing what u can!

16.02.25 🌨️ i've never been so tired 😴

2.17.25

Worked out this morning and studied before attending a conference in Department of Emergency Med. I napped after. On the way to the hospital now for my duty!

Crying alone? No no no, light a candle and cry in the company of gods.

I aspire to be the kind of person who'll stare at your soul from across the road and then disappear when a bus goes by.