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yall are pro mental illness until they hallucinate

yall are pro mental illness until they dissociate

yall are pro mental illness until they self-isolate

yall are pro mental illness until they're paranoid

yall are pro mental illness until they split

yall are pro mental illness until it's too Scary for your comparatively neurotypical brain to handle

Recap

It's been some time... Right. So, i changed everything, because i made this profile when i was going through a rough time with my ed and sh problems, i was a teenager. A child. A literal baby.

I still got sh problems, but they've been better now, i have been way better than when i used to be around here. I'm not trying to go get my old ways again, because that's way dumber than just recycling this account as something else.

So, is nice meeting you all again, I'm Anne, and i am mentally ill.

God *JYP* hears my prayers and gave me a new bop faNcYyYy

AlsO GAVE LOVE TO JEONGYEON SHE DESERVE IT

FANCY!

I'm sad and angry i'm gonna eat 10 chips ahoy

i'm alive *sadly*

I start school again, today. It's 2am AND I'M NOT SLEEPING.

The president had a conference yesterday and he removed our mid-term break, every teen in my country is like:

we're sad, i'm sad.

Minecraft and cartoon network kept me alive.

I'm avoiding social contact since I fucked up my self-steem AGAIN.

And I started wondering what will happen if my girlfriend notices me acting weird, she did last time and:(. I don't want to have a mental breakdown and tell her I have an eating disorder. I don't want tu destroy everything again. I want to be okay but I can't even keep myself okay.

(Day 31??? of quarantine: april 14)

Me: omG I LOST 3 POUNDS ;_;

My brain: great, next, die

My ed: hOLD A FUCKING SECOND, WHEN, WERE, HOW, WHO, WHAT¿ but you still fat gurl.

Me: -counting how much calories I ate last week and trying to anilize how I lost 3 pounds in a week after bingin' 2 times-

me when someone says they have only eaten 500 calories:

Me when I eat only 300-400 calories and that person get angry about that:

me, while being abused: it's okay, I'm used to this already, and I'm tough, I can take it.

me, years later when the trauma symptoms hit: I WAS SO WRONG

So, i did some SH again some days ago.

I feel bad, but i actually felt good after doing it. And that's exactly the problem.

I can't stand nor think of cutting myself again. I want to use short shirts and i really hate to keep using sweaters when i'm dying of hotness.

But i don't want my friends to worry. I don't want to make them think i'm doing bad again, because i swear i'm not. It's been two years, and i relapsed. That was really hard.

This make me happy:')

probably i just said it but i want to say it again:

- don’t apologise if you don’t know english.

- yes, english is the most common language on the internet but you are not forced to know it perfectly.

- your own language is beautiful.

- non-english people make a huge effort to write in English everyday on this website.

- support non-english people and don’t make them feel bad if they do not know English. 

- actually support all the languages.

- spread more language diversity on Tumblr.

thank you.