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OMG I was ⭐ing so I made a huge meal (bigger than the one of today episode) and I couldn’t even start it! I stopped myself, listening to what my body was telling me instead of the craving! I’m really proud because if I haven’t listened I think I would have felt so sick

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🌺

Total of the day :~ 1000

As always don’t count like I do lmao, I made a huge meal full of protein because I was lacking of it

I didn’t wanted to jinx it if I talked about it buuuut

24H F@ST DONE HAHA

I’m ⭐️ving right now so I’m gonna go eat something hehe I’m proud, I resisted to the school trip temptation :))

'Why do you always add random numbers in your notes app'

-God forbid a girl has hobbies 😮‍💨

DAY 14

Working on my thesis

Working out

Working on my mindset

Working on my projects

Working

Haha

Tomorrow I’m gonna try a 24h f@st ! (I don’t count coffee in the equation)

And it start right now!

Basically not 3@t!ng anything until I come back home:)

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 💋

Breakfast~ tofu, steamed vegetables, rice, salad, and fruit and coffee Lunch~ vegetable fritters, tempeh, beef, steamed vegetables, sambal and coffee. Dinner~ rice, mashed potatoes, broccoli, steamed vegetables with tofu, an omelet, fruits and coffee Snack~ 2 coffee and 1 stomach medicine

Total:~ 1700

Proud of meeee for not stuffing my plates and prioritising vegetables and proteins hehehe

I’m not really active because I’m in a school trip. It feels like it’s also to test to see if I can r3str!ct myself while hanging out with my friends for three all day.. so far it’s working I said no to the morning snacks, just drank a coffee to stay in the vibe and didn’t even finish my plates (I hate throwing out food but I was feeling so full omg) proud of myself hehe Wish me luck for dinner, I’m setting the limit at 1800 since it’s also c@lør!3 deficit limit :)

DAY 13

Really don’t know, maybe video and blogs.. ?

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE ✨

I didn’t take pictures but ate around 2000 I think

M3@b@b dayyyyy!! Finally!

I feel sooo heavy tho😭

DAY 12

Same as what I’m wearing now, I like my style and I don’t particularly hate my body, I just want to feel in control

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE ✨

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ 1 cheese bread + 2 roasted sausages Snack~ smoothies bowl + 1 ice Americano Dinner~ high protein bowl with rice + 1 slice of cheese + 2 slice of bread + chicken broth + løwc@l lychee candy

Total:~ 1900

I ate a bit more today so I don’t really feel comfortable but I have to be honest with myself, I felt so weak today, couldn’t concentrate on anything and it’s probably because I don’t count my c@lør!3s in an accurate way so I end up more exhausted than I should be for the amount I’m over calculating everyday.. I shouldn’t complain about it because that means that it’s working and anyway, I did it myself to myself but I can’t talk to anyone about that, I don’t have anyone to talk to cause it’s not their f¥ck!ng business yk and I can handle it on my own. I just feel a teeny tiny bit down and it feels like here people understand at least because we are all in, comforting each other, which feel sad at the same time, thank you <33

You are all enough and beautiful!!

DAY 11

CHEESE AND BREAD A 1000000000% couldn’t live my life without them I swear hahaha

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 👑

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ steamed vegetables with roasted chicken and creamy mushroom sauce + 1 ice Americano Snack~ smoothie bowl +passion fruit drink

Total:~ 1400

DAY 10 (youhouhou!)

✨Denial is a river in Egypt ✨💅 HAHAHAHA. But honestly, to this day I’m still not entirely convinced that I have 3d even if, rationally speaking, something is definitely wrong lmao It’s easier to tell yourself that you’re simply in control… FAKE IT UNTIL YOU MAKE IT 💃💃 MOUAHAHAH (Don’t do this please)

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE🍁

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ 1 soft baguette + 1 ice Americano Snack~ Fruits (melon, water melon, pineapple, mango, and some other) Dinner~ 1 ice green tea + steamed vegetables with roasted chicken and creamy mushroom sauce + løwc@l lychee candy

Total:~ 1600

Couldn’t 3@t more anyway As always it’s an estimation + always add few more c@l to the total “just in case” (lmao 400 ≠ a few more but okay girl) so don’t count like I do, it’s not accurate <33 Just something to track wieiad

DAY 9

No cause I feel in control and helping nųmb!ñg my feelings

Still feel miserable tho, I’m well aware that’s a bad things and that I’m not good

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 💅

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ focaccia in cheese + chicken and egg’s salade +1 ice Americano Diner~ Ayam Goreng Rempah + Tofu and Tempe + ice Jeruk

Total:~ 1800 aaaaand… I feel sick lovely

The worst part is probably that I wanted to 3@t more today, for my m3@t@b day and I couldn’t.. At least I tried

ANYWAY

Okay soooo, didn’t do it. I tried, really… I even ordered some føød but I don’t know if I’ll be able to eat it. I really wanted to achieve that but I feel so sick right now

Wanna know the funniest part? Even with this potential diner I wouldn’t have reached the 1800...

Okay so it’s been 3 weeks since I started and I think it’s time to add a “m3t@b day” to the routine First as a challenge, to prove myself that I’m in control and that I won’t f*€k everything up this time Second, because I don’t want to damage to much my m3t@bøl!sm and g@!n everything back just because of a wrong day And last but not least, as an experiment to see how it will affects my bød¥ (did I g@!n3d, løst or st@gn@t3d) But honestly I’m supposed to 3@t more than 2000 A DAY ?? and I really don’t know how I’ll try tho, it cannot be that hard

Okay so it’s been 3 weeks since I started and I think it’s time to add a “m3t@b day” to the routine First as a challenge, to prove myself that I’m in control and that I won’t f*€k everything up this time Second, because I don’t want to damage to much my m3t@bøl!sm and g@!n everything back just because of a wrong day And last but not least, as an experiment to see how it will affects my bød¥ (did I g@!n3d, løst or st@gn@t3d) But honestly I’m supposed to 3@t more than 2000 A DAY ?? and I really don’t know how I’ll try tho, it cannot be that hard

OMG OMG OMG

-3 on the sc@l3 ??? In a week!! And I didn’t count the liquids that I drank this morning (~1L)

I know it’s probably a lot of water but I still feel so happy it’s going down, KEEP GOING DOWN (to myself)

DAY 8

“I r3l@psed” Afraid AND ashamed

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 💃

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Snack/Lunch~ 1 corn ice cream + 1 onigiri spicy chicken Diner~ the other half of a vegetarian pizza with tempeh on top + papaya + cucumber

Total:~ 1400 💫

The fact that I don’t feel so d!zz¥ is a blessing and a curse. Make me wonder if I 3@t to much

I’ll w3!ght myself tomorrow and I’m scared (even if I løst 1 cm around my W.. anyway)

Self discipline feels so powerful

DAY 7

At the time, it was for the attention of other, I was craving validation. I wanted to stop people jokes about the way I looked and getting some kind of revenge I guess (I wasn’t fat nor skinny they were just mean + bød¥ d¥smørph!@ didn’t help) Now it’s more like an obsession helping to stop overthinking and numbing my feelings. I don’t do that for people, actually I don’t want them to notice nor asking questions, the “looking” part is just additional motivation because it’s just not the main purpose this time And actually it’s working, I’m feeling less miserable than 2~3 weeks ago so happy 🧚✨

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🧚

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ peanut butter sandwich + 1 ice Americano Diner (I changed this time haha)~ half of a vegetarian pizza with tempeh on top + papaya + cucumber + 2pcs of tofu goreng + roasted seaweed + green tea

Total: 1500

i am soo back and so motivated

My head not spinning, the earth is. Science