Fyodor Dostoyevsky // Alanis Morissette

I was debating whether to post this one or not, but I suppose it isn't too bad

Having delusions today. I won't let them win.

I went insane for a little while there and let the delusions win. Now I'm doing better.

Occasionally, it hits me that I can just disappear. I can be whoever I want to be. Whatever I've told people, whatever anyone knows of me can all be history. I can move on and become a totally different person if I wanted to. Anyone can. I think that's what's so scary.

I've survived a lot of terrible things and mistreatment and the mental illnesses I deal with. I ran away from so many places and burned all my bridges and now I have only myself to blame for it.

bpd culture is always being the "it's okay i understand your feelings and why you acted this way" person but never the one being understood