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in another universe we don’t console ourselves with thoughts of another universe

one of the saddest things is when someone in your family tells you you would've loved someone who died before you were born. like my mother has told me & my best friend that we would have loved talking to her father. that me & my brothers have the same humor as our late uncle & even look like him. everyone is everywhere & nowhere & here & gone & dying & coming back. it's as though you know them through their shadow or their ghost or your own actions, but you won't ever really know. haunts me, i guess

something genuinely insane about going somewhere and getting to feel “i had some of the worst years of my life here” and “i was loved here, once” simultaneously.

"Sister, it might be...", Eghishe Charenc (translated by metamorphesque)

°•☆ 14/08/24 ☆•°

im back !! its been a while, me and the girls around me have been through hell and back this past month and i will not show any mercy for those who beg. right now im still healing and learning how to love me better, and spend more time with rhose who i love, especially today. godspeed ♡

☆ 23/06/24

my nephews left :( sad about it :(( no joke all i had was falafel today i swear i ate the entire box, today was very slow

☆ 22/06/24

a late update! ive been hanging out with my nephews far too much im so knackered but i love them both so much, finally logged into the ps4 yesterday its been so long i cant wait to play bioshock again

IVE GOT A SUCCESS STORY !

how i manifested weed (i do not condone drug usage)

i literally just decided i had a spliff every time i thought about smoking so instead of wanting it i reminded myself i already have it, i reminded myself with affirmation only when i needed to and i also daydreamed about it and told myself that the daydream was true and then i let that shit go and did whatever i needed to do in the 3d. so whenever it came into my head i fulfilled myself and let the idea of wanting it go and kept the idea of having it in my mind and then forgot about it by distracting myself. i personally believe letting it go and detaching helped me out so so much with belief

and not even a week later today i got stopped by two friends who told me they were gonna 🍃 before last school period and asked if i wanted to join them ! ofc i said yes and i think it worked a bit too well i ended up greening out (absolutely awful pls know ur limit) and had the best high after that.

as for picture evidence i have a photo of me absolutely faded with dead eyes (embarassing) and screenshot of text messages between me and one of my friends thanking her for helping me ground myself when i was tripping ♡♡

the law is real.

Omg I love this success story! Congrats babe. You’re so powerful. Proof you can literally manifest anything you want 🤭 ❤️

☆ 21/06/24

today was batshit crazy i greened out for the first time, on a blunt with friends n i thought i wasn't in control of my body and tried to break out of it which only made me trip hard and then puke a bunch but then i had the nicest high ever after that ! and also half a tub of icecream ♡ literally no school lessons today all i did was get high

☆ 20/06/24

the sunrise was pretty today :3 sorry i couldnt update yesterday, me and my siblings were out all night we went to a hiking trail at 12am and went to a field at 3am napped there for a bit all the way up until sunrise. today was slow but nevertheless peaceful

☆ 18/06/24

i learnt a lot today ? not academically but i strengthened relationships and sorted out my feelings today ! love has been very strong in the air as of recent, especially today. me and a friend made daisy chains whilst talking about relations of love and loss. on a related note think i like him...

☆ 17/06/24

it was eid today ♡ i had a lot of good yummy food and my family came over too, my sister made carrot cake and it tasted good. my nephews are coming over tommorow,,

reblog to give a strawberry to the person you reblogged this from

☆ 15/06/24

i got a lot of people who love me today,, and to realise that through a tiktok post is kinda insane but here we are~ my friend made a plan to get me close to one of her friends so i can get with him, im enjoying that mission

☆ 14/06/24

i think ive found a new found interest in someone today,, i bought falafel with my friends it was super yummy~ the squirrel stopped and looked at me and then posed when i pulled out my phone lol

.. i need to bring back doing my diary entries

how I manifested my dream life after years of overconsumption

hello! after being in this community for many years, hopelessly and endlessly trying to manifest the life of my dreams since i was a young teen, i can finally say i did it. i'm living the life i always wanted. this is my success story ٩( 'ω' )و (very long and detailed! + mentions of heavy topics)

how i did it: the journey

i initally found out about manifesting from a friend who told me about subliminals, then i became invested in law of attraction and soon, law of assumption.

for years I was in a nonstop cycle of overconsuming information, deciding to put my foot down and say "this is it", only go back spiraling in my negative thoughts & old story hours or even minutes later. this cycle lasted for years. i felt like the law could not be this easy, and heavily relied on my 3d for evidence/signs of my desire. i felt like there was always something else to do in the 3d (subliminals, scripting, vision board, etc) and was not satisfied in just believing in the unseen.

eventually, i became sick of it. i wanted my dream life so badly, i would cry myself to sleep some nights because of how badly i wanted to be free from my old story. i hated my old life, and was desperate for my new one.

i constantly reread the same edward art posts, tumblr posts, and success stories about the law and craved for something new, but at this point i already knew all i needed to know about the law. i had some success with the law of assumption in the past (manifesting my acceptance into uni, talking to a cute boy etc.) but getting my entire dream life felt like it was impossible. i knew i can get anything and everything i wanted, but honestly i was scared and felt like there was a barrier between me and my desire. yet, i held onto these feelings for years. at some point i even felt childish and the need to "grow up and be realistic" about what i wanted since everything around me was changing and i wasn't getting any younger. but i still held onto my dreams and desires, it was planted into my heart for a reason and I really wanted it to come true.

one day i was clearing out my phone and came across blushydior's success story of how she manifested her dream life in hard circumstances. i read her post again and really internalized what she said about the law.

in short, life is a blank canvas. the minute you decide what you want, it is done. there is nothing stopping you from getting anything you ever wanted because it is already finished. just keep persisting and accepting that it is done because it simply is; nothing else left to do.

so i decided to go all in. i didn't do much: just affirm that i had my desire when i thought about it and embody the state. during the first few days, i felt a wave of happiness and excitement whenever I affirmed for my desires. i knew i had them, and it made me happy. i didn't ignore my 3d, i simply lived through it. i did whatever i had to do in my 3d while still thinking "oh i already have my desire! nothing can stop me, it's all done!"

over time, the feelings of excitement faded and it became more of a feeling of security and calmness. i would still think thoughts like "oh yeah i have my desire, oh well whatever" and simply move on.

i will say though, in the middle i did kind of cave and want to fall into my old ways. i had the feelings of calmness but felt like there was something else left to do. i logged onto tumblr and scrolled over some of the posts i had saved, but didn't read them and rely on them for info. i had to force myself to snap out of feeling like I didn't have it and remind myself that i had it. when i felt overwhelmed with my 3d or faced something that i didnt like, i would remind myself of my desires being complete.

at night i'd also imagine romantic scenarios about me and my sp to fall asleep but i didn't do anything like try to get into sats or void (i tried them before and found them quite boring lol)

eventually after sticking to the assumption that i have my desires, regardless of what i see in the 3d, nothing can stop me from getting my desire because it's already done, i got them all. woke up with everything i want. this is what it means to persist: to take the leap of faith, go all in, and just keep on believing that you already have it!

the old and new story:

old story: I grew up in a very restrictive lifestyle with little freedom and privacy in my house, as well as super traditional and religious parents that made me feel uncomfortable in many areas of my life. my life was primarily just me taking care of my annoying younger siblings and studying to get good grades so I could make my parents happy. I did not have much success with maintaining friendships, no luck in the love department, and disliked who I was as a person for much of my life. I was completely dependent on my parents and wanted their approval for everything; it felt like I was living and doing all of these activities to make them proud, even though they never told me they were. anything that I wanted to pursue I shut down before even trying because I knew they would not approve. I was also constantly being pushed into these religious spaces that made me super uncomfortable due to their beliefs and have been verbally and physically abused in the name of so-called religion. I was living a life that I did not want, by finding the law it gave me an opportunity to live my own life for once.

new story: appearance transformation from head to toe, apartment and houses of my dreams in my desired cities & countries, talents, skills, and knowledge about topics I was curious about, language fluency, ideal wardrobe with all my dream clothes, items on my wishlist, having financial freedom, being free, independent, and in charge of my life, having the boyfriend of my dreams (guys he is so fine like omg), completely revamping and rewriting my past, having a tight knit friend group and the biggest one of all, the thing i wanted for so long -- being a famous musical artist in one of the biggest girl groups in the world <3

i am so so so glad i never gave up, it really is easy.

the law in summary:-

decide what you want to manifest

have faith and know that you already have your desire, it is done and nothing can stop you from getting it (remember! methods are optional)

just persist, do not give up. it will manifest into the 3d! nothing else left to do.

good luck everyone, you can do it and i believe in you <3

If yall are searching for blushydior's post of "how i manifested my dream life with extremely hard circumstances" well someone copied it in a Google Doc but i don't remember who was it but anyways here it is.

Google Docs

How i manifested my dream life with extremely hard circumstances + how you can too ♡ | Written by Blushydior/Bambi

02/05/24 ♡

its finally may ! also exam season.. today was really nice i managed to go to a bookstore today and buy a book for myself and then i went into school to meet my friend after and it was really nice i love walking a lot, this duck followed me + i got oreo boba with extra oreo 🤤

30/04/24 ♡

im gonna keep my entries short now~ today was very chill i have a horrible sore throat and it really sucks to have but i enjoyed good fruit ! ive been living in my head today,, my mind is far better than anything else rn 😭

what ive been listening to:

webweave : growth

1. our epistemological crisis - unknown | 3. almond - sohn won-pyung | 9. "lovers walk" path in bristol, england

save me nct dream go era. heal me. revive me.

On becoming someone else

i. War of the Foxes, Richard Siken / ii., v., viii., xi. Leisure, Hannah, Does Not Agree with You, Hannah Gamble / iii. unknown / iv. Mimmo Paladino / vi. Book 20e, In between here and there, Beata Wehr / vii. unknown / ix. unknown / x. @heartlessqueen

Let's make coffee and cook breakfast together while we sing to music

i want people to ask me random things cause im bored and i would love it and itd make my day

Anyone who reblogs this post will have their user written on a poster saying "We Stand With Palestine" that I hope to put up somewhere in the village I live in, or the town that the village is next to.

01/04/24 ☆○°•》♡

it is 4 am !

what ive been listening to recently:

its now the last few days of ramadan lets go i've loved making springrolls everyday without fail 😝

these days have been so ?? ever since my last post i got pulled into the attendance office at school and they were so stern and stubborn about me being in on time and the lady went as far as calling me stupid and jobless 😬

but now that the easter break has come by things seem so nice and quiet and i baked for the first time in a while !! it was so nice my brownies came out so well look at how scrumptious they look,,

on top of my amazing brownies which i might drop the recipe to soon, i also have been speaking to my friends so much more !! im closer with a few people now and healed from people who have hurt me i feel loved and i fuck w it !!

also working on self concept and my spiritual aspect has worked so well i've been keeping my thoughts on a leash and i feel like im in a studio ghibli film on a train and the wind is hitting my face slowly yk?

if i told this to me last november she wouldve sobbed so hard, im glad im doing better yay