thefattyone

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caitblu

haha it’s like when i don’t binge i DonT completely hate myself so weird maybe there’s a correlation

I’m lost. 

I want to work full time, but sitting in an office makes me lose my mind.

I want to feel better, but I don’t want to live.

I want to go to therapy, but I hate the way therapy makes me feel.

I want to speak out about mental illness, but I don’t want to talk about it.

I want someone to look after me, but I want to be completely independent.

I want to everyone to think I’m okay, but I want everyone to know how much pain I’m in.

I want to shout and scream from the top of my lungs, but I want to disappear.

I don’t want to be crazy, but I want to be different.

I want everyone to fuck off, but I’m terrified of being alone.

I want to be get good at looking after myself, but I don’t want to take time on it.

I want to stop drinking, but I want a drink.

I can’t.

If i gain one more pound i’m gonna kill my self

DAY 4: your greatest fears about weight loss

Probably that i’ll start binge over again :(

Meal log: 10 june

Breakfast: nothing

Lunch: nothing

Dinner: chicken and vegetables ( 156 kcal)

How to RESIST and complete your fast 💖

1. Pick a pen to keep by your side during the whole day. Whenever you feel like you want to eat something, draw a little dot in your hand or wrists. Do it every time you have a craving. You'll see many dots and realize they mean every time you resisted. This may motivate you to resist some more.

2. Use your phone for good. When we fast its normal to feel weak and not being able to do many things. So, use your phone to play games, watch videos, see thinspo. BUT DON'T WATCH MUKBANGS!!!

3. Drink water. LOTS AND LOTS! It keeps you full and helps you lose weight.

4. Don't be sad about food. Please understand you're doing this to be happy and you'll be allowed to eat someday. Just for today, don't.

5. Get a glass of cold water and put some salt in. It helps to keep you strong.

6. Be patient. You're gonna look like a princess in 3 months. Believe in yourself, you are strong and food can't control you!

What i wanna look like.

Finger crossed.

I need to be skinny.

Someone wanna be ANA BUDDY?

To keep each other motivated

(No nudes)

DAY 1= your starts

CW: 138 lbs🤮 (63kg)

DAY 2= my height

5’4 (166cm)

I’d like to be taller but i kinda like my height.

Today i binged.

I am tired of this shit.

I am tired of being the fat ass bitch everyone make fun of.

Im gonna fast tomorrow

My 20 reasons to lose 100lbs by August.

To finally be able to be confident in myself and not be ashamed of what i look like.

To make my friends slightly jealous cause i’m finally not the “fat” friend anymore

To prove everyone wrong

To finally be able to but name brand clothes and not stuff from walmart al the time.

To finally be in control.

To say, “i did it” when i reach my ugw

To look good in all photos that i take/that are taken of me.

To finally show all the guys i’ve liked who have turned me down, that they are missing out.

To jo longer disappoint my family.

To be able to wear baggy clothes and look good, not fat.

To show that you can do anything you put your mind to.

To be attractive.

To be lovable.

To be picked up and carried by guys if need be.

To be able to jump onto friends backs for piggy backs and not be afraid that i’m going to break them.

To sit down and not feel the rolls tumble over my waist

To finally have collarbones

To finally have hipbones

To be able to put my hair up and have it look good

To get rid of my double chin

be the beautiful friend, not the fat friend

I went to the beach today and saw the cutest couple. They were maybe 16, 17. The boy was tall and muscular with dirty blonde/ brown hair. He was very toned and attractive. The girl was shorter than him and thin, with long straight blonde hair. She wore a bikini which looked perfect on her thin frame. The boy scooped her off of her feet easily as if she weighed nothing at all and threw her into the water. They both laughed with their perfect smiles and playfully splashed in the water. They were both so happy. Maybe if you lost the weight, you’d be less self conscious. Maybe you’d be confident enough to have a good time. Maybe you’d get noticed by a cute guy. Maybe you’d be happy too.

"i don't want to be the fat friend anymore."

caitblu

Me... How will I look in a couple of months?

When I say binge

I do not mean I over ate with a total of 1000 calories for the day.

I mean I went to the supermarket, accidentally.

I almost crashed driving home because I was too busy eating donuts

As if this food were my last.

I then heated microwaveable items first.

While

Eating an entire bag of chips

And dip. Before the timer for 2.5 minutes goes off.

Then licking every last bit of slimy oil off of my fingers before I realise it's too late

With cuts inside cheeks

Burnt tongues and fingers

Do I realize my mistake.

I now pour water into unwrapped chocolate to make it inedible and throw away my self esteem to the birds

But how can you explain to anyone that in a total of 15 minutes you consumed 2500 calories,

239 grams of carbs, 38 grams of protein, 139 grams of

Fat

Easy Fasting

My 24 hour fast is almost complete and it was actually easy for me this time!

How did I do it? There were 3 things which helped me a lot while fasting:

Drink Soup throughout the day to keep salty cravings away.

Drink home made iced tea to keep sugary cravings away.

Watch fasting documentaries to discover the science behind it all and all of it’s benefits, it has far more than just weightloss!

How to make iced tea at home, it’s very simple: Fill your bottle with a little bit of warm water and put like 4-5 teabags in. 30 mins are sufficient but the longer you wait, the stronger the flavour. After you put the teabags out, fill your bottle with the amount of icecubes you like. Then fill it up with cold water, try out sparkling water! Add sweetener to your liking. Done. ♥