Bulimia - Blog Posts
Literalmente me siento como un jodido monstruo, una abominación. Temo cada vez que como porque siento que subiré de peso y me ejercito cuando no hay nadie que pueda verme. No puedo conmigo misma. Quiero llorar, gritar, que alguien me entienda. Nadie a mi alrededor sabe lo que es tener anorexia nerviosa. Tan solo intentan que trague comida sin siquiera pensar en lo que siento al comer.
Fingir que no duele hasta que eventualmente deja de doler......
Repeticiones Inconscientes.
Sin embargo, seguimos jugando con fuego, arriesgando nuestras vidas por cosas que no sabemos si son reales o si durarán, continuamos creyendo en cuentos de hadas, creyendo que existe el príncipe azul, pero el verdadero amor odia ese color.. somos adictos a creer cosas que sabemos que nunca pasaran, siendo muy frágiles cuando vemos la realidad; pero lo seguimos intentando llegando a donde mismo. Somos capaces de dar muchas oportunidades, pero nadie nos da una segunda a nosotros.. Ni siquiera nosotros mismos. Nunca podré confiar plenamente en alguien por el tanto miedo a mis impulsos, los cuales son tóxicos y a su vez benéficos. Aún no sé qué es lo que me pasa..
La felicidad es una visita, la depresión es el hogar
No me gusta vivir; así que me suicido lentamente porque quizá encuentre cosas buenas en ese transcurso.
No te importo en realidad, entonces por favor no finjas como sí te interesara mi vida.
Rulo
RULO♡
Que tenga sentido del humor no significa que sea alegre. Que sonría no significa que esté feliz. Que no llore no significa que no esté mal. Que me crea superior no significa que no me sienta poca cosa. No tengo ganas de vivir sólo por estar viviendo. No me amo pero amo a otros. Cada que me maltrato siento que maltrato más a los demás. Que me burle de mi realidad no significa que no la sufra, ¿Qué más da? Si siempre me estoy quejando de todas formas. Si sé en lo que estoy metido y no quiero salir. Mejor sonrío porque me canso de llorar. Mejor me quedo callado porque pierdo mi tiempo y el tuyo contándote mis problemas. No quiero estar ni solo ni con nadie. La gente con problemas trae problemas a los demás. No te convengo. La ayuda me estorba porque no me deja destruirme en paz. Y yo me acostumbré tanto a destruirme, que se volvió parte de mí. Si no arruino mi vida, no soy yo. Vivo destruyendo mi vida. Quizá algún día me arrepienta, pero hoy no siento nada. Y entre más es tu afán de sacarme, más me hundes…
Deshago. Amigos.
Me gustaría pedir consejos, pero sucede que todos pensarían mal de mí si les contara mis verdaderos asuntos y eso no me ayudaría en nada. Pero al final no tiene sentido desahogarte, las cosas siguen igual y uno hace lo que se le da la gana hacer a pesar de los consejos que te den. Conclusión: Pero para qué me quejo de estar solo si de todas maneras no quiero estar con nadie; sólo vale la pena confiar en quienes quieres y te quieren y a veces es eso lo que te hace no hablar porque no los quieres molestar.
40 Reasons why I'm starving
1. To feel pretty 2. To have defined collarbones 3. To prove people wrong 4. To be something more 5. To have thinner legs 6. To have a flat stomach 7. To be petite 8. To look like a supermodel 9. To appear like porcelain 10. To be somebody’s thinspiration 11. Because I feel guilty every time I eat 12. To have self-control 13. Because I want to be graceful 14. Because I want to be the skinny friend 15. To have cheek bones 16. To be pretty 17. To have a thigh gap 18. To have sharp hipbones 19. To prove myself wrong 20. To let the lies I told become truth 21. Because I don’t want jiggling fat 22. Because I want tiny wrists 23. Because I’ve been fat for too long 24. To feel confident about my body 25. To be a size 00 26. To look stunning in pictures 27. To have thin arms 28. To be able to count each of my ribs 29. To be wanted 30. To turn heads when I walk 31. To make my parents proud 32. To stop feeling jealous of other girls 33. To be excited for wearing a bikini 34. To look cute and dainty 35. To have beautiful bones 36. Because looking in the mirror hurts more than starving 37. To be tiny 38. To be loved 39. To be happy 40. To be PERFECT
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Thigh gap💫
Rib bones💫
Collar bones💫
Hip bones💫
Slim waist💫
Skinny hands💫
Jaw line💫
Chick bones💫
Fuck it
When I want to do water fasting why this shit day always ends with binge? I need to cook everyday for family, and I just cant pass it without eating.i am not hungry but when I see food all i want is eat this shit full of calories and i have crazy shugar cravings. Help me!save me from fucking fat myself!
I want thigh gap, colar bones,hip bones,rib bones and for this I need to stop eating😢I need to do it!
I just need someone okey? Someone to be my ana friend,to support me,to give tips for me
Fuck I just had 2 followers. Well I am always alone and awake, message me whenever you want💫
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Your followers can message you about anxiety
Your followers can message you about depression
Your followers can message you about their sexuality
Your followers can message you about their gender identity
Your followers can message you about body image & dysphoria
Your followers can message you about eating disorders
Your followers can message you about self harm & suicidal thoughts
Your followers can message you about family issues
Your followers can message you about relationship issues
YOUR FOLLOWERS CAN MESSAGE YOU IF THEY NEED HELP AND SOMEONE TO HEAR THEM.
We are all ears!!
(This applies to my followers too xx)
Oh wow, I am in shock, I just finished watching Black swan. She is fucking thinspo. She has just perfect body🖤i realy love Natalie Portman and for now Black swan is my favorite movie🖤that was motivation for me, keep working hard to reach your goals! Don’t give up girls!💫
After 3 days of binge eating i just stand front of the mirror naked...
What I see? Fat,fat,fat,fat,fat,fat,fat!
When I wanted thigh gap,colar bones, flat stomack,hip bones,rib bones I keep eating like a piece of shit!
I need to control myself, when I see food I just can't stop eating, it is soo difficult but I need it! I need to lose weigh, I need to be skinny, I will die, I will die like this, I can't wear skirts,shorts,dresses,bikini. When I am going to family vacation I just sit at the sand and covering myself,staring at beautiful skinny girls, when I am at shpping in dressing room I am just sitting and crying, cause I can't fit in my favorite things😭
I will starve for whole june! I will starve soo hard, I will work soo hard!
Till my thighs don't touch!
Till i see my colar bones!
Till i have slim face
Slim hands
Skinny legs
Flat stomach
I can see my rib bones without sucking my stomach...
Can we became friends? Please...I need ana friends,to love,to support to be inspiration for each other...
Skinny hack- ❤️Ana’s friendship bracelet❤️ Tie a ribbon or something around ur wrist tightly so when your wrists get smaller then the ribbon will slip off
I am tired, tired of binge eating, starving😭
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weight loss affirmations
✨ I will lose 50 pounds by the end of 2018
✨ The ends will justify my means
✨ Losing weight is simple and easy
✨ I love the feeling of cold water running into an empty stomach
✨ Hunger is positive reinforcement
✨ There is a sense of purity that comes with feeling hungry
✨ Exercise is cleansing
✨ Your body is your temple and you need to take care of it. You are cleansing it. Sweeping the cobwebs out of the corners, reducing the clutter in certain areas, simplifying and cleaning.
✨ Fasting is the most truthful form of discipline
✨ I am doing this for myself and for myself alone
✨ I will eat in smaller portions
✨ I seldom exceed my calorie limit
✨ I am always in a calorie deficit
✨ My fat cells are consistently shrinking
✨ I am losing weight and shedding pounds every day
✨ This is easy and simple
✨ I am on the road to finding the body I can love
✨ I am feeding my body good foods
✨ My body is flourishing because I eat wholesome and natural foods
✨ My ultimate goals weight is attainable
✨ No one can stop me
✨ When I make mistakes, I forgive myself and keep looking forward
✨It is never too late. This is always a journey.
✨ I love eating healthy and wholesome foods in moderate proportions
✨ I scorn unhealthy and fattening foods not because they “make me fat” but because they damage my temple
✨ I love to move my body
✨ I am kind and willing to do favors for people
✨ I am active and I am energetic
✨ I am always mindful of my body and my hunger levels