A Tumblr Mutual Is Like The Curator Of A Beautiful Museum

Palestinian ButchFemme wedding, 2022, @/leilanations

I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in my life. And I am horribly limited.

- Sylvia Plath

december will make you go insane if the passage of time is something that scares you

a novel about falling in love in the desert doing drugs and commiting art crimes is something that can be so personal

Living alone is like— I laugh alone (without my bestfriend); I eat alone (without my mother); I sleep alone (without my dog); I get bored alone (without my brother); I wake up alone to an empty room (my father is not here watching the news in the hall); I think alone (the only person here is the reflection of myself in a mirror), and I cry alone (I need my Love right now).

The angst in this scene dammit

(just saying I'll support him if he becomes a villain)

I will never be sorry for hating gay Boris/bi Theo.

I’m watching Tgf and Tom Cable literally says “my mom blew up over that shit too” about the cigarettes are u fucking kidding rn, like… idk how I didn’t notice before

omfgggg i wish love was real it sounds so fun and interesting

Can't believe it took me until I was lying in the dark trying to fall asleep last night to realize that Theo's mental breakdown trapped in an Amsterdam hotel room after a disaster and waiting to find out if Boris will ever return was fueled by its similarity to his time years before in his childhood NYC apartment after a disaster, waiting to find out if his mother will ever return.

Like I don't think I'm an idiot, but how did it take me so long to realize the connection there?

Anyway, Boris is the hero of the novel, weirdly! He subverts the central trauma of the book!

Theo is uprooted and shipped off to Vegas, a place where he himself says nobody loves him. Not true though, because Boris does!

Theo discovers his fiance is cheating on him, that he's betrayed and completely alone. Except then Boris shows up, and even though he did betray Theo, he wants to make it right!

Theo is stuck with no answers and no way to call his mother who he knows deep down will never return. Except when it happens again, it's Boris. And Boris completely subverts the mirroring of the book's central trauma! He does return! Not only that, he's fixed everything! The painting is returned and the guilt is gone! The money will fix Theo's mistake with Hobie! Come to Antwerp with him and get over your cold, you're fucking fine!