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11 Compliments That Aren’t About Physical Appearance

You light up the room

I like your voice

You inspire me

I love how passionate you are

You make the world a better place

You’re one of the bravest people I know

You make me comfortable to be myself

You’re an incredible friend

You have a really refreshing perspective

You are so smart

You are truly making a difference

— sossafetymag

if ur not borderline i promise u that u don’t get it. ppl have tried to tell me that they understand how obsessive i am in relationships because they get mad when their bf is talking to other girls. no. u don’t get it. and u should be happy u don’t get it. it’s not cute to have panic attacks in the middle of work because ur partner texted u in a “different tone”. it’s not fun having ur whole day ruined because u just remembered they have friend and ppl they care about outside of u. it’s not normal to genuinely want to die because they didn’t compliment u with the same enthusiasm they usually do. it’s scary and embarrassing and guilt inducing. u don’t get it and i’m so glad u don’t but pls stop trying to relate to something that u physically can’t. it doesn’t make me feel better it makes me feel invalidated and embarrassed because u DONT know how deep it goes.

Splitting babyyyyyyyyy

i just need to get through this week

‘So everything sucks’ mental health toolkit

Hello everyone, I lost half my family last year between March and November, three of whom were elderly, and it was Not Much Fun Actually BUT I have had the horrible thought that many people this year are going to be in the same boat I was in in 2019, so here is how I coped:

Write everything down. I mean it. Anything you’re feeling; the grief, the worry about their health, how much you love them. Put it down on paper. Exorcise it. Don’t just let the bad feelings and the sadness fester. It doesn’t have to be exquisite poetry, just catharsis. 

Call your relatives! Especially the elderly ones. After the first 3 bereavements I got much closer to my grandma. Her passing wasn’t made harder by the fact of having spent more time speaking to her; it was eased because I knew that she knew how much I loved her. 

BE SENSIBLE. You want to see your family now. I get it. My uncle was given 3 weeks to live and I caught norovirus. I couldn’t see him for a week. It sucked. But I had to stay at home, because if he caught it, he’d die. Covid-19 is the same principle. Phone them instead. 

Talk to your family and friends about how you feel. Grief is a really, really lonely place sometimes. I didn’t know anyone going through what I was going through. This time, we’re all in it together. Share your feelings. Reassure each other that you’re valid and heard. 

Be kind to yourself. There’s going to be days, especially with all this social upheaval, where you just can’t. This is OK. You’re a human who has worth beyond your productivity. Let yourself feel sad if you have to. Eat a bit of chocolate. Have a bath. Then do the laundry.

Keep being human, in all the ways you can. Keep cleaning the house. Get up every morning and get dressed. Go to bed at a sensible time. Eat healthy, regular meals. Keep yourself strong, not just in case you get the virus, but to remind yourself that you can and will endure. 

As clichéd as it is, remember that you have survived everything in your life up to this point. You can get through this. There will be a time when it’s over. I thought 2019 would never end. It was funeral after funeral. I thought I wouldn’t make it out the other side. I did. 

Check in with people and ask them to check in with you. My friends literally got me through 2019, even though I wasn’t always up for seeing them in person. We phoned and texted. Build a support network. Being socially isolated doesn’t mean being lonely. 

I think that’s pretty much it, but a final reminder that we humans can endure so much more than we think we can, even when it feels like it’s relentless and it will never stop. It will. The only way through it is, well, to go through it. I hope everyone is staying safe and well!!

‘So everything sucks’ mental health toolkit

Hello everyone, I lost half my family last year between March and November, three of whom were elderly, and it was Not Much Fun Actually BUT I have had the horrible thought that many people this year are going to be in the same boat I was in in 2019, so here is how I coped:

Write everything down. I mean it. Anything you’re feeling; the grief, the worry about their health, how much you love them. Put it down on paper. Exorcise it. Don’t just let the bad feelings and the sadness fester. It doesn’t have to be exquisite poetry, just catharsis. 

Call your relatives! Especially the elderly ones. After the first 3 bereavements I got much closer to my grandma. Her passing wasn’t made harder by the fact of having spent more time speaking to her; it was eased because I knew that she knew how much I loved her. 

BE SENSIBLE. You want to see your family now. I get it. My uncle was given 3 weeks to live and I caught norovirus. I couldn’t see him for a week. It sucked. But I had to stay at home, because if he caught it, he’d die. Covid-19 is the same principle. Phone them instead. 

Talk to your family and friends about how you feel. Grief is a really, really lonely place sometimes. I didn’t know anyone going through what I was going through. This time, we’re all in it together. Share your feelings. Reassure each other that you’re valid and heard. 

Be kind to yourself. There’s going to be days, especially with all this social upheaval, where you just can’t. This is OK. You’re a human who has worth beyond your productivity. Let yourself feel sad if you have to. Eat a bit of chocolate. Have a bath. Then do the laundry.

Keep being human, in all the ways you can. Keep cleaning the house. Get up every morning and get dressed. Go to bed at a sensible time. Eat healthy, regular meals. Keep yourself strong, not just in case you get the virus, but to remind yourself that you can and will endure. 

As clichéd as it is, remember that you have survived everything in your life up to this point. You can get through this. There will be a time when it’s over. I thought 2019 would never end. It was funeral after funeral. I thought I wouldn’t make it out the other side. I did. 

Check in with people and ask them to check in with you. My friends literally got me through 2019, even though I wasn’t always up for seeing them in person. We phoned and texted. Build a support network. Being socially isolated doesn’t mean being lonely. 

I think that’s pretty much it, but a final reminder that we humans can endure so much more than we think we can, even when it feels like it’s relentless and it will never stop. It will. The only way through it is, well, to go through it. I hope everyone is staying safe and well!!

no, YOU’RE looking at him respectfully. i’m objectifying him to filth we’re built different

I'll stick to my single-log bridge until it's dark

parents who tell their daughters they are ugly are bad parents

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social media has made it extremely difficult to like any artist. there's something wrong with everything and we're just all expected to be this perfect human being who isn't capable of making mistakes and growing from them. even though i'm aware no form of media i ever consume will be without its problems but i can't physically stop myself from seeing everything so critically to the point i hate myself for liking it in the first place. not to mention now i just assume things from the smallest gestures, so at this point someone i like could say one thing and i will be sitting here thinking of 100 ways it could be taken in a wrong context. there's no way to know either cause you don't know any of them personally. then it ends up in extensive searching and breakdowns in the middle of the day. in a way i am just so scared of them actually fucking up and seeing everyone hate them that i try to villainize them to save myself from the pain.

Welcome back to me being inactive lol

Last month I got into Enhypen and started stanning them... Turns out they became my second ult really fast lmao

And here is my first fanart of Ni-ki because I like him a lot <3

This took me so much time because I am not familiar with his face and at first it wasn't looking like him at ALL. But with a lot of work I finally ended up having a nice-looking portrait of this funky vampire fella and I'm happy of how it turned out.

Mitski songs that remind me of enhypen members🌟

Heeseung- 'Why didn't you stop me?'

Not sure why but when I hear it, I think of heeseung🤔. It just goes well with him.

Jay - 'Nobody'

I think it just suits him, the lyrics have a deep meaning and when the song comes on it reminds me of jay :).

Jake- 'Me and my husband'

It just gives me the "happy life" vibes🤷 jake is very energetic and always smiles it's so sweet.

Sunghoon - 'A pearl '

On the outside everyone see's Sunghoon as a cold and introverted person. But we all really know he's much more than that, he's actually pretty soft and I think this song represents that very well.

Sunoo - 'I bet on loosing dogs '

Sunoo is so gentle,peaceful,and just precious. the song just sounds like his whole personality.

Jungwon - 'Washing machine heart'

The song is about a person wanting to be there for someone even if that person doesn't want them. As the leader Jungwon is always there for all the members no matter what. He always tries to cheer them up it's so sweet😭

Ni-ki - 'Two slow dancers'

Ni-ki is so young and it feels like he's growing so fast, the song is about slowing down time and enjoying the moment while you can. I think you can put 2 and 2 together💛

Just saw a TikTok where this bi woman was like,

‘I’m a woman-leaning bisexual and you know what pisses me off? The fact that I’m dating a skinny white man and I love him and I’m happy, like what the fuck.’

And I just have to say. What pisses me off as a bisexual woman is that TikTok.

This is the Woke version of ‘my wife is the ol’ ball and chain, doesn’t it suck to be married,’ jokes. It’s not funny. Your queerness is not negated or tarnished by opposite-gender attraction, dating men isn’t inherently worse than dating women.

Love your partner.

Cherish them.

For fucks sake.

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and someone still loves him

girls be like *he is my comfort character* and whamm! it's the most emotionally traumatized fictional man you've ever seen!

*wakes up in the middle of the night* that one time that wei wuxian shot 5 arrows into targets simultaneously while blindfolded he was not in fact doing it to show off (ok maybe a little) but to ensure he did something so outrageous that nobody would be able to top and thus the prisoners set in front of the targets would no longer be at risk of getting hurt. goddammit. absolutely flawless. what an icon

JAY :: monitoring the members’ interview

Fun, someone said the words “prior authorizations” around me and now I’m pissed off at 730am on my day off. I go off on this rant all the time. ALL THE TIME.