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This is my hand after relapse for everyone wondering.

21.05.2019 06.34

We’re supposed to be each other first thought in the morning, but mine is blood and yours is death.

I relapsed a few days back. I've been crying for weeks I can't take it anymore. It's so damn hard. It's like I'm in peices and a shredder is shredding them.

Me at night wondering how I fucked up my life so bad

I can’t let a boy have so much control over my emotions and mood

Fuck, i’m so pathetic

tell me you still love me

What the actual fuck. It's fine man. They don't know your story so please don't take it to heart.

Why man

Some kids saw my cuts on my wrist and started making jokes that made me for sad and uncomfortable. This happened on Monday.

*goes from fine to actively suicidal in 30 seconds flat* 

Why does everyone I love fucking hurt me, its like im worthless to them

I couldn’t not share this…

Have you ever cried so hard that you want to just scream? You just want to scream and cry because you genuinely hate yourself so much for things you can’t change about yourself?

Samee

haha so guess what i can’t go to the party on wednesday cause there’s already too many going so i’m just going to cry and cut myself all day bc i’m worthless trash that doesn’t deserve love hahahaha

Weil es mich fühlen lässt

*nothing happens*

me: this is too much

I need it

Nobody:

My brain: …you should just go kill yourself it would make everything so much better

really fucking hate the life that ive made for myself

God, i feel like such a fucking burden. Why can’t i just shut up and deal with it myself.  i’m sure that no one wants to hear me whine about how fucking repulsive i am… i wish i could just stop being so fucking annoying.  i always do the same fucking shit of getting bad again every few months like an absolute fucking idiot and slitting myself all over and just. being so fucking disgusting. i’m sure that at this point everyone’s so fucking done of me complaining about it. i don’t even know why i bring it up… they’re clearly so fucking tired of me.

why wouldn’t they be?

“No one has realized how unhappy I am…they haven’t noticed the dark inside my eyes”

- the suicide effect

“Now I know I have a heart, because it’s breaking”

-the wizard of Ozz

“Teach me how to feel this skin without wanting to tear it from my bones.”

- Skin and Bones

Me: I don’t give a fuck

Also Me: *gives way to many fucks*

Let’s cut, cut, cut

My lil veins

all days are the same. i don’t feel alive anymore.