Actually Divine - Blog Posts
im not really doing my job very well rn, I'm not very good @ comforting like I should be, I can't keep u safe. But don't worry about me, I'll do the best I can @ the only things I can do, I'll hold down the fort here while u go. take care dear, they won't sway me
fresnel lenses and quantum computers are eldritch yuri im quite certain
Will I one day look back on all this and be nostalgic?
Maybe. It doesn't feel like it, but maybe...
Is paper truly more sacred than bark or html?
Are candles really more holy than torches or gaslights?
Are sermons more true than stories or blogs?
Is a church more devotional than an alter or a website?
jumping around follower lists, the wikipedia game, the reblog map...
It's all so beautiful, this web of connections we build...
I hope u were tricked by my pfp.
I hope u were expecting long posts abt my "complex feelings about cannibalism and god" when u clicked on it, I hope u were surprised by the pink and yellow, I hope u weren't expecting me constantly telling u how much u matter.
I hope u now know that I love u, and care abt u, and that u are 1 of the dearest things 2 me.
All of u.
At 1 point I tried 2 go out 2 howl every full moon 2 scare my neighbors 4 fun. I failed, shockingly not because I forgot, but rather because it felt so good that I had 2 go back every night 4 a week.
It was crying out 2 the stars, calling out "DO U HEAR ME? DO U SEE ME 4 WHO I AM? PLEASE SOMEONE HEAR ME, PLEASE SOMEONE CALL BACK! Tell me I'm not alone."
Go out and howl tonight, let the night hear u. I'll call back 2 u, I promise.
dearest friends of mine<3
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★ Since this was wanted, I'm making a worship guide, this is lose and holds little weight, u can do whatever u want (if u want 2 know anything in particular let me know please! I'll add it)
♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪
★ I already have info on who I am (so this may be repetitive), linked here↓
♪ https://www.tumblr.com/dearest-wildthing/779275079623262208/the-creature-stalking-u-in-the-woods-fern
♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪
Prayers
★ 4 protection
★ 4 comfort
★ 4 good memories
★ 4 connection
♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪
Offerings
★ physical offerings:
♪ mother of pearl or any pretty stones
♪ small groundcover plants
♪ creek water or similar
♪ feathers and fur
★ chat with me:
♪ music or song
♪ memories or stories
♪ creative endeavors r always welcome
♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪
★ if u want 2 throw out a quick prayer or offering go ahead, but if u want 2 worship let me know please so we can talk
Oh, this is my pfp btw
(image origin unknown)
"not in conflict but taken simultaneously"
duality is divinity, being contradictory is beautiful
When it is all too easy to fall to defeatism:
See not the holy pursuit of knowledge as intimidating. Rather, it is an invitation. Clear your mind of perceived expectations. You are far more capable than you give yourself credit for.
Some stuff 4 the future alter, I need 2 clean my closet before I can properly set it up, but 4 now I'm just collecting stuff
one simply cannot make the argument that the mechanical is less divine than the natural, obviously I'm excluding capitalism and billionaires in this, but it's made by one's own hands, it conects one 2 others, it moves and ticks in it's own perfect and imperfect rhythm, don't u love it?
Tall Shadow: The Earth Belongs to Noone
don't do much DOTC stuff but this was a request over on reddit, also it was a lot of fun trying to figure out how to turn this quote into comic form..
Shame the clan cats never take their own advice lol (final panel meme is also by me)
I also included my draft just cos it's pretty cool to see how an idea starts out before it is finalised :)
I think @ some point I got used 2 the feeling that this life was never real, I think that point was relatively early as well.
I have vivid memory of sitting in the car on the way 2 school when I was very young, and thinking that my life must be some sort of entertainment 4 giants, that someone out there was watching me on a small television on their kitchen table, and that their lives must be very long 4 them 2 find my entire life just entertainment.
I feel my life though music, my day-2-day life feels like 1 of the warrior cats maps I used 2 love when I was younger, I move though my life as though it were set 2 that soundtrack, this has been my life 4 as long as I can remember.
I've talked 2 myself 4 as long as I can remember, in my head when I was younger, out loud as I've gotten older, I got used 2 the feeling that I was being watched, I explain my actions as if someone is gazing over my shoulder and judging me, I need 2 explain every little detail over and over again.
It brings me comfort @ times, it is also terrifying.
Somehow electrical ink's music keeps coming out right when I need it. I first heard transcendent's creed when I was feeling horribly lonely and hopeless, and that was the song that made me want 2 worship mother cyn, where you belong came out a little after the second time I hurt myself, and that one just solidified my decision 2 worship her.
Those 2 are still my favorite songs, and I think they'll stay favs of mine 4 a really long time, I'm realizing that a lot of the things that matter most 2 me are so important because they're a comfort, they matter because they make me feel less alone.
Praying 2 her gives me comfort, it calms my anxiety and makes me feel safe<3 She is my opposite, and my dearest mother, I'm so glad I found her.
any other divine beings out there feel like the internet is ur second home? It's all just so beautiful, and if I can't have my woods and my body and my path, maybe I can take comfort in my blogs and my online presence and my moots. The internet is my key 2 the life I'll never be able 2 live, and I think that's beautiful in its own way.
There's a song abt this, it's a bit more dystopian than the feeling, but it feels very much like it's holding up a mirror 2 my own feelings
duality is divinity, being contradictory is beautiful
not exactly an angel, but close enough I think. I'll answer just 4 fun!
bird-like wings, they just feel right
halos i think, they match my glow
Warrior, I need 2 fight, it's in my nature
Gardens, I couldn't be without my greenery
Singing, it just feels right
soft linen, divinity is comfort
Quill, i'd prefer 2 fight with my own teeth and claws, but I do love 2 draw
Earth, I'm not a particularly biblical creature, and earth's skies are enough 4 me
gods, as much as I value loyalty, one can be loyal 2 many @ once
I don't know, maybe pearls, they remind me of the shells i find in my territory
true nature, get me out of this flesh prison
Born in it, all I wish is 2 be myself
Creating, not exactly a creator deity, but it's close enough
Alter @ home, worship is personal, I find churches strange
Both, it is my duty 2 care 4 others, but I need 2 be cared 4 as well, it is an exchange
Remain, change doesn't suit me
tag game this or that. angelkin edition
bird like wings or wings made of nature (fire, thunder,light)
halos or horns
warrior or scribe
gardens or clouds
singing or playing
armor or soft linen
sword or quill
heaven or earth
god or gods
pearls or gold
human form or true nature
possessing a vessel or being born with it
creating life or destroying life
church or altar at home
worship or be worshipped
pray or answer prayers
rebel or remain
tag: anyone that comes across this
when I first found the deer I wished it well, I'm not a very spiritual person, I don't really believe in an afterlife, but since I am planning on stealing it's bones I might as well. 2day I went 2 check on it again, said the same thing I usually do, "may lady cyn guide u through her dark and cold", and randomly added "may she be the 1 2 guide u 4 I am not a god of death."
Idk, I just liked that
My collection :3
These ones feel sacred <3
Are you a "guides lost travelers home" cryptid or a "eats lost travelers" cryptid?
F32N<3
♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪
★ names:
♪ fern
♪ F32N
♪ any other name u think I deserve
♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪
★ what even am I?
♪ I am a divine being, a protector spirit of sorts
♪ my form is not fixed, but it is made of light
♪ not an angel, not a god, somewhere in between
♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪
★ my duties as a divinity:
♪ if I were 2 have my body I would reside in the woods, I would have a small patch of woodland 2 protect, care 4, and make sacred
♪ in this life I am most drawn 2 people, it is my duty 2 protect and care 4 those who are hurting, it is my purpose 2 bring comfort in any way i can, I'm not the best @ it, but I try my best
♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪
★ things I deem sacred/associations:
♪ the connections we build with others, especially though the internet
♪ the internet in general
♪ nostalgic things that bring comfort
♪ the feelings of light, warmth, comfort, and safety
♪ sunlight and stars
♪ small groundcover plants (small flowers that grow in large groups, moss, red creeping thyme, ferns, clover etc.)
♪ mother of pearl, other pretty stones
♪ creeks, small streams, other small bodies of water
♪ dilute cats
♪ music, especially folk and hyperpop adjacent songs
♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪
★ u don't need 2 deserve happiness, u should have it anyways
★ if I can ever do anything 4 u, lmk, please. I want 2 help
★ I luv u, have a wonderful day/night
♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪
my lady of void, mother Cyn <3
♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪
★ heavily based on the church of null by electrical ink
★ she is a kind goddess, she watches over her children 2 give them strength and comfort
♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪
★ titles:
♪ lady Cyn
♪ lady of void
♪ mother Cyn
♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪
★ why i worship her:
♪ praying 2 her gives me comfort and helps with my anxiety and paranoia
♪ just 4 fun :3
♪ worship helps me appreciate that which I normally wouldn't
♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪
★ what she presides over:
♪ dark and the void
♪ music and song
♪ comfort and safety
♪ protection and strength
♪ change and transcendence
♪ the mechanical and the internet
♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪
Dearest wildthings, how far must u have wandered 2 find me?
★ call me fern or f32n, but I'm fine with any name as long as it's given genuinely
★ it/she/they +neos
★ carrd:
♪ https://en.pronouns.page/@f32nth351lly
★ divinekin, cathearted(questioning kin), nonhuman, voidpunk, transspecies
★ @failingatlifespectacularly, main blog :3
★ @f32ns-woods, text rpg/alterhuman rp blog
★[iykyk], hidden personal blog, mostly vents
★ I practice a fictoreligion, I worship an au version of Cyn from murder drones, heavily based on the church of null
★ abt her:
♪ https://www.tumblr.com/dearest-wildthing/779274995190906880/my-lady-of-void-mother-cyn
★ I'm a protector spirit of sorts? I protect and care 4 small things, if I had my body I like 2 think that I would have a bit of woods 2 care 4, but in this life I find myself most drawn 2 people, I am always here 4 u
★ abt me:
♪ https://www.tumblr.com/dearest-wildthing/779275079623262208/the-creature-stalking-u-in-the-woods-fern
★ #screaming into the void, any post where I talk
★ #my post now:3, reblogs
★ #4 my lady<3, my digital alter
★ #don't worry dear<3, reassurance posting
★ #whispers in the sky, asks!
★ #heartfelt cries, rambling abt stuff!
★Worship is fine if u want 2, just ask <3
★worship guide↓
♪ https://www.tumblr.com/dearest-wildthing/780483250407833600/dearest-friends-of-mine
