Bulimia - Blog Posts
First post about this shit but lol I need to vent somewhere🙃
the moment an eating disorder isn't restrictive or doesn't "compensate" for behaviours that could lead to weight gain, nobody gives a shit. and it's exhausting.
as someone with binge eating disorder, i'm tired of being dismissed, humiliated, and ridiculed by everyone.
i've had psychiatrists tell me that my eating disorder isn't real and that i just 'have no self control'.
i've had anorexics call me a disgusting pig and use my mental illness as something to laugh at.
i've had bulimics say similarly horrible things, which is hypocritical given their disorder involves binging as well, but when i pointed that out they told me that 'at least they do something about it.'
binge eating disorder is horrible to live with. at the very least we could be given some respect.
tw: eating disorder mention (not abt me)
i feel like we dont talk about binge eating disorder enough. a lot of people talk about anorexia, a decent amount of people talk about bulimia, but ive barely heard people talk about bunge eating disorder. it's a very serious disorder, just as serious as anorexia and bulimia, yet it doesn't get as much recognition as it should. i find that odd.
If i gain one more pound i’m gonna kill my self
DAY 4: your greatest fears about weight loss
Probably that i’ll start binge over again :(
Meal log: 10 june
Breakfast: nothing
Lunch: nothing
Dinner: chicken and vegetables ( 156 kcal)
What i wanna look like.
Finger crossed.
I need to be skinny.
DAY 1= your starts
CW: 138 lbs🤮 (63kg)
DAY 2= my height
5’4 (166cm)
I’d like to be taller but i kinda like my height.
Today i binged.
I am tired of this shit.
I am tired of being the fat ass bitch everyone make fun of.
Im gonna fast tomorrow
I HATE MYSELF! I really do.
Today, my mom had just gotten back from work when she decided to take us out. I got worried and tried to come up with a good excuse. Of course it didn't work. We went to Zaxby's and I feel disgusting. I loathe every part of my body. I ate four chicken pieces. FOUR! How disgusting am I. Not only that, but I also ate lots of fries. I wasn't thinking clearly. I am so worthless. I hate everything that I do. I AM SO SORRY FOR EATING. God, please forgive me....