Ed Not Ed Sheeran - Blog Posts

Introducing me:

Hii, i’m märta!

a bit of info about me;

•pro recovery ofc!

• struggle with binge eating!

• minor

• have strict parents so tips about that’d be great!

• feel free to dm any time about anything!

• dni if; homophobe, anti @na, transphobe, racist, a creep or anything similar thx🥰

• always open for new friends!

and lastly, i’m kinda new so dont be scared to tell me if i do anything thats considered ’weird’ or strange on here!

okay guys i’ve been so offline, but so i basically fasted for 34 hours, woke up during the night cause i was ⭐️ving, and then when the morning came i felt so dizzy and sick that i had to eat something, and now the last 2 days ive been too scared to fast again, but i will soon! maybe its just me being delusional but i feel like my arms are less flabby, and i have lost a bit of weight (i think, i was just a tiny bit over 50 kg and that was when i had eaten a lot like 5 mins before!), which i’m seeing as progress! and if you want yo, i’d love to hear tips of how to skip/make it not suspicious to eat much of you meals!

guys, i’m as new as can be, so please can anyone tell me wether @na coaches actually exist or if its just in movies and such?

Also can someone be my buddy, to keep me from backing down again, and we can support each other?<3

My collection of meals under 300 cals (ongoing):

Egg Cups (about 45 cal per egg cup or 270 for 6): preheat oven to 360 F, use a nonstick muffin tin, fill muffin slots to top with spinach, add about 14 grams of chicken to each (84 grams or 3 oz for 6), bake for about 20 minutes or until cooked through. For flavor with very little cals, I dip them in sriracha. Ingredients below.

Liquid egg whites

Spinach (or any quick cooking veggie)

Pro2Go chicken/cooked chicken breast (optional, remove 17 cals per cup if leaving out)

Safe Tacos (about 70 cals per taco, 280 for 6): spread half of laughing cow wedge onto one half of the taco shell, add chicken and fold in half. Either toast on nonstick pan or microwave if you're feeling lazy. For dipping, I again use sriracha to keep calories lower. Ingredients below.

Mini Mission Carb Balance tortillas (25 cal each)

Laughing Cow Light (any flavor that's 25 cals works)

Pro2Go chicken/cooked chicken breast

Creamy Chicken & Vegetable Soup (about 225 cals for 1/2 recipe): Please note: I usually eyeball the vegetable amounts, so feel free to add less if you like. I tried to overmeasure for the sake of guestimating calories. To make, bring a cup and a half of water to boil (can add more later to taste). add chopped onion, zucchini, celery, carrots and bouillon. let come to a simmer. cook for about 5-10 minutes. add ground chicken breast and 1 tsp thyme. bring to simmer again and cook another 5-10 minutes. if worried about raw chicken, you can also pre-cook it in a non-stick pan beforehand. finally right before serving, add 100 ml of oatmilk. Ingredients below.

Oatly/Califa Oatmilk Barista Edition (very important to get barista edition! other versions may be lower calorie but it won't be as creamy and even "unsweetened" tends to be sweet)

Yellow onion, 1/2, chopped

Zucchini, 1 medium, chopped

Celery, 1 stalk, chopped

Carrot, 1/2 cup chopped

Better Than Bouillon Chicken Bouillon, 60 g (honestly you can add less and cut calories, but I like things salty and flavorful. add this or any chicken bouillon you prefer to taste. Adjust cals accordingly)

Ground chicken breast, 100g (optional, remove 55 cals per serving if leaving out)

Dried thyme, 1 tsp

More to be added as I think of them.

roommate came home and offered the last pieces of her sushi. it's...so hard to say no to offered food TT people get so weird about it. so i ate it. 315 cals down the drain.

going to avoid food at our work outing and then stick with dumpling soup / veg and dumplings for dinner.

the good thing about eating an offering vs a snack binge or breaking down and eating something unprompted is: i still feel in control. i will do well today even with this.

Partner answered the door to the next door neighbour complaining about a leak. Right as I was dishing up dinner. Partner then went to try and fix the leak, leaving me enough time to dispose of my dinner and pretend I ate it already. Happy Maisy.

Can’t eat when wearing a corset

Actually, going to get changed and put on a corset.

Lost 10kg and don't even feel hungry anymore

Doesn't eat > weight stays the same > frustration > binges > drops 2kg

WHAT

Parents: Have you eaten today?

Me: Yes (lying)

Today I had two slices of a carrot.

sustinence

Today's meals

Breakfast: black coffee 2cal

Lunch: Plain shirataki noodles 10cal, a pickle 7cal

Dinner: Sour pickle 7cal

Total: 26 calories.

Steps taken: 862 (Lazy day), burned 37 calories.

Someone said my face looks like a doll, now I just need my body to match.

Girl dinner <3

The feeling of my stomach growling is so much better than feeling full.

Oh to have tiny wrists, thin arms, tiny legs, flat stomach, ribcage sticking out, collarbones showing, skinny fingers <3

Today I had a pickle and some broth

#skinny ✌️🤪

I wish I could take a scalpel and cut it all off

Stepping on the scale over and over again, hoping that the number will somehow go down.

I'm shivering, my head is spinning and I feel tired, food repulses me...

I feel better than ever.

I know I'm in deep shit when a 100 c@lls a day seems too much.

Buying cute clothes that are too small for me just so that I have more motivation.

Tiny legs and big shoes <3

I can't wait until I can lay on my side and my stomach fat won't spill over.

My holy grail: shirataki noodles.

Only 10 calories in 100 grams, fills you up and won't make you fat.

I've let go, I got so busy with life that I forgot what I was striving for. But now I will get back on track, I have more free time now, I will finally look how I used to, weigh what I used to.

CW:80

GW:55

I love how little I have to drink when I ⭐ve myself in order to get drunk, what a money saver

I'm trying to get thin here and the smell of my neighbors making potato pancakes has spread across my room, screw them fr

I saw another girl today with a4a, her body is stunning but 60% of her hair is gone, please don't forget your vitamins and nutritious foods guys 💛✨

Vegetables > rice cakes

If you are scared of fruits, eat them before 12pm, you will get the vitamins and burn off the calories throughout the day.

I care about you 💛✨