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No I'M harder

#cleanupaisleMYPANTS

st4rving is hard, but being f4t is harder.

Yep, I'm the girl who st@rves but still ends up fat cause I'm a weak b*tch

This shit is such a scam

The number goes down by a lot, body looks same

The number goes slightly up, AND I LOOK LIKE A ROTTING WHALE WTF

First it's: “you're so fat”

Then it's: “omg are you battling a disease ”

Mia, my dear Mia. Where is your sister?? ❤️‍🩹

visualize Yr dream body everyday,,

it’s alrdy Yours.

allow some time 4 shipping. t&c’s apply.

time skip Pls =_=

currently Pacing round my room Y don’t yu join me \^o^/

self Sabotage needs 2 B studied

stop& Think b4 yu Eat that..

The worst feeling is starving for days and still not losing anything - like I'm fucking trying work with me here!!!😭

My face when my dad decides to body shame me on a random day unprompted. 😭

What are some of your guys favorite low calorie, high volume food?

Day 9

Buying the food, then throwing it away so I feel like I have a little control

Day 10

Only drank a few times but I won’t stop drinking in the future.

Day 11

Drank weed for fun only but trying not to make it a thing

Day 12

Cookie Dough. The one food I can’t resist!!

Day 13

Protein chips on good days or Cookie dough on bad days

Day 2

CW: 128

UGW: 115-120

Day 3

Currently high protein, calorie deficit- 1400 calories (supposed to be). On days I don’t work out, I try for only one small meal a day because that means I didn’t earn my food.

May 6th

Sour cream and onion Chips : 140 k, 19 g

Ranch Chips: 140 k, 19 g

Shamrock Shake + diet root beer: 190k , 30 g

Vanilla Premier shake x 2 : 160 k , 30 g each

Third of an ice cream bar: 75 ( estimated)

Caramel Apple candy : 25 k

Dinner: 4 steamed dumplings / 3 pieces of crab Rangoon : 510k , 60 g ( couldn’t find the exact restaurant)

Kcal: 1668/ 1379 ( may be way off)

Protein: 236/125 grams ( hit my goal without dinner)

Steps: 8,000

Sh: 2

Upper body workout : 407 burned

Walked with my nephew

Punishment : only 4 hours of sleep

May 5th

Overate a little bit but got a lot of protein.

Sour cream and Onion chips : 140 k , 19 g

Ranch Chips : 140 k , 19 g

Meat stick : 190 k , 18 g

Cookies and Cream Splyt : 90 k, 20 g

Protein shake vanilla (Premier) : 160 k , 30 g

Protein shake vanilla ( shamrock) : 190 k , 30 g

Buffalo wings : ( 6 wings ) 340k, 26 g

Fries : 217 k , 3.3 g ( 5 oz)

Kcal : 1467/ 1379 kcal

Protein : 165 / 125grams

Sh: 2

Water : 1 liter

Walk: 2.13 miles

Steps : over 10,000 steps ( watched died mid day)

Burned calories: 471

Safe Foods

Dry cereal ( 1 cup)

Bacon

Sausage

Beef

Chicken

Eggs ( 3 - scrambled)

Pancakes (210)

Yogurt + cinnamon ( less than 100 kcal)

Apples

Celery

Carrots

Broccoli

Grapes ( frozen - 15)

Anything with protein (10g + 100 k)

Popcorn ( 2 cups)

Instant coffee

Oatmeal ( less than 200)

Protein bars ( less than 280)

Protein shakes ( less than 200)

Diet soda

Ice cream (once a week/ less than 400)

Fries (13 pieces)

Hot sauce

Suckers/ hard candy

Fear foods / Avoid

Oreos

Cookie dough

Toaster strudels ( strawberry)

Chocolate chip cookies

Ice cream / milkshake ( 400 +)

Muffins

Donuts

Marshmallows

Pie

Cake

Icing

Cupcakes

Chocolate candy

Brownies

Pop tarts ( any flavor)

Pastries

Syrup

Jelly

Peanut butter ( from a jar)

Nuts

Oil

Butter

Milk

Apple juice

Cheese

Sour cream

Dressings / Sauces

Bread / tortillas ( will eat at a restaurant)

Pasta

Regular chips

Crackers

Pretzels

Rice

Pizza

Seasonings with calories

BLOCK DON'T REPORT

minor

pro for me not for thee :P

non ed dni plz n thx <3

they/them

any/all

i like purple, stars, stuffies and butterflies

my special interest is languages

current hyperfixations are k-pop and star wars

peer-reviewed + self-diagnosed audhd O.O

open to asks and messages (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) .ᐟ.ᐟ

Update 10/01/2025!

made personal tags:

#bird boned butterflies - general me tag

#birdcooks4butterflies - anything f0od (WIEIADs, recipes, meals etc)

#birdsd!ets4butterflies - gonna start making d!ets

#birdtalks2butterflies - just talking into the void :3

#birdrants@butterflies - ranting into the void

#birdposts4butterflies - daily post challenges

Stats below ^-^

Height: 176cm / 5'9

SW: 100.8 kg / 222.2 lb

CW: 86.9 kg / 191.6 lb

Milestone 1: 90 kg / 198.4 lb ✔

Milestone 2: 80 kg / 176.4 lb ✖

Milestone 3: 75 kg / 165.3 lb ✖

Milestone 4: 67 kg / 147.7 lb ✖

Milestone 5: 60 kg / 132. 3 lb ✖

Milestone 6: 55 kg / 121.5 lb ✖

GW: 50 kg / 110.2 lb

the fact that literally everyone I know in my life knows I'm ⭐️ving and they won't do anything. I win!

Guys help! My old account got t-worded😭 can yall reblog to help me get my moots back? I was @dietcherrylvr

Coffee 25

Yogurt 95

Granola 110

= 230

:-)