Heartbroken - Blog Posts

why do i have to feel if all i've felt is hurt.

- i'm stuck in a mess that i made for myself

Layer of Dreams 💔💔💔

Star Butterfly from Star Vs The Forces Of Evil. Star right after the events of “Just Friends”.

I loved you and you broke me. I cared for you and you ignored me. I said all good things about you and you wouldn’t even talk to me. I can’t believe you did this and you didn’t even know. But it’s okay because no matter what I will always love you and you will never love me back.

Story of my life #3

I’m sick and tired of you playing this game. Fiddling with my heart and head like you’re a toddler playing with his toys. I’ve had enough of the kindergarten games you throw every which way, trying to get more people to play along, trapping them in a world where not only your love is nonexistent, but all of reality as well. Just stop playing and let me go.

It hurts

I told my friend what hurt the most.

I always said the same thing

when asked about relationships

and the reason why I was never in one.

I said it so much it felt a bit rehearsed

but it was true.

I did not need anyone to be happy,

I did not need anyone to come

and step into my world

only to mess it up.

And for so long I kept that up

I let no one in for anything else

but a simple friendship because I knew

that if they left it would be okay

but you came one day and overtime

became that one person;

The one that I never wanted to let go of,

because things with you were great

you came

and became part of my happiness.

Now I am finding it hard to let you go

but I know I will be okay

because I have rehearsed a new line

and it goes a bit like this,

“I learned what love was and I will be okay”

because although I still leave your space

in our bed open as if you would lay there again

I know you won’t and maybe,

just maybe things were meant to be that way

because

I learned what love was

And for that I will forever thank you.  

M.S.I

This is all that's left of my #childhood #home after someone #broke in and started a #fire #sadface #housefire #family #memories #heartbroken #hashtagwhore

@voided-peach art is so cool

I'm crying while eating this

I’m sorry

Poor Rayman. 😢

My baby... 😿🥀💔 He didn't deserve to die that way. 😟

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-Is someone getting married?

Why didn't you tell her?

-Hasrat hi rahe to behtar hai ...

Chaand haansil ho jaye,to kahan chaand lagta hai.

Translation

It is better to have regrets, than to have the moon obtained.

When you get dumped but have to pretend like you’re not absolutely heartbroken and move on so he’s happy🥲

What gets me is that in song of Achilles, Patroclus could have walk away so many times.

But he couldn't.

He wouldn't.

Because his love for this godborn boy, for this bright and swift and untouchable boy that could had become a divine being, decided to become his first friend.

Even after he found out what Patroclus did.

Just as Achilles' pride had doomed him and Patroclus, Patroclus' love had doomed himself and Achilles.

current mood: i am missing you.

Sometimes not getting what you want is an incredible stroke of luck!

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Of course I'll be fine

I'm good on my own

An appartement that's all mine

Decorating however I want, as whimsical as I please

No screaming at 3 am

And I'm safe. The mess is mine. But so is the tidiness. I don't have to leave. This is mine. I'll protect it, and anyone that needs a small haven is welcome. Hot chocolate and cookies will always be here waiting. Such as a couch and a blanket. I can let people stay. No one to ask for permission to be kind and soft and to host a dinner.

A work that I am so excited about. In a region I already love. Discovering myself again. Reinventing myself and getting a third shot at life.

I couldn't be more excited.

But leaving... leaving everything is fine.

But him.

Yet I can't hold on. He isn't mine. And I am not settling. If I can have his friendship. And that's all. I'll always be grateful for that. For it shows me what I want. Even if I am forever looking for him. At least I know what I search for. If my heart is breaking, watching him live his life. That's alright. For I get to witness it. And perhaps, help the happiness along a little.

I know I am fine on my own. Yet I can't imagine being without him. Even now, without having actually had him entertwined in my life.

How do I leave a love so strong. Without giving it a chance. This gift the universe gave me, and I have no choice but to throw it away. How will I stand alone, when I know his quiet strength as it is behind me.

I know how to leave everything and everyone

But him

Rejection in Good Omens

In season 2, Crowley was rejected by Aziraphale for the THIRD TIME. In season 1, Crowley offers Aziraphale to leave with him, saying, “We’re on our side”, but Aziraphale rejects his idea. When Crowley asks, for the second time in season 1, to “go off together” to Alpha Centurai, Aziraphale rejects the idea AGAIN.

In season 2, Crowley tries to convince Aziraphale they‘re on their own side, away from Heaven and Hell; Heaven and the angels who rejected them both aren’t worth going back to. But once again, Aziraphale rejects the idea and goes back to heaven.

During the rejections, Aziraphale states, “I forgive you.” meaning he’s rejecting Crowley’s ideas, not him.

Getting rejected by Aziraphale wouldn’t be Crowley’s first reaction. He is a fallen angel, after all; God, Heaven, and the other angels have rejected him. Even Hell and the other demons had rejected him after Armageddon. Heck, even Crowley himself seems to have rejected himself; he calls himself a “Former Demon”.

While Aziraphale’s first and only rejection seems to be him getting kicked out of heaven after Armageddon.

I have many regrets but oh my love, I'm afraid you will be that one I'll never be able to forget.

A Burning Love

Left with a bleeding heart,

An undying urge to crawl back to you.

All the shirts left behind burning in the hearth.

Was it really us that matter?

Or the ego you bring to the table?

All those flowers left at the doorstep,

I'll decorate your grave with them,

If not on your arrogance I will bury.

Don't beg for me in the evening,

When in morning you'll leave again,

Forget all the promises made,

Under the influence of my love.

You like to see me cry,

I like to see you bleed.

Your words, my feelings

My knife, your heart

A tragedy I will happily write

If you promise a last dance

Before we burn this house called love.

Letting go

I am letting go

It feels like I’m burning alive and being frozen at the same time

Withdrawal

Sadness sitting in my bones

Memories flooding my brain

But I need to let go

No one should ever be able to hurt me like that and still get my love

Not anymore

I need to move on

Even though I can only think about the good times we had

and it is breaking me in ways I can’t seem to explain

I need to let you go

Because all you did to me

Would be enough to break ten peoples hearts

And still

You managed to do all that to a single one

My one

My still deeply in love one

Maybe we will meet again in another life and our souls will have learned enough to finally make it work

But for now

Please let me let you go

~ honestlywhatfor ~

I’ll never stop

Cried on my way to work today

Screaming empowering songs in the car but not feeling them

Yesterday was one of the harder days

I lost you...again

And no matter how many times we’ve already been through this, the pain never lessened

24 hours, from “Hey we should be spending more time together” to “We should end things here, I can’t do this no more”

World? Crushed

Heart? Broken

Again and again and again

Loving you ruins me

But

I

Just

Can’t

Stop

~ excerpts of me moving on ~

Reorganization

Panic attacks at night

Swollen eyes, crusty lips

Fear of existence

Coating my red face in tears

Shivers shaking my body

I’m a loser

“Come here”

Sudden relaxation

My hand clinging to the pocket on the front of your hoodie

“It’s okay, don’t worry”

Forehead kisses

Careful strokes over my back

Calming my breath

“I’m sorry”

“For what?”

“Dragging you into this mess”

“I don’t mind your mess, I’m here to reorganize”