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Leave my crush on Spock to the side
Another more serious note on this week's SNW episode. I KNEW this shit was going to happen when La'an saw Jim. They are going to keep hurting her until she leaves the Enterprise. I mean Jim is going to be captain. I couldn't be there either. As for Blondie and the Adulterer, shame on them both. Spock got his just desserts for cheating on T'Pring and Christine's inevitable pining for him is also her comeuppance. Like HOW are you going to steal another woman's man and then say IF I HAVE TO LEAVE YOU SO BE IT. Like bitch, wtf is wrong with you? You really go through all that just to not take the relationship seriously? TALK to him about this, be like "yeah I'm leaving but I will contact you the whole three months I am there, I will be back soon. I love you" SOMETHING! They are both the most emotionally immature assholes I have ever seen in my life. When they were playing chess and she was deflecting, I FUCKING KNEEEEWW that she was not going to be serious in committing and that this whole "relationship" was going to come crashing down because both are so annoyingly afraid of their own feelings. I just-ARGH!
NOBODY @ me about them MAkINg MIsTAKes, if it was you ds29gurl, you would cheat with Spock too.
Uh no, I have been in relationships and NEVER IN MY LIFE have I cheated. Attraction is no excuse for infidelity, LOOKING AT YOU TOO JIM, it is never a MISTAKE!
OMFG, the way I blushed when I heard Spock start singing omg, I thought after him cheating on T'Pring my crush was pretty much over. My heart doing flipflops and the butterflies in my stomach say differently though. Everyone sang so beautifully, and the songs had amazing tunes!
Yooooo Amanda is a milf in this episode, respectfully 🤤 I am so glad Spock is now aware of everything she had to go through for him and for Sarek.
That being said, T'Pring continues to be awesome and wants to be with Spock despite her parents. Her mom is a whole bitch and her dad is a spineless man. If someone talked to MY mother like T'Pril does about Amanda, I would flip my whole shit. Pike's face when T'Pril began roasting Spock had me laughing for 5 minutes straight XD He deserves it though, I have never been more disappointed in him. He really out here cheating on T'Pring with Chapel. Damn. T'Pril is right, he does not deserve T'Pring.
"Der Heiligenschein des Ergebenen" An older piece I dug up and decided to upload here as well. It's a more story-heavy piece as it depicts a scene from a story I've been working on and off for several years now. War and it's people fascinated and frightened me since I was little. My family came from all sorts of places, including Germany and Poland, making the era of WW2 so much more personal for myself and them. This scene depicts Jonas, my WW2 pilot character, who decided to flee from Germany at the later period of the ongoing war. He crashlanded in England and was captured, turning himself in essentially, to free himself from the grasp that tortured the country for so long. Working with such heavy topics is another way to work through your families and countries history, exploring what happened and understanding the people from times long ago to a certain extend.
uwur versiones humanas
Mártir, 2025
12" x 8"
Introducing Benji
He originally came fron a late night doodle that turned into a character. I've been meaning to expand on his actual design. I might still change somethings.
He is apart of a larger world that I'm trying to work on. When I have more characters fleshed out I'll explain more.
something about hanging plants on the wall
reaching for the light,
aching,
twisting to contort to expectations—
well—
what looks best for the living room?
yet these are plants, living, breathing,
wilting,
dying—
for the privilege of “looking good”
and
what is that bullshit standard anyways?
attractiveness? style? beauty?
white supremacy in action, again—
over a plant?!
but yes—
(most times it seems to be yes)
so instead, maybe—
what feels best for the plant?
what supports growth the most?
when is your willingness to look good
outweighing your ability to feel good?
when did you start pulling yourself away
from feeling the light
when that’s all you’ve ever wanted?
Never too old to learn.
Today I learned that you can smell a mint plant by basically giving it a grab n stroke. I also learned what one version of a wormwood plant looks like and that Modelo Negra is at least acceptable as long as ya don't let it sit too long. To be fair though, I'm not really a beer person so all of them struggle to impress me completely. I also learned that the mint plant I chose SHOULD help eliminate the regrowth of some of the danger plants in the one section of my yard. This, was VERY pleasing information. I also learned that chicken and waffles, as goofy as it sounds, can be an enjoyable combination. Yes, today... was very educational. lol
I find my courage in each small step forward; my motivation grows with every challenge I embrace, turning hurdles into stepping stones.
The same examples can be found for leg protection and other safety gear. It's annoying sometimes but yes... safety first! Ride safe folks. Too many things can happen so fast... especially when other drivers are involved.
SAFETY FIRST
Miles!
Okay, here is where I will post a question. Does anyone use MapMyFitness? I don't do the big challenges they offer as I'm not exactly in ... the condition.. to participate effectively but, I do enjoy tracking the miles of my walks, hikes, and stuff like bicycle rides. I just think it would be neat to have someone there again to share with. It can be a fun little motivational boost as well. Meh... the question is here. Maybe someday it will prove useful. hahaha
Learning.
Hah.. so today was the trial and error section of learning how to create an instructional sort of video. There are so many things one does not think about until doing something like this. The first "fail" was finding out that my phone camera had reset itself to photo instead of video. The second "fail" was figuring out that half of what I was doing was actually out of the sideways (oops) frame. The third "fail" was realizing that once I completed the biggest part of the project, the item I needed to show the final "test" was nowhere close to my workstation. hahaha I have made adjustments and will try again soon... HOPEFULLY creating the video I wanted to create from the start and then, I will get it shared in the correct locations. The sharing of videos to certain spots was something I finally tested the rest of the way yesterday so i feel fairly confident that it will go where I want it to go. hahaha Life is fun sometimes. Enjoy.
Old dogs CAN learn new tricks!
It's fun. When we're young we get shoved in many directions by those who are supposed to be "teaching" us. We don't realize just how broken most of those folks are and to be fair, they usually don't have a clue either. As we grow and experience life, we get shoved around by reality and forced to play by certain rules because well, things don't slow down long enough in many cases to realize there are other options. Here's where I giggle and say again... broken humans creating broken humans. But, if we're lucky... there comes a point where we can take a breath, look around, see just how twisty things, situations, and people really are.... and begin to rethink how we want to navigate our way through the chaos. That's where I'm at. It's messy. I make mistakes. I wander around clueless a lot. I flop onto the floor and just wait for things to give me less of a headache. I try new things. I laugh and cross some things off my try, or try again, lists. And sometimes... I squeal like a hyper six year old and giggle bounce trying to show anyone who will pay attention my most recent accomplishment... even if sometimes it seems MUCH bigger to me than it would to ANYONE else. hahaha The important part here is that I'm learning a LOT about who I am, who I was sort of forced to pretend to be, and how the actual me can function more smoothly in the world of twisty humans. I'm beginning to understand glitches, adjust my priorities, find new ways of seeking the options I want, and having plenty of fun in the process. I really wish I could have done this when my brain and body were a bit more... cooperative but hey... take it when ya get it right? heh Anyway... I've shared. I hope you're having some fun in the little glimmery moments of life. Laters.
I found this on WordPress after I got told to look it up. Why did I get told to look it up? Well, because that is similar to the process I went through as I geared up to attack the danger plants in my yard today, in the VERY hot sun, with a light breeze, and currently fighting a cold. LOL .... I ended up with sun protection, dust protection, eye protection, arm protection, boots, gloves, and laughter. hahaha I will say this though.... I WON. Danger plants dealt with and NO RASH! I am satisfied!
Should you fancy a read and not carry a fear of thinking... here's my current recommendation. Enjoy.
“Listen to people who know more than you do. Then do it your own way.”
— Alan Parker
DONKEY DAY!!!
Well, I did not realize a day had been created to celebrate the sturdy donkey but... now that I am aware of it, I MUST say.....
- - - HAPPY WORLD DONKEY DAY!!!
I'm not one that agrees with creating a day for everything so that humans will acknowledge the ... contribution... that people, places, creatures, or things have in what humans call progress BUT... if that is something that is needed... I will GLADLY support the recognition of the hard work animals do as slaves to the ... humans.
Dating with purpose?
When you are young and pretty, there are things like "Seeking Arrangements" and more than a few other options online and off to get whatever it is you're after. But, what about when you're older, not so pretty, and no longer trying to pay for school? Are there rich folks out there, looking for old, chonky, and broke... but funny, curious, and not "dead" yet? Are there also dating? sites for that sort of connection? Seems to me everyone wants a pretty face or some sort of impressive resume but what about the folks still trying to find happy, without the good looks, or impressive "goals"? Are they stuck dealing with whatever they can find at the local bingo hall?
hahahaha Random curious thoughts.... heh.
Things...
It's a $15 coffee pot... why go through so much hassle to extend the life of it? Because it's about appreciating what you have. Appreciate that you have a working coffee pot. Put forth the effort to care for it and extend it's life because it is of value and it serves you well.
This was the conversation that led to me finally understanding that far too many people don't value what they have. Stuff is just... things to buy, sell, use, and replace... and sadly, that includes people. Far too many value the money to buy the stuff and the power money gives them over people, but they can't... or don't want to... see the value in the things themselves. It's sad. It explains a lot but, it's ... sad. Maybe I'm a big weirdo but I think things, people included, are more than just items to be bought, sold, used, and replaced.
... Okay... rant over. Have a wonderful day.
I am watching the movie "The Furnace" and I heard a quote that hit me in ways I can't even describe. "Strength, isn't measured by how much you can take before you break, it's how much you can take... after you're broken." .... Seriously, I can not even begin to express how much I felt that... so I felt it good to share. I can't say I always feel strong, but yeah, sometimes... I feel like a serious badass. haha
We all have our own battles. Whatever yours are.... take a deep breathe, listen to yourself, you got this... no matter how it may sound, look, or feel. Much love.
Craftsmanship.
I am beginning to realize that I appreciate those who value true craftsmanship. Modern life is full of products and services but the true art of creating something, or doing something with a genuine passion is usually lost behind the desire for profit and ease. Items, relationships, general interactions... the true attention to detail, effort for quality, and non profit desire to build something that will serve the receiver well is so hard to find. For me, it's not so much about the prize, but rather the process of creating that prize. Whether it's a friendship, a deeper relationship, a product, a service of some sort, it should be more about what you are creating than how easily you can make a certain profit. Shallow human connections and poorly made products have definitely helped me see the real value in craftsmanship, and those who truly seek it. hah Well there's this round of food for thought. Laters!
haha Okay, I won't lie, I bought this because my curiosity was sparked by a soda called Curiosity Cola. It's actually pretty good so, no regrets. haha