SH - Blog Posts
I just want a girlfriend who doesn’t judge me when I sh but instead helps me clean the cuts and checks on them to make sure it’s not infected. I want her to think I’m pretty even if my thighs are covered in wounds and scars🤍( ;´ - `;)
Andddd maybe….a little kissy kissy after helping me clean up ( //>///<//)
I honestly don't understand the problem people have with self harm... It's just a coping mechanism like any other. I don't want to k!ll mys3lf so it's not like its dangerous. Nobody has a problem with smoking and drinking even tho they are terrible for you but as soon as I decide to pull out a blade suddenly everyone's panicking.
need to cvt so bad but my arms are still a mess 😭 I don’t want to move to my thigh but it looks so good
I honestly don't understand the problem people have with self harm... It's just a coping mechanism like any other. I don't want to k!ll mys3lf so it's not like its dangerous. Nobody has a problem with smoking and drinking even tho they are terrible for you but as soon as I decide to pull out a blade suddenly everyone's panicking.
My opinions based on your sh tool
Pencil sharpener blades: We’ve all been there, the definition of desperate. May not be the sharpest but she gets the job done and will have a special place in our hearts <3
Razor blades: My absolute fave, works like a fucking charm. You’ve definitely done some experimenting trying to get them out of the razors.
Scissors: You’re either super desperate and using the only thing you can find, or you’re crazy and literally cut chunks out of your skin. I could never stomach cutting chunks so y’all are brave
Lighter: I’ve never used it, but you seem pretty chill. Definitely gets overlooked in the sh community
Hands: sometimes it’s just easiest to dig your nails into your skin until they’re decorated in those little half moons. Skin picking too, that also a fun one. Pretty easy to hide and execute, not the most painful tho
Knives: depends on the kind of knife. You could have anything from light cuts to some deep serious shit. It’s probably a pain in the ass to hide the knife tho.
Safety pins: these were my starter tool. Again, not the sharpest, but she works and isn’t really that hard to find. You’re probably just starting out with sh, and I recommend you don’t continue doing it because it can be very addictive
Glass: you’re pretty cool! It’s a pretty solid tool with good sharpness, and not too big to hide! You have a very well rounded tool and have probably been doing this for a while.
Box cutter: again, never used it, but they seem about the same sharpness as a razor blade. I’m kinda jealous of how easy they seem to hold and the leverage you can get. You seem like someone who likes the sharpness of a razor blade but is going the classy route.
I’ve definitely forgotten some so lmk what and I’ll edit it <3
If I got anything wrong I’m so so sorry
Trying to heal my wrist scars but I wanna cut so bad. I am way too scared it is too easy to find and my parents will see. I am on vacation and don’t have a blade so I can’t cut anyway. I think I might do thighs or hips for now on so it will be a lot easier to hide. Ugh but I know it won’t be as satisfying for me😭😭
TW: GORE, SELF HARM
Don't worry, I'm doing better now!
Was listening to the silent hill ost while doing homework.
W.I.P Sherlock & Co. drawing that'll be a part of a mini-comic for a scene from the episode Golden Pince-Nez. The cathedral is taking bloody foreverrr, but I am loving it so far. Some lines are wonky, so sorry about that. I'll be adding Sherlock and John soon. I just gotta get the architecture done.
I hope you lot enjoy!! 💛💛💛
*to the tune of that one song* hello bandage my old friend
Ana Story
about halfway through my first semester of college I had a friend of mine that I spoke to about my ed, he never judged me and while I knew that he was worried he never tried to force me into recovery- at least at that time- sometimes he forgot that there were some things that triggered me. The time that I talking about was when I started bingeing quite a bit due to stress, anyway to see the scene I had a lot of food on my plate and as I sit down he looks over to me and says” are you gonna eat all that? Can you really handle it? If not I’ll finish it for you” I think he saw the look on my face of pure guilt and regret, because as I tried to take another bite I stopped and pushed the plate away and said “nvm I not hungry anymore”. It wasn’t until later that I got a text from him saying that he didn’t realize that what he said caused me to stop eating and that some of the other people at our table told him that what he said probably made me feel like shit- which it did and I ended up going on a 4 day fast that ended with me fainting in class-
I haven’t spoken to him in a while, mostly because of winter break. He’s a good friend but really wants me to recover eventually, he’s got a bit of a hero complex- which I don’t really mind- he’s super easy to talk to and is a safe space for me. There’s been times when we both couldn’t sleep so we go on hour long walks around campus just talking, then we sit somewhere on campus talking more long into the night. There was this one time that we laid on the concrete infront of the chapel just staring at the night sky, it was so peaceful. id like to experience that at least one more time in my life, just to hear him call me is angel again
This is us laying on the floor in one of the dorm halls kitchen while our friends make cookies, it’s sometime around 1 am at this point. We’re all tired but there’s too much on our minds to sleep, it was strangely peaceful and calming even though we all had so much going on.
update found out that it wasn’t just breaking my fast that fucked up my stomach, but also the norovirus so that was a great experience.
I’m doing better now, however my sister accidentally caught it from me so now she’s sick. I took a little bit of a break from posting so that I could recover as all I could do was drink water, sleep, drink more water, vomit, drink even more water then sleep for 10 hours and sleep be exhausted when I get up.
I will say it was nice to sleep so much as I have reallllly bad insomnia and rarely get to sleep more than 2-3 hours. Most of the time I might be able to get 3 hours of sleep but it’s with periods of wakefulness. I feel like every 10 minutes of sleep I get I can’t sleep for 20-30 minutes, I’ve been off of melatonin for a while now just to give my body a break from it as in high school I was taking waay more then the recommended amount for someone of my height and weight.
Yall I broke my fast/ diet restriction and I regret it soo much. Not just because of my weight loss goals, but mainly because everything that I had( which wasn’t much) fucked with my stomach so badly
little story
wow I love living in a townhouse and when I go to let my sister into the house ( after losing her keys) only to look behind her an see 7+ police cars at the neighbor across from us. This is a every few month experience for our neighborhood.
when we first moved into this house my mom got woken up to a banging on the door and strobe lights, only to open the door and in her words “a very good looking police officer” greeted her to ask about our next door neighbors, he was very understanding about how we don’t know them as we LITERALLY JUST MOVED IN.
my sister got woken up shortly after because they were calling out to the neighbors to get them to all walk outside and do the normal SWAT team shit, because yes my neighbors got SWATTED.
Now you might by asking, ‘but Daphie where were you when this happened?’ Dead asleep that’s where 😂
I slept through a fucking swatting, I have no memory of this happening until I was told about it in the morning.
moral of the story I can sleep through anything if I slept through a SWAT team- I have a few more stories like that in college lol
I feel bad for not being as active as I normally am, but I contracted the norovirus from a boy that I babysit and it's been hell.
i'm not complaining but I could do without the feeling like shit every second of my days.
update
Yay my labs are done so tonight I got to use my new pack of blades:)
Tw sorry lol
man I would love to slit my wrists rn but I can’t since I have to get labs done in a few weeks and I know that they won’t be healed by then. I might just go it on my tights tho but that’s an awkward place to me yk
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does anyone else ever feel too numb so they purposely trigger themselves to feel something? I know it’s not healthy but it’s one of the only ways that I feel anything right now.