Tw Depressing Thoughts - Blog Posts

I'm alive. But a part of me, doesn't want to be

I don't wanna get help anymore.

I have no idea why, but everyone became so supportive out of blue... Literally, my parents started talking about that I need a psychologist, and that they'll bring me to them. My classmates let me vent out, and gave me support, but the problem is... I don't want help anymore. I already made my decision. But the worst thing is.... I relapsed. But, sometimes I think, what's happening with me? Why I feel like this and etc. But I just started to think that's just a phase, hormones or something... Even though I have it for 3 years, Lol

I talked with my parents about that I wanna die, but they started to judge me. Today I understood that nobody needs me, and I'm not need to stay here in this world. I want to commit suicide, and I will commit suicide, maybe on my funerals they will understand that I wasn't okay?:)

Hey guys, I've a question. What do you think about cutting cuz of grades? Does 3 cuts compensate 3 (if we're talking about USA It'll be C)? And does 5 cuts compensate 2 (F if we're talking about USA system)?

Or I shouldn't cut at all? Anyway, I'm gonna do it now...

I'm afraid that I won't pass my exams... In 9 grade, I'll have exams, which will help me to go in 10 grade, but... I have serious issues with maths... I'm afraid that if I won't pass it, I'll go and commit suicide. Somewhere, deep, in my soul, I don't want die cuz of it. But I feel like I will and like I should.

But... Even if I'll commit suicide, people will just forget me, and I'll be just a random kid, that made grave for themselves. I... I have no idea what to do...

Doing homework sounds like a complete hell... Why I always wanna kill myself when it comes to school? I have no ideas... At least I have social nets where I can vent out freely, cuz if I vented only to my friends, they'd leave me, I guess... At least doing homework when you aren't hyperactive better than doing it when you wanna chat and etc.

I guess, that I should leave there links on my other social media... Anyway, I should go now....

World would be better if I'd be dead or aborted

PLEASE HELP ME!!!

I can't keep fighting with it anymore, I can't describe how much I wanna take out my kn!fe and cut my arms. I wanna make too many cut, to make them bl!!dy mess. I can't fight it. I already cut my legs, but it doesn't help. Please. PLEASE. PLEASE!! Someone, please help me. I can't fight this urge, one more hour and I'll turn my arms in a mess. Looks like I have an addiction...

I wish, when I commit suicide someone will write song about me, or become an example why you should give attention to your kid. Even few tribute groups will be enough.

I have Facebook acc, so maybe, one day I'll start livestream where I'll kms... But for now we'll just wait.

I wish, I could just die and don't suffer anymore, fuck my life

I'm feeling useless, maybe I'm just fooling myself, huh?

I want to kill myself

Unfortunately I started self harrrm again and yes I am just getting back into therapy

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Yay, whatever.

ughh

i only exist only like i swear im such a npc loser irl

Its getting bad

idk anymore i feel so shitty and empty..like a ghost...i just want to sleep and never wake up

im so fuckin useless

Its not even funny anymore,i have no future, everybody fuckin hates me...why am i even here? im so fuckin ugly and disgusting i only make problems...all i do is rot in my bed and think about ki11ing myself...

I am losing myself

i feel like im not myself anymore..who tf am i? im so damn detached from reality...

i dont know who i am

i dont feel like i have my own personality and identity..i feel empy,Always acting the way others want me to..who tf i am?

I'm going to a new psychiatrist...

im so scared it will end up like always....them yelling at me that its my fault

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i need to start taking my medications again eh i stopped,thinking i dont need it but i feel like shit,but when i take them i feel so damn empy and emotionless..

SOOOOOO

Today the POLICE called my mom... because of school and my absence..We have to go to the police station and explain everything or what?i want to kill my self um....BLABLABLABLEBLEBLEBLUBLUBLU

why the fuck do i still miss that person?

He made me hate myself..I cried every night because of him, I started hurting myself because of him, I wanted to di3 so much but I didn't even have the energy to get out of bed...he manipulated the shit out of me,totally ruined me

why do i still miss him...

im like „im getting better!"

but other day im crying after relapsing...

help i feel like im gonna pass out

i haven't eaten a proper meal in a long time....i feel sick and my body is so weak,I tried to eat because my mom forced me to, but I almost threw up

i have no future

no like actually i dont,My family always says that...Even my psychiatrist said Im just causing problems for my family🤷🏻‍♂️its like everyone wants me to ki11 myself

im seeing my psychiatrist tomorow..I decided to tell her everything like EVERYTHING,im scared asf but idc anymore

im crying so hard

my dad and mom said that the talked with my therapist..they want me to go to a mental hospital...they said they dont want me to be in this house...i want to ki11 myself i dont see aby other opinion

im so damn tired

I haven't been to school for three weeks because my mental health got really bad..i just feel so shitty will I ever feel better?

i just live in my head and daydream

my therapist said it would be a good idea to send me to a mental hospital..my mom talked about it too...idk leave me alone