I’m Getting There I’ve Dropped From A Jean Size 6 To A 2 And For Tops I’m No Longer A Medium But

Everyday

Me: Gotta restrict, restrict, restrict, let's aim for 500 calories today

Me: *realizes I have unhealthy habits and binges* Eating disorders are bad, so yay me for recovery!

Me: Oh my god I ate myself for eating, I'm never eating again.

Me: *repeats every single day*

No, you don't want to binge

You don’t want to feel those minutes of pleasure on your tongue, just to hate you for hours and days. Sweets aren’t worthy of your self-respect. Are they? No, they aren’t. You don’t want to binge, you want to be proud of yourself. You don’t want to fill your body with unnecessary calories, you want people to think “how the hell did she get that body????”. Take a pretty mug, fill it with cold water or green tea and drink. You need to chew? Apples are friendly, sweets and snacks are like heroin: they destroy you, they make you dependent, they make you a (fat) zombie that only goes for another dose.

Never forget

If you didn’t eat for a week you’d lose 8kg… that’s almost the whole way to your ugw, I’m not saying do it, but it’s possible. It is possible to lose weight fast, it can happen, but every time you say ‘just one’ or ‘I’ll only have a few, they won’t make a difference’ you’re giving in; you’re letting your impulses control you. So make this week a good one, no binging, lots of sit-ups and squats, lots of tea and water and minimal calories. Every day you succeed is a day closer to your goal, every day you fail is another day you’ll have to wait to reach it.

It’s only ten days, what do you have to lose …. other than ten pounds?

What “pro-ana” means to me

Of course I’m not “pro” ana. None of the people who post with this tag are. None of us want you to develop an eating disorder. None of us want you to starve yourself, harm your body, and hurt your mind. Come on, who the hell would wish this on anyone? 

I’m not pro ana.

I know what “ana” is. It’s not something anyone in their right mind would support. I’ve been living with an eating disorder for over 10 years now. That’s my whole teenage and adult life right there. I don’t remember what it’s like living without it. I don’t know what having a normal relationship with food feels like. I don’t know how people go about their daily lives without obsessing about what they eat or how they look.

I’m not pro ana. 

“Ana” isn’t something you get out of. I’ll go through a restrictive phase, then relapse into bulimia, and every once in a while, feel like I’m getting better and healthier. It never lasts. It’s as if my eating disorder went to sleep for a while… took a little break, and then came back a little stronger. It always does. 

I’m not pro ana. 

If you’re not dealing with an eating disorder, or if the content on my blog is triggering to you PLEASE don’t follow me. Please don’t think eating disorders are an easy way to lose weight. Please don’t take any dieting tips from “pro ana” blogs. Please, please, please don’t starve yourself. Don’t harm yourself. Binging, purging, restricting, fasting are terrible ideas. Run while it’s still time. 

I’m not pro ana. 

I’m “pro” supporting my sisters and brothers who struggle with an eating disorder. If I post something with the tag “pro-ana”, it doesn’t mean I encourage you to develop disordered habits… it means I’m here for you. I’m right there with you. 

I don’t support eating disorders, I support people going through them. 

Back to 94lbs

Thought I’d share another safe food/recipe🌟 I loooove ramen and noodles but they have a shitload of calories so I buy shirataki noodles! I use tofu shirataki noodles but you can buy the real yam ones which have less calories I believe. My brand has 30 calories per package which is one meal for me. I start by rinsing them, then I boil them for a couple minutes to get the salty/fishy smell out, then I fry them in a pan to get out the extra water and make them less rubbery. You’ll know they’re done when the make a squeaking sound when you rub them against the pan. I like to make spicy noodles by adding 1 tbsp of light soy sauce(10) and 1 tsp of siracha(5) sauce for a total of 45 calories! These are a bit rubbery but seriously so so great💕 Many people make them with spaghetti sauce. These are so diverse and wonderful 11/10 recommend✨