Me: I want to get better:/
My ed: does that mean that you want to be fat?
Me:
We were two hours on call, after days without one because of me studying. She's so sweet, and I'm so grateful because she helped me learn all those vitamin's names. She's the best.
Days off antipsychotics and feeling the void
Me: I've done this before, of course I can exist without eating chametz !!
Me the second day of pesach, craving a cookie:
Reasons not to hurt kids:
their happiness
their safety
their well being
their health
their childhood
their future
their emotional health
their mental health
because the world will hurt them too and they’re supposed to have someone in life they can trust
so they’re safe loving you
so they feel protected
because they don’t deserve pain
because it’s already so damn hard to exist on this decaying planet and they don’t need any extra stress in life
because they’re facing difficulties and need support not pain
because it makes you a horrible person to hurt a kid
because nobody benefits from it
because it teaches them that being hurt is normal, acceptable way to live
because it can push them to hurt themselves
because it will make them feel abandoned and worthless
because they feel your hatred so strongly it can break them
because they’re in a small body and it’s already frightening for them to know someone wants to hurt them
because it’s not your job to be a villain in a child’s life
because they might not recover
because there’s only so much a child can endure
because they might never stop hurting
because they will grow up and you don’t have the right to expect their forgiveness
because you’re taking away their ability to feel save and loved by you
because you might be taking away their ability to feel safe or loved by anyone
because you’re breaking their heart and they thought they could trust you
because no child deserved to be brought in this world only to be betrayed
because making a child go thru pain is a despicable and monstrous thing to do
because it doesn’t have any, ANY benefits to the child at all
because there’s a huge amount of children already traumatized and suicidal and struggling to keep themselves alive by the end of the day
because you do not have to hurt a child, ever
Reasons to hurt a child
There are no reasons. There are only excuses. Only incomprehensible garbage and lies that exist for the sole purpose of excusing your horrifying actions of hurting a kid. Because you felt like keeping a small human being in pain to satisfy your sick urges. No kid needs to be hurt to grow up right. No kids requires pain inflicted on them by people they trust and rely on in order to be raised safely. If you think there are actual reasons to hurt children it’s because you want to hurt them and will make up any kind of bullshit to excuse your abuse. No child has deserved this. Stay away from children if you can’t love them.
Me: omG I LOST 3 POUNDS ;_;
My brain: great, next, die
My ed: hOLD A FUCKING SECOND, WHEN, WERE, HOW, WHO, WHAT¿ but you still fat gurl.
Me: -counting how much calories I ate last week and trying to anilize how I lost 3 pounds in a week after bingin' 2 times-
Worst part of trauma after abusive relationships is that you never see relationships the same way again. Never. Ever. Again.
The way i communicate with somebody i love or i like is different. It is never direct on what i'm supposed to ask for. And always scared of a bad reaction. I'm terrified of people i love. People who haven't done anything but treat me right.
i need to follow more ppl so pls reblog this if ur any of these:
- 160-168 cm tall
- sw was 60+ kg
- ur ugw is 50 kg or under
- you’re under 18
- you’re living with parents/roommates
it honestly doesn’t rly matter lol pls just reblog this if ur active
I'm sad and angry i'm gonna eat 10 chips ahoy
fast forward, now on: antipsychotics and antidepressants. hi, i use this account as a personal diary, please don't take me seriously, nor try this at home. A D U L T !! super lesbian and in recovery. sincerely yours, Anne.
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