Fourth year clinical medical student . Accipe facta, intercipe factura . #bibliophile
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Re: blorbo from my research, here is my favorite ever case study. I'm obsessed with it.
Summary:
- Guy presents to neurology with muscle issues, very clearly has something going on but diagnostic tests are inconclusive
- History is mostly unremarkable. Key word, mostly. He drinks four liters of plain Earl Grey tea per day. For context this is nearly twice the recommended daily fluid intake. All fluids, to be clear, not just tea. He only drinks tea tho
- Bergamot is known to be phototoxic in high doses (reacts badly on your skin with sunlight)
- APPARENTLY nobody previously has consumed enough of it for it to be widely known that it is also, apparently, mildly toxic to ingest in high doses
- Guy starts drinking plain black tea again. Only 2 liters this time (he didn't have a medical reason to drink that much tea, he just liked it) and so now he's fully recovered
Staying private and why it's important
People are sooo nosy, it's human nature to know what everyone is doing at all times. but you don't know what the person you're telling something to is going to do with that information, which is why it's better to stay private.
WHEN to stay private:
- plans you have in regards to your future
- how far along you are in an assignment or how well you did on something
- any ideas you have regarding business or creative assignments
WHY stay private:
- people might steal your ideas or use your words against you
- make you feel bad about your ideas or thoughts
- does not give anyone who is not close to you any unnecessary insight into your life
- protects your peace
HOW to stay private:
- think before you speak and think about who you're speaking to
- stray away from any topics regarding yourself unless necessary, people love talking about themselves
- write down your ideas or thoughts if you really wanna tell someone
Someone said “ I don’t walk away to teach people a lesson I walk away when I’ve learned mine” and I felt that.
If I schedule posts for when I forget about Tumblr exists then it looks like I never forgot and it looks like I post regularly.
ADHD pro gamer move right there.
Yes this is a scheduled post my memory is really bad and I've been hyperfixating on Tumblr all day
Honestly, everything makes so much more sense after finding out that object permanence also relates to people.
If I don’t talk to, see or hear someone, I forget they exist. And by forget, I mean they cease to exist. I can live/be in the same house as this person, but my brain just erases them from my mind.
It’s even worse if I can’t see or talk to them in person at all for whatever reason, because I forget they exist. I can go for months with no contact with a person because my brain just erases them. This has made multiple friendships of mine breakdown since they often thought I was no longer interested in being friends and was ignoring them.
You've been diagnosed with jack of all trades disorder! Good luck finding a career you're supposed to hold for the rest of your life!
shoutout to every neurodivergent adult who has never been on a date and grew up with very few friends, believing over time that a lack of a social circle meant they must be fundamentally broken and unloveable as they watched everyone else hit social milestones like partying and dating before them
you’re still cool and lovable and a legit adult even if you’re “behind” by NT standards
You will meet people who will teach you love in its safest and purest form.
Your self concept creates you. Your self concept creates your life. Your self concept determines the quality of your reality. The dominant beliefs about yourself and your life are the foundation of your reality. The external reality is the reflection of what’s going on in your internal world. It’s a mirror.
If you want to change something in your reality, you don't change a reflection. You change yourself, your inner world, the world of your thoughts and emotions. When you put on a new self concept, a new state of being, your reality responds. It has no other option. It has to mirror your new internal state. You are capable of manifesting anything you want. You can live the life of your dreams. But to do this, you need to put on an identity of a person you want to become and then start showing up as this person every single day.
✨IG: nikasholistic✨
gatekeeping how hot i am by never taking pics
You don't need to wait for the love of your life to love your life.
no matter where you're at in your life, there's always time for things to improve. even if you feel lost, stuck or left behind, you have the time to build a life you want. you may not get back the years you've lost, but you will have many years to live contentedly. there is more than this darkness & you have the time to see what else there is, in whatever form that is for you. simply put, life is not meant to be this hard. things will get easier, softer, brighter.
you got this.
You'll never be always motivated, so you must learn to be disciplined.
For the first time in such a long time, I felt confident in myself today.🥰
We had OSPE (Objective structured Practical Examination) and skill laboratory exams today, and I left the exam halls feeling as if I crushed them both. I was right about one of them, and I am waiting for the results of the second one.
Feeling confident doing these exams reminded me of the feeling of excelling in exams. The rush was something I really missed. Honestly, it gave more motivation to study for my finals, which are in 3 days. I'm hoping to keep this motivation until the end.
In a completely unrelated topic, my boyfriend has broken up with me. The excuse he used was that he didn't have much time to be dating and that he needed the time for other things. Am I disappointed? Definietly. But, I am not going to brood over it and work on myself to be better. This was the last chance I was willing to give to having a relationship in medical school, and that's done for 😅
The general takeaway from this is, "Don't date in medical school." 😂
living in the age of social media makes us crave instant results, gratification and stimulation. we’re constantly racing against the clock instead of letting things flow. this makes it difficult to stay motivated on long term goals or have the patience to see it through. but despite the distractions, continue to believe in yourself and persist in your goals. everything comes when it’s ready.
Hey, it's okay to grieve for the person you were, the person you could be right now. It's okay to be angry for all the things that were taken away from you. The things that you're still healing from. It's okay.
Healthier body.
Healthier skin.
Healthier hair.
Healthier mindset.
Healthier relationships.
Healthier friendships.
Healthier routines.
Healthier habits.
Healthier life.
The moment I realised that worrying is also a form of manifestation, I stopped.
Think of your brain as a computer. You have the power to program whatever the f*ck you want into your subconscious and watch it manifest in your day-to-day life.
I love how grades don't define us, but getting a bad grade still makes me feel so much like a failure
Dear reader,
The reason I started this blog is because I wanted to document my journey throughout medschool.The past two years in medical school have been a little difficult both in my academic and social life.
This is the truth that no one tells you about medical school.
It is not all about the aesthetic, it is not all about the title you get after graduation and it is not definietly about neglecting yourself for your education. It is a very slow, tortuous and laborious path that will examine every ounce of stregnth you have. It will push you to the breaking point and pull you back. It is a very long path that will test your mental and physical strength. I have 4 years left, as the total is seven years of study. This drains your hope of reaching your goals. As the years get longer, the obstacles you face also multiply. From peer pressure to pressure from the senior doctors, you will start questioning your decesion making skills. You will feel as if eveything you say is wrong and that you know nothing. You will feel as if you are wasting your years without amounting to nothing.
During my first two years of study, I have made decesions that have led to the deterioration of my mental and physical health. Although I haven't been clinically diagnosed, there are certain symptoms and signs that don't need a medical degree to notice. These unfavourable conditions have had negative effects on my physical health as well resulting in me over eating to cope with the stress that was prevealent in my life. The weight gain that resulted from that has led to a disorted body image where I couldn't see my self as attractive or desirable although that was far from the truth. My self confidence plummeted because I compared myself to other people, I couldn't form healthy boundaries because I felt that I would be abandoned by people if I had restrictions, I became insecure in my apperance and my clothing style which made me waste a lot of money on clothing and accessories because I wanted to fit in and I would have manic and depressive episodes which affected my sleeping pattern, apetite and memory.
I would think all this was hard on me because I was weak and undeserving of the opportunity I had. This gradually led to the development of imposter syndrome where I felt as if I wasn't enough, as if I didn't have the abilities required to be a medical student. I felt inferior to the other student with their studying and good grades. In order to escape this, I would go out to hang out with people who had questionable characters and never had second thoughts about manipulating me to get what they want. My first and half of second year of medical school went like this.
A new change started in my life when we had a minor course on the half of second year, which didn't require attendance. I stayed in my dormitory for the whole two months not even going to go out for meals. I entered a period of self reflection where I thought about the past choices I made and their effects on my present life. After an agonizing and meditative period, I did a lot of shadowwork on myself and defined my problems and their solutions. By the time the course was over, I was already adapted to my new mindset. This solved my social and personal problems and only the academical problems remained.
I didn't know how to study. That was the truth. I was a gifted overachiever in my highschool years. I didn't need to have long and intensive study sessions to understand the materials. Hence, I had no clue on how to do structured studying sessions. I reserached studying methods and tried them out sacrificing my grades in the process. I am still experimenting but I am confident that I am doing better than before.
I also decided to be open to the relationship aspect. Before, I didn't feel as if men were to be trusted and only had physical attachments that didn't pass the kissing stage. Currently, I have a boyfriend that is caring, academically gifted and amazing. Although he will be leaving after 6 months as he is in his internship year of medical school, I consider this a good experience in the dating department and I hope our relationship continues outside medical school.
I have also refined my social circle. I am only friends with people that have a healthy perception of what friendship is. I enjoy their company and do not feel like an outsider or feel awkward with them.
My advice is to remember who you are, to be yourself and to know your principles and routines. These have helped me on my journey to a better medical school life.
Join me on my journey through medical school. 😊