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The college Maker Space place opened up again [it was closed cause the guy running it got married or something]. We made 2 new buttons/pins!!!!

Love these new pins/buttons!!! If you can't tell what they say, we put alt text on them.

- Shay (They/it) :3c

https://multiplicity.fandom.com/wiki/Category:System_origins

Looked at this to learn about plural origins.

These feel like the best terms for our origin right now.

So we will be using these terms, probably mostly unknown.

- Shay (They/it) | Host & someone else no idea who rn (they/it)

Changed profile picture to what used to be the banner thing.

Changed banner thing to the novigender flag mixed with the genderqueer flag (cause both are what I use for my gender [I/my used to refer to Shay, the host]).

- Shay (They/it)

Absolutely!!!

We actually growl a lot, not always on purpose, it's just instinct!

- Shay (They/it)

Wish growling/hissing was a more socially acceptable form of communication. Like, it's so effective: you hear a growl, you back off cuz you know you'll get bit otherwise.

Tw/cw: dissociating, suicide mention, distressing stuff(?), election and politics.

Ok, for a bit, we are gonna have to just fully avoid any posts to do with the election and politics, so any of my mutuals, please tag any posts you make about these with the tags for them, please. So we can properly avoid them.

Need to take a break from it cause it is causing too much distress and shit.

I (the host) can feel myself dissociating [not necessarily to do with system/plural shit] and just we need to stop looking at it for now.

Also, please, any of my mutuals, tag if you mention suicide or killing yourself (either kms or kys versions), please. Cause we can't always deal with that, so we need to be able to avoid those posts when needed.

Basically, just please tag your posts properly, especially for trigger or content warnings, please.

The best thing would probably to be getting off of the internet/social media fully for a bit, but we can't really do that fully. Won't explain anymore than that.

Shay (They/it) & Declan? (They/them + ve/vem/ver/vers/vemself and thi/thim/thims/thims/thimself)

Mood.

We already had them filtered, so we could avoid the posts if needed and we are still having some issues.

Hope this reblog is ok since it's not actually talking about it?

Stay safe as well. <3 (heart is platonic)

- Shay (They/it) | :3c

i've done my best to reblog helpful things, to use this blog to help with the fear and pain and grief. It has helped, a bit. but from now on i'm blocking election and politics tags. please don't bring it up with me, or tag me in it, or whatever. i need this to be an escape for me. stay safe, all of you, especially if you're a minority. i love you.

New userbox I (the host) made.

The picture was a picture I found of a crow that is brown (it's me!!!).

- Shay (They/it) | the host, we don't have a "name" or anything for our system overall yet.

Edit: Forgot to mention that any userbox that is posted as being made from us is free to use, and no credit is required, but it is appreciated.

Tw/cw: suicide, all caps in parts of our post

Ok, this is a great post, love it, thank you.

BUT PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF EVERYTHING; TAG OR ADD THE TRIGGER WARNING FOR SUICIDE!! SOME BEINGS NEED TO BE ABLE TO FILTER POSTS WITH THAT OUT SO PLEASE ACTUALLY FUCKING TAG IT!!

As I said, it's a great post, and we love it, but still, tags of this kind are very important, so please tag any trigger warnings, especially suicide.

- Shay (They/it)

queer people of all kinds. i am looking you in the eyes. do not fucking kill yourself. are you listening to me it will be okay. it will get better. i am shaking you by the shoulders do. not. fucking. do. it. you have so much to keep going for and so many people who love you. the cost of the present will not outweigh the life ahead of you. i love you. chin up or down keep walking you'll get there. we will pull you back up onto your feet should you fall. i love you

Absolutely, it's a good feeling to know that you have everything you need close by!!

- Shay (They/it)

My family always gets annoyed I keep a bad with me (either in the car or on my person) but I need it

It has my money, my id/my learners permit, noise cancelling headphones, blue tooth headphones and ear buds, period pads, small snacks in case I didn't eat and/or I feel fainty, A book for in case I need something to focus on/fill time, a couple bracelets and a plushie to fidget with and help if I have a melt down, as well as my tablet for my music for car rides and to distract from the other over stimulating noises and my house keys, and a small notebook and a pen/pencil in case I need to write something down so I remember it or doodle

All in just a medium sized backpack

I don't always bring it in with me depending on the circumstances, but I like knowing everything I need I have at least somewhat close

All of this is a mood, including the tags, lol.

Our "many" disabilities disable us? Who would have guessed? Lol (this is mostly a dig at ourselves).

- Shay (They/it)

I often have to stop myself whenever I catch myself going “it’s just that easy” or “why can’t I be like this all the time?” after doing the most mundane shit without second thought.

It’s not that easy, I’m just having a really good day so far.

I can’t be like that all the time, I have a disability.

And that’s ok.

Just went to a store and found this little enderman plush!!

How does our enderman mutual feel about this plush? @talon-dragonbeast (hope you don't mind the tag).

- Shay (They/it) & someone else don't know who the fuck (it/it/its/its/itself + ix/ix/ixs/ixs/ixself)

As a plural [questioning origin] who is new to the plural and system community in general, I wanna point out that from what we've seen being a system/plural is not really the whole thing with DID and other dissociative disorder like that, it's the trauma and being a system is more of an "add-on" (sorry for phrasing it like that).

So people saying they are PLURAL or a SYSTEM or whatever other word they prefer to use without trauma is not misdiagnosing themselves cause they aren't claiming to have DID or OSDD or other trauma based dissociative disorders without trauma. They are just saying that they have a similar thing to people with those disorders (I hope we are explaining this correctly).

So why are anti endos so obsessed with trying to call them fake or saying that they are doing that? If you just listen to them, you would learn more, and isn't that better? Don't traumagenic systems/plurals want to be listened to instead of being thought of badly from misinformation and bad representation and shit? So why aren't they doing that for endos?

I wouldn't usually jump into "discourse" or anything, but we felt like this needed to be said and understood. If you don't like this post, leave my account, go ahead, and block me. It will save everyone a ton of time.

- Lakey (They/it + blu/blue/blues/blues/blueself) & Shay (They/it) | almost always here as the host, lol

I think a big part of the reason that I went from anti-endo to endo-safe was absolutely due to how starkly different the communities felt.

Anti-endo communities were hard to engage with. Sure, some of them would focus on their support for each other more than their hatred of endogenic systems. And that's great! However, when you are brought together by your dislike of a certain group, you can't help but feel the hate permiate into so much of it. It always happened eventually. Anti-endo communities had such a focus on systems who were "fake" that I couldn't help but worry I was one of them, no matter how much they told me it was "just endos" they were concerned about.

The endo community (at least the parts I've engaged with and were easy to find) were so kind and respected me as a system, no matter how I felt or my plurality presented. Simply knowing we could find joy in our plurality allowed us to strive for so much more than we had thought possible before.

As a traumagenic system, we've improved so much with our symptoms and communication as a result of the positivity and acceptance we recieved. When we joined communities where we could be authenticallly ourselves (no matter what), we came together and faced so much less conflict between each other. And the conficts we did have, we realized that we could solve them together rather than alone.

When you are constantly doubting if you are "actually a system", you start to push the others away, and that made our dissociation and amnesia so much worse. I understand being careful of self-misdiangnosis, it can put you on the wrong path for how you learn to manage your symptoms. At the same time, the sentiment I often heard from endogenic systems when I was struggling with doubt and denial was very simple: "So what if you're not a system?" In short, it was okay to be wrong.

And that was huge for me. I realized that, no matter if I was a system or not, the techniques I used to improve ourselves and communicate with one another beneficial to me. At the end of the day, even if I wasn't a system after all, the skills I had found we invaluble to my health and well-being. So when I fall into denial spirals, no matter what I think about myself, I now know that I don't need to deprive myself of what has helped me, even if it is a "system thing." I don't feel scared to use these skills anymore (even in denial spirals), beacuse the line between what systems and non-systems or singlets can/can't do suddenly wasn't a big deal or a battle of "who can do what."

Our plurality is no longer a burden or a scar to us. It is simply who we are. We've learned so much about each other and ourselves since we've been accepted in full, and since we've learned to accept others. Endogenic communities have helped us (a traumagenic system) probably more than they'll ever know, and we're forever grateful for that.

So thank you, endogenic systems.

Not tagged, but we wanted to do this.

There are quite a few songs stuck in our head rn, lol.

This is the main one, though, lol. Watched some of the Agatha All Along episodes a few days ago, and this song has been stuck in our head since.

- Lakey (They/it + blu/blue/blues/blues/blueself) | I think this is the first post with Lakey, lol.

[Wanna mention that I (Shay/Zuki) am almost always 'fronting' and shit, so I'm still here as well as Lakey.] | {"typical" pronouns for me (Shay/Zuki) which are they/it}

ATTENTION

If you see this you are OBLIGATED to reblog w/ the song currently stuck in your head :)

Poem number whatever, lol.

Older poem, wrote this a while ago.

Tw: Death, and none others that I can think of.

The Three Phrases

Life is unfair

Time flies

You love and you lose

That's the three phrases

You need to learn

To understand

Life isn't fair

Good people have bad things happen

Bad people have good things happen

Time flies

It feels slow at times

But it flies really fast

You love and you lose

You never know when someone

You love will die

Life is unfair

Time flies

You love and you lose

I decided to try and make some userboxes myself for us.

Don't know how well they actually turned out, but we love them!!!

If you want to use these userboxes, feel free to use them! Credit is not needed but is very much appreciated!

- Lynix (They/them + feline/cat/felines/cats/felineself) & Phalen (They/it + wolf/dog/wolfs/dogs/wolfdogself) | idk if both are alters or if one is a kin currently

I'm gonna start calling ourself a system/plural, I don't know the exact origin yet, cause I don't know if I had "enough" trauma at the "right" time for it to be DID or OSDD or any other dissociative disorder. But it feels like we are a system/plural.

We will only really be doing this here, I am unsure if I am gonna tell anyone I know in real life for now. I might wait till I figure out our origin, and even then, it would only be a few people that I would tell.

This feels like the right words and terms for what we feel. I will just be using system and plural for us as terms until I figure out more, of course.

- Shirley (They/them + ix/ix/ixs/ixs/ixself) | feels like the right name rn

[Using both I/me and we/our]

For my next tattoo, I want to get wings on my back, lol.

My only tattoo I have currently is a paw print semicolon on my shoulder. If you know what the semicolon means, then you get it.

I would also love to get more nonhuman related tattoos as well, lol!

- Shay (They/it)

We don't talk about nearly enough about the possibilities on tattoos for alterhuman folks. I'm not just talking about someone tattooing the theta delta in your arm.

I'm talking about tattoos of paw beans in your hands, or an animals facial features in your face, whiskers in your cheeks. Like, even bits of fur outlines on your body and chest would. What would I'd like to have is two cuts printed in my back as if a pair of wings should emerge from it (probably couldn't, or shouldn't because I have like three giant scars that cross over my shoulders). Or, or, even the image of wings in your back, giant black wings.

Nonhumans with horns could tattoo themselves antlers in their forehead, mermaid or marine otherkins could have tattoos of gills in their neck. It would be so nice actually

Time for more bad memories from my life as Zuki. I have debated about posting this a few times but I think I need to, to get it off my chest or whatever you wanna say.

Tw/cw: (failed) suicide attempt, suicidal thoughts, self harm, death of a family member, grief, and abuse. Let me know if I missed any tw/cw.

There were times right after I turned 14 years old as Zuki (my aunt, who I looked up to so much, died on my 14th birthday so yeah) that I ended up going to the top of my middle school building [I couldn't fly at the time] and was debating jumping from it, I never did.

But a few days after my 14th birthday, all the grief and anger and shit I felt from my aunt's death (she was a hero, and she died fighting some villains) had gotten to be too much for me to deal with and I went to a part of the middle school that pretty much no one went to and pretty much everyone wouldn't have cared about me anyways.

Anyway, I went to the secluded place of the school and I had a knife in my backpack, I always carried it with me, not only because of self-harm tendencies but also because it was a gift from my aunt who died. I thought I was alone, cause who in their right mind would be in this part of that school? (Neither of us there were in our right mind, so I guess that answers that, lol).

Anyway, I took the knife and cut pretty deep on my arms and legs. I had put down something, I think it was my jacket, to try and make less of a mess with the blood cause I didn't wanna cause too much more trouble, lol. But someone who I didn't really know well (I kinda wish it stayed that way, but whatever) came and helped me to the nurse's room. If that nurse could have let me just die, she would've, but she didn't wanna get in trouble with my older sibling, lol.

Anyways, that nurse just did the bare minium, so I wouldn't die. I talked a bit with the girl who saved me. She seemed nice (seemed is the key word there). After the school day ended, it was like only an hour or so cause I did this during my free period, which was my last 'class' of the day. After the bell rang, I walked to a little medical building that [mainly] was for those with no quirks, hated quirks, etc. So because of this, it didn't have a mandatory reporting thing, which was good for me, cause I didn't want anyone else to know that I tried to kill myself and failed. But yeah, the lady who helped me then was very nice and I would continue to go there when I needed medical stuff.

The girl who saved me, about a week or so later, came up to me and said she liked me romantically. While I am (was?) cupioromantic, I didn't know that at the time, so I thought I liked her romantically as well, so I told her that and we started dating.

It was great at first, but after about 2 weeks or so of dating, she started to hurt me, while I did technically know this wasn't good, I had believed it had to be different here and that she was still good and everything (she wasn't, the abusive asshole).

Eventually, when I was like 15 and ½ years old or something like that, I realized I didn't feel romantic attraction at all and told my 'girlfriend' and broke up with her. It didn't go well.

She ended up stabbing me a few times, shit happened. Afterwards, I went to that same medical building I mentioned before and they helped me not die.

Eventually, I realized that my ex was probably only with me cause she wanted someone easy to hurt and shit. Idk just probably wasn't love from her end.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it) | I could go more into detail about probably all of this but I'm not gonna right now

Trick-or-treat ^v^

Hello!!!! Happy Halloween!!!!

Once again, using the alterhuman trick or treat thing here!

- Shay (They/it)

Meat (specifically steak) under the read more thing

Trick or treat!!!

Hello!!! Happy Halloween!!!

I don't know if this is supposed to be a normal trick or treating ask or an alterhuman trick or treating ask, so I'm just gonna go with the alterhuman one, lol.

Have a picture of some cat treats because of me being a cat!!

- Shay (They/it) :3c

trick or treat? :3

Hello!!!!! Happy Halloween!!!! It's the day before Halloween where I am right now, so I guess it should be happy early Halloween, lol!

Anyway, I decided to go with my canine kins [wolf, dog, and wolfdog, which feels like they're different and the same at the same time, so yeah, lol] treats for the alterhuman trick or treat thing!

Found this picture of some peanut butter dog treats the other day!!!! I absolutely love peanut butter!!!!!!

Have a great day!!! Hope your Halloween is fun!!!!

- Shay (They/it)

Misceverse stuff!!!

Shouldn't have any tw/cw this time, but let me know if I miss anything.

https://www.tumblr.com/misceverchive/759258743819091968/not-really-a-coining-question-so-i-hope-this-is?source=share (used the first link from this to figure out my identity btw)

Actual identity and stuff under the read more or whatever it says, lol. :3c

I am Tridynamic (Alpha, Beta, and Omega)

Typically referred to by myself and others as a Beta. I'll typically just say Beta when referring to my dynamic.

I have behaviors typical of Alphas and Omegas (as well as Betas, but the other two are brought up because of me being typically referred to as a Beta). Beta by itself might fit this description, but it doesn't feel 100% right. I can't explain it anymore than that currently.

Physically average (towards weaker side though), socially moderate, and a caree temperament. (PA SM TCE)

I'm not entirely sure of my scent, but anytime I really think of a scent for me, I think of fur, chocolate, and woods/forest (I hope this makes sense, lol).

I won't be talking about any nsfw stuff this time. Just know that my misce identity is not just nsfw. It is actually mainly sfw.

My behaviors are ofc based on canines (wolves and dogs mainly), cats, and some bird behavior (cause of being crow).

Some examples of behaviors I have are: nesting, purring, scenting (idk if this counts as a behavior but whatever), and other noises to do with the previously brought up behavior types.

I can't think of anything else to talk about here, so I guess that's it.

- Cyan Lupo (They/it) | cause this is mainly related to my RWBY kin

Tw/cw: blood, fangs, and claws, I guess.

- Shay (They/it) | more werecreature hours I guess

Blood From my Fangs and Claws

I feel the blood

Dripping from my

Fangs and claws

I see the blood

Dripping from my

Fangs and claws

I taste the blood

Dripping from my

Fangs and claws

I smell the blood

Dripping from my

Fangs and claws

I love the blood

Dripping from my

Fangs and claws

I miss the blood

Dripping from my

Fangs and claws

Tw/cw: blood, werecreatures, and vampires

JFJFJDKDKKKRKFKFK

Hate the times when I miss feeling and seeing blood on my paws, claws, and dripping from my fangs.

Like, please, I don't want to miss it, I probably shouldn't miss it.

I miss being a werecreature (more specifically a canine like werecreature), I miss feeling the rush of being in that form, I just miss it.

I don't know if I'm a vampire or not. Blood is just good and shit, idk, man. If I am, I miss it too.

- Shay (They/it) | werecreature hours I guess

Idk what number of poems I have posted this is.

Tw/cw: anger mention, none others I can think of, let me know if you find any more

- Shay (They/it) | using for not Zuki related tag (just for "me")

I Roll Over

I roll over

To show you

My belly

To make you

Realize that I

Mean no real harm

I roll over

To say

I'm sorry

To say

You're right

I'm wrong

I roll over

And hope that

Maybe just maybe

You won't leave

That you won't

Hate me

I roll over

Cause I'm

A bad dog

Cause I'm

Not right

I'm sorry

I roll over

Cause I want

Your love and attention

Cause I don't want

Your fear or anger

I'm sorry

Thanks for answering my ask!!

- Shay (They/it)

Hello again!! Could I please have 2 more userboxes?

The 1st one:

Icon: (feel free to crop the pic)

Text Vibe (as I'm not entirely sure what exactly I want it to say): This pup age regresses

Font: Any is fine

Theme: Like the background of the icon, please (also, maybe a bit more of an agere theme if at all possible)

Text box color: Cyan or teal, please

Stickers: You choose whether to put any or not

The 2nd one:

Icon: (feel free to crop the pic)

Text Vibe (as I'm not entirely sure what exactly I want it to say): This kitten age regresses

Font: Any is fine

Theme: Same as the 1st userbox please

Text box color: Cyan or teal please

Stickers: You choose whether to add stickers or not

Thanks!!

- Shay (They/it)

here you go, I hope you enjoy! aww omg these are so cute, I love them!!!

Thanks for answering my ask!!!

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it)

Can I have 2 userboxes, please?

For the first one:

Icon: (picture can be cropped)

Text: This canine is disabled and tries their best

Font: Any font is fine

Theme: Forest/woods please

Text box color: Some kind of cyan or teal, please, preferably a darker shade if possible

Stickers: I don't care either way

For the second one:

Icon: (picture can be cropped)

Text: This cat is disabled and tries their best

Font: Any font

Theme: Forest/woods please

Text box color: Some kind of cyan or teal, preferably a darker shade, please

Stickers: I don't care either way

Thanks! :3c

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it)

here you go, I hope you enjoy! wow, there’s been a lot of userbox requests as of late—I’m not complaining though ^^

6th poem to post.

Tw/cw: fighting dog mentions, trauma (hinted at), abuse (hinted at), and aggressive dog mentions.

Trained Fighting Dog

I'm a fighting dog.

That's what I was

Made and trained for.

But you lie and say

"We did our best

To give her a

Good life and love."

You act innocent

When you are the

Ones who made me

Like this, a monster.

Yet somehow you

Make it out to be

Me who is the problem.

I'm a fighting dog.

Made and trained to be.

I do what you say

I do what you make me.

I am aggressive cause

Of what you did

I wish I wasn't.

Haha. I'm not even human, so checkmate to the people who say that. (The ones who say "love is what makes us human," I mean, lol)

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it)

"love is what makes us human" actually it's 'select all images with boat' but go off I guess

5th poem to post. Another dog & wolf related poem, lol. A lot of my poems are canine related cause of me being a canine kin [specifically wolfdog kin].

Tw/cw: biting mention, abuse hinted at(?), and I think that's all. Let me know if you find any tw/cw I didn't add that I need to.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it/xe) [trying something new with my sign off thing on my poem posts]

Roll Over/Growl

I think that

I should roll over

And whine sorry

Over and over again

But instead I growl

I bare my teeth

And snap at you

I bite and growl

I should roll over

I should say sorry

I should be a good dog

A good wolf

But I'm not

I growl and bite

I'm a bad dog

A bad wolf

I should roll over

I growl and snap

I should whine sorry

I bare my teeth and bite

I'm sorry I'm not good

I bite even when

You try to help me

For I'm scared

I'm sorry I'm bad

I growl even when

You're kind for I don't

Know when you'll stop