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I will never be sorry for hating gay Boris/bi Theo.

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And isn’t the whole point of things—beautiful things—that they connect you to some larger beauty? Those first images that crack your heart wide open and you spend the rest of your life chasing, or trying to recapture, in one way or another?

( DONNA TARTT )

there’s actually nothing sweet or nice about being an extremely sentimental person. feeling wistful and romantic about everything is also a great way to be let down by…….. everything

reaching the point of hyperfixation where I can no longer engage with it due to the nausea that I experience at the mere thought of seeing it on my screen is the closest I’ve ever been to being diagnosed with female hysteria

queerbaiting is good because the yearning is always better than the having

not normie enough to fit in but not fringe enough to lean into being a freak, worst of both worlds, pure liminality, just the weird coworker, and unrelatable classmate. and your mutual

My pretentious opinion is that I prefer adult boreo and I think that Las Vegas boreo enjoyers are weak. Everyone can get behind angsty gay teenagers but it takes a real one to enjoy those full grown assholes with literal girlfriends and unresolved tension that has been built up for like a decade. They reek with doom and toxicity and they still would sacrifice their lives for each other. And there's definitely some resentment built up there they really need to talk about BUT THEY WONT.

"The Goldfinch reference!" I scream as they drag me to the asylum

I love thinking about the goldfinch's religious symbolism

Theo's name meaning "God's gift"

Boris introducing Theo as "Fyodor" to people the night they meet again, name which means the same thing

Still, Boris rarely uses the name Theo, preferring nicknames instead

The Goldfinch being wrapped by Theo like "a Christmas present"

The Goldfinch returning on Christmas

The Goldfinch being described as something "immortal" as long there were people that loved it

Boris converting to different religions solely because of people

Like Islam because the people were nice to him

When he tattooed David's star because he wanted to work for a Jewish man

When he loves Dostoyevsky's philosophy on orthodoxy

at the same time, he can't manage to be a good man or follow through with any of them

like when he starts drinking and leaves Islam because of that

the purpose of friends is to have people who unconditionally hate your shitty exes & relatives. like maybe YOU have a complex relationship with your father but i sure don't. i'm outside his house with a gun. he's not the unforgivable asshole who raised me he's just an unforgivable asshole

free museum trips are wasted on unappreciative middle schoolers. let me go

thinking about this again someone stop me

mom can you come pick me up. they’re on stranger things twitter saying lesbian bylers are psychopaths, a different species, and misogynistic for not shipping mileven

putting Theo in my Byler Pinterest pins intead of the Boreo one be like: "Oups! Wrong gays!!"

I need to interact with something about The Goldfinch once an hour while I’m around my family for the next 3 days or I will lose my mind I fear

thanks for being nice to me. in return i will die for you and never leave your side and go grocery shopping with you.

I think if Vecna went inside Mike’s head he would be too overwhelmed by his self-hatred, anxiety and PTSD that he would acquire human feelings and stop being a villain and that might be how they win.

Theo and Pippa tumblr bloggers, one in secret the other sooooo so open and proud.

"I got 360 notes on my last post Theo!"

"oh wow that's so awesome!!" *got 1869 notes on his last post but can't let anyone know what the post was about or that he regularly uses tumblr*

i don’t have anyone out here. nobody. nada.

If you are a marauders fan/ you support or are in the queer community then do Not watch the upcoming Harry Potter show! Do not support it! Do not interact with posts in support of it! We do not need anymore content from jkr! Buy the books second hand! Don’t buy official merch! Stop giving your money to her! Stop being transphobic!

Edit: I have a reply in the reblogs to those mentioning to pirate the show

Something that I've been thinking about lately: the difference in how Theo talks about Pippa compared to how he talks about Boris in his adult years.

Theo talks about Pippa like she's perfect, or at least the perfect one for him. He's convinced that she is the one he is meant to be with, the only one who could understand him. But the way he talks about her doesn't come off as love, but as an obsession instead. I'm not saying that he doesn't have any genuine love/affection towards her, I'm sure he does, but he has definitely romanticized her existence to the point that the person he thinks he's in love with is completely different than the real one. He barely knows the real Pippa because getting to know her would mean that his fantasy would dissappear. So he ignores all those things that don't match his ideal version of Pippa and talks about her like she's perfect. Her imperfections, if he mentions any, are endearing. But, still; somehow most of the times where he tries to compliment her end up sounding weird (Unexpected glimpse of her white armpits). He can't say anything about her that isn't superficial because he doesn't see her as real person but as his walking fantasy.

Meanwhile, Theo seems to want to reminds us (and himself) everything bad about Boris. He is quick to point out his faults, even when he says something nice about him or expresses his feelings about him. And surely, Boris does have a lot of faults, but it's weird how often Theo talks about them unprovoked. Like he wants to make sure everything else he says about him doesn't sound too gay. He focuses on the negatives because he is afraid of his feelings. He isn't ready to admit that despite his faults (which were numerous and spectacular), he still loves him. He likes to point out all the ways that Boris is different than him, almost like he's trying to convince himself that they belong in different worlds, like they could never work out, despite it being quite obvious that the two of them aren't very different where it counts. Regardless of these habits of his, Boris is real to him. Perhaps the problem is that Boris presence is his life forces him to acknowledge his real self too. (A self one does not want, a heart one cannot help.)

In conclusion, despite Theo's best efforts to convince himself that he's totally straight and in love with Pippa, I think it's quite obvious to everyone with enough reading compensation skills that the one he loves is Boris. He can talk shit about him and put Pippa on a pedestal all he wants; but the truth can't be hidden. Donna Tarrt told me this personally btw, don't doubt me.

me crying while listening to radiohead: oh my god theo decker coded

We looked at each other. And it occurred to me that despite his faults, which were numerous and spectacular, the reason I’d liked Boris and felt happy around him from almost the moment I’d met him was that he was never afraid.

donna tartt - “the goldfinch” (2013) // some kid - yik yak (2021)

boris: [putting out cigarette in the ash tray, hasn’t showered in 2 weeks, vomit on his shirt, black out drunk, calling popchyk slurs]

theo: the way boris leaned over, collarbones creating dark pools at the base of his neck. his nose a strong aquiline with the barest suggestion of having been broken like some ancient bronze statue of a greek boxer. he seemed to me like a divine being who had come to earth only by mistake, perhaps as a punishment for some heavenly crime or another. anyways, I tried writing a letter to pippa the other day but had nothing to say so I gave up.

cab driver from the goldfinch is like your dog looks gnc af

people literally make it their job to tell me the goldfinch is boring. GIRL I KNOW ITS BORING…… im talking about the goldfinch me and the besties made up on tumblr

[…] something we both knew well enough without me saying it out loud to him…

theres not much i can do but i can carry the umbrella. theres not much i can do but i can listen. theres not much i can do but i can steal you a bag of chips, some cough syrup when youre sick. theres not much i can do but i can put on some music. theres not much i can do but i can teach you a few phrases. theres not much i can do but i can put this dog on your chest and remind you that youre here and not there. theres not much i can do but i can hold you. theres not much i can do but i can kiss you goodbye. theres not much i can do but we can drive around for a while. theres not much i can do but i can walk back into your life after years and years apart and solve the biggest problem in your life