Latest Posts by thelostgoldfinch - Page 5
boris pavlikovsky be like is anyone going to talk this tiny prep boy out of his haze of self-loathing and tenderly hold him through the night & then not wait for an answer
theo decker is like "i will only pursue romantic relationships that are doomed to fail. the only two women i love are shallow projections of my own trauma, and cannot love me back. i will self-sabotage by entering loveless relationships with emotionally distant women. the last time i felt true love for another person was with my childhood best friend. i am a heterosexual."
just googled my symptoms and it turns out it was boris i missed, the whole impulsive mess of him: gloomy, reckless, hot-tempered, appallingly thoughtless. boris pale and pasty, with his shoplifted apples and his russian-language novels, gnawed-down fingernails and shoelaces dragging in the dust. boris - budding alcoholic, fluent curser in four languages - who snatched food from my plate when he felt like it and nodded off drunk on the floor, face red like he’d been slapped.
mrs barbour: what have u been up to :’)
theos mind: [dont say getting addicted to opioids dont say getting addicted to opioids]
theo: dealing antiques :-)
Um…those who do not move cannot feel their chains tbh….
Goldfinch on Donna Tartt's The Goldfinch
i want more nuance to be entered into the discussion of the green girl sorority and how differently cynthia plays elphaba in comparison to those who came before her because while a lot of people are rightfully like "why was elphaba not black from the beginning" and celebrating that she is now being played by a black woman, i think we need to be careful in just writing off all the elphabas of the past as Random White Girls when the role was championed (and often followed/succeeded) by a jewish woman
the pop culture archetype of the Wicked Witch has deep roots in antisemitism stretching faaaar far back. there is a level of reclamation happening in casting idina menzel, a jewish woman, to play the Misunderstood and Maligned young girl who is branded as exactly that. and stage!Elphaba is also written and acted with jewish stereotypes in mind--she is loud, aggressive, no-nonsense, blunt. she is quick to advocate for herself and shut down the discrimination she faces. all of this is very intentional! her personality is abrasive from years of abuse, and that makes propagandizing her easy. this is literally the thesis statement of the musical--it's not about aptitude, it's the way you're viewed.
cynthia's performance of elphaba is fucking INSPIRED despite going in a completely different direction. she's much more reserved, analytical, one of her key character traits is how well she can read people (see her calling out Galinda as insecure/putting on airs in their first scene together, clocking that Fiyero is using his party guy persona as a shield for his own depression) elphaba's attempts to blend in and make herself smaller all fail simply because of her existence, if not that then because she feels empathy so strongly she often struggles to hold back from acting, protecting.
personality wise, though, cynthia's elphaba is very quiet and closed-off, not at all the bullet-to-the-face that she is in the stage show, and... she still gets propagandized and maligned. though this seems to contradict the other interpretation, it tells of the other end of the spectrum of propaganda, one that black women watching (and many, MANY other marginalized folks) are sure to identify with--it does not matter how "nice," how reserved, how small a black woman makes herself. a racist society will still scrutinize her every action for a way to parse ill intent from it, brand her as an angry black woman who is dangerous and wicked, and write off any humanity she has in the process.
these two very different interpretations tell of the lie of assimilation. the fact of the matter is, when you are marginalized, there is no way to sand down your edges enough to make the people oppressing you "accept" you. that is why wicked is a tragedy at its core. whether loud and aggressive or quiet and unimposing, there is nothing elphaba could have done to make the people of Oz see her as anything other than a scapegoat to blame all their problems on.
so while i definitely appreciate that people are excited for black girl era elphaba, i would encourage us all to still show appreciation for what came before--that was not white girl era elphaba. that was jewish girl era elphaba. two houses, both alike in dignity, two stories both worth being told.
There's a wicked production somewhere where Elphaba kisses Glinda on the cheek sometime in act 2... And because I can't find it anymore I sketched it 🥹
december will make you go insane if the passage of time is something that scares you
First time I’ve been tagged in something like this! Thanks!
1. I Felt a Funeral, in my Brain - Andrew Bird ft. Phoebe Bridgers
2. Like a Villain - Bad Omens
3. Damn! - Rex Laurent
4. My Body is a Cage - Arcade Fire
5. TEARS! - 5sos
Tagged: @donatart
Just for fun! I just tagged my one mutual who hasn’t done this
list 5 songs you like ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ
ty for the tag @fear-is-truth :p
clay pigeons ۶ৎ Micheal Cera
spvtw ruined a generation of women ۶ৎ negative XP
pepper ۶ৎ butthole surfers
tuesday ۶ৎ Evan peters
why do I cry ۶ৎ Margo Guryan
no pressure - @bl0odguy @lisboncy @lostreverb @lonelygworl @casimirsstache @slut4evanpeters @vrtualvr @vi0l3tluvsu or anyone that just wants to do it :3
I wish someone loved me as much as Theo loved that fucking painting
donna tartt really said "being queer is like having something very precious and very rare and beautiful and life giving and the only real thing in a world of lies but you HAVE to keep hidden and a secret because it is a crime/morally wrong to have it/the world will fall apart beneath my feet if people find out/it will harm people I love if it comes to light/it is MINE and no one else's" and you expect me to be normal about her
Cat silhouette.
— Mary Kate Teske
can someone invent a type of letting go that actually feels good instead of feeling like your soul is getting ripped out via large intestine
Joy Sullivan, from Instructions for Traveling West: Poems; “Howl”
& you know what it actually IS lifechanging to smile at strangers & say please & thank you & goodmorning & compliment someones outfit & help someone in need & be more accepting of loving other people just because they are other people!!!
Joan Didion, The Year of Magical Thinking
I AM BANGING MY HEAD AGAINST THE BARS OF MY ENCLOSURE
I could also have used mike for this one btw
it's your lucky day. nothing you had that left is coming back
It's the first of December.... only 24 sleeps til the Amsterdam Ordeal 🥰🥰💖🎄
Popping in to remind yall that the Goldfinch is a christmas movie
I love that they have their subgenres of nerd. Like Will is the only one of them who knows morse code but Dustin knows more D&D lore off the top of his head like the details of shadow walking while Lucas is better with like aerodynamics (you can't tell me he's not being nerdy about those wristrocket angles) and like battle prep with all the random stuff in his bag and Mike's the one who says shit like "blasphemous" and "conspiring" in casual conversation.