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what I eat in a day 26
-1400
breakfast:
+460kcal, crepes at bfs
-100kcal exercise
+178kcal, 3g cheddar rice cakes on a walk
+150kcal McDonald's fries (my bfs brother is a menace)
i was EXHAUSTED and fell asleep, and I'm not gonna eat at 4am so I guess see you next day around 10 ¯\_( ಥ ‿ ಥ )_/¯
end: -712kcal, 3g protein (probably more but idk how much was in the crepes and I'm not counting Nutella protein)
what I eat in a day 25
-1400
-60kcal exercise
breakfast:
+502kcal, 30g
+150kcal of random shit because I was snacking while cooking for bf again
+37kcal chocolate
+50kcal, 4g cauliflower
dinner:
+423kcal, 27g lasagne, same as yesterday
-25kcal workout
+113kcal chocolate
end: -210kcal, 61g protein
ive always been pro recovery, even at my worst, but I can't apply the logic to myself. I wanna up my goal weight, cause I realised I actually looked good at a few numbers higher too, but I was definitely healthier and I feel less valid? like if I up the number it's like I gave up and lost, and am still a fat pig.
ffs Id still have a six pack and a thigh gap, isn't that what I wanted from the beginning? why does that number matter so much?
what I eat in a day 24
-1400
-70kcal exercise
dinner:
67g onion (28kcal)
3 cloves garlic (13kcal)
400g ground chicken (948kcal, 109g)
264g carrot (108kcal, 3g)
300g spinach (57kcal, 7g)
500g passata (135kcal, 8g)
125g mozarella (292kcal, 21g)
195g pasta (684kcal, 24g)
36g butter (268kcal)
40g flour (146kcal, 4g)
170g milk (85kcal, 5g)
95g cheese (345kcal, 22g)
2194g / 3109kcal / 203g protein
100g / 141kcal / 9g protein
I ate 285g
+401kcal, 26g protein
+37kcal chocolate
-100kcal exercise
+830kcal for these, 1 is bought, 1 was made by me (clearly)
-100kcal exercise
+200kcal, 7g lil pizza
end: -202kcal, 33g protein
I feel like u can so clearly tell when my bf comes over by the food lol
what I eat in a day 23
-1400
breakfast:
+141kcal, 17g protein mousse
+60kcal lollipop, energy drink on a looong walk
+200kcal maybe? friend showed some bites of pretzel in my mouth
-120kcal exercise
dinner:
314g the same rice as yesterday
+471kcal, 31g
+100kcal wine (I was cooking roast beef for my bf and his family and drank the gravy ingredient...)
-120kcal exercise
i feel like I was snacking when cooking and like taking sips of milk and stuff so I'm just gonna add like
+70kcal
end: -598kcal, 48g protein
me when the diet is actually working
what I eat in a day 22
-1400
breakfast:
+220kcal, 19g protein eggs
+46kcal chocolate
dinner:
200g rice (718kcal, 16g)
60g onion (25kcal)
170g paprica (44kcal, 2g)
240g chicken (290kcal, 57g) (added kcals because it's marinated)
2 cloves garlic (10kcal)
104g spinach (20kcal, 2g)
75g mozarella (175kcal, 13g)
850g, 1282kcal, 90g protein
100g / 150kcal, 10g protein
I ate 300g
+450kcal, 30g
supper:
+150kcal, 3g maybe? little pancakes my mum made
+94kcal apple
+197kcal chocolate
green tea
end: -243kcal, 52g protein
what I eat in a day 21
-1400
breakfast:
+150kcal, 20g protein pudding
+100kcal apple and energy drink on a
-180kcal walk
dinner:
+516kcal, 30g (I'm unsure with the protein cause I lost my calculations, the kcals saved in my calc at least thank god)
my tip is to water down sauces, it makes it harder to track kcals but you can estimate, it really changes A LOT.
end: -814kcal, ~50g protein
served today
breathing heavily makes me feel so fat, especially in public. I swear it's anxiety, I'm not struggling that much...
(and then you breathe even heavier because you worry about the breathing and it's a cycle...)
yeah so turns out you can't control eds, I just wanted to have a calorie deficit but starving makes me feel so good now. I'm not gonna let myself relapse, I'm still going to eat because I don't wanna completely lose it but oh it's so back.
what I eat in a day 20
-1400
the agenda for today is to fast until my bf comes home as he wanted McDonald's, I'm gonna take what I usually take but I need free kcals to eat it obv
-180kcal treadmill BUT THE POWER WENT OUT I don't wanna do this no more
-50kcal exercise
+42kcal caprisun
-40kcal walk
dinner:
+873kcal, 55g protein nuggets
+324kcal sauces
-80kcal workout
we ate at 7pm btw, technically a 20h fast
+155kcal chocolate and tea
end: -356kcal, 55g protein
based on my wardrobe, my size is somewhere between kids 152 and men's XXXL, your pick what it really is ┐( ∵ )┌
what I eat in a day 19
-1400
-50kcal exercise
breakfast:
+150kcal, 20g protein pudding
+150kcal, 13g eggs
bf yelled at me to eat sugar because I was actually not braining at all today and felt really weird
+132kcal kinder country
(I did feel better after.........)
dinner:
-50kcal exercise
+220kcal, 23g protein chickens
+69kcal, 5g cauliflower
+50kcal sauce
+16kcal sugar for tea
+142kcal, 7g chips
+155kcal chocolate and tea
end: -416kcal, 68g protein
when making cauliflower, I cut off the little stems cause they're mid and it makes it less g so less kcals, but I still cook the stems to give them to my cats. fuckers love that shit but only cooked, good for them fellas
what I eat in a day 18
-1400
+218kcal ate ice cream on a walkie
+20kcal almost black coffee
ofc lots of tea all day
+250kcal, 13g protein nuggets
+711kcal, 13g protein fries
+150kcal sauce
end: -51kcal, 26g protein
so idk how that is still in deficit, I didn't take a pic of the plate, cause that was huge and embarrassing, but wow, barely fit but it somehow did lol
I mean I didn't eat almost the entire day and walked (I didn't count the walking kcals, they're lil silent helpers) for no reason
guys there is an awesome drink, it has like 2kcal per 100ml and it's so sweet, heavenly truly. it's like icetea or smth similar, it's in Lidl!!
what I eat in a day 17
-1400
breakfast:
+150kcal, 20g protein pudding
-100kcal workout
+200kcal cinnamon bun
dinner:
slightly unsure what this is, got it at bfs, didn't plate it myself
+700kcal, 15g protein maybe?
+20kcal almost black coffee
-130kcal workout
50 cups of tea
end: -560kcal, 35g protein
that protein intake is ass but that's fine ig
hiii hope this is okay to ask. I really like your blog because I have a similar experience (accidental recovery? Lol sort of) in that my goal is just controlled weight loss atp. I wanted to ask how you stop your stomach growling all the time and everyone noticing? I know it slows down after a while but that hasn't happened yet and people keep buying me food I have to refuse and giving me looks.
yes ofc it is!
my mum doesn't check up on me so she wouldn't know. my bf knows about the weight loss and is supportive of it (to a certain weight). I don't really spend time with anyone else. also my tummy doesn't rumble often? idk why, it's never been a rumbler, even back when I starved.
as for tips:
whenever it did decide to rumble tho, if I ate something small in the morning and then nothing it would rumble. so I guess if you're doing OMAD do the meal later in the day? like a dinner time meal, not breakfast.
also water and drinks, warm is better. they kinda fill up your stomach and you just sound like a water bottle instead lol
eating veggies is great cause they also fill you up, but are low in kcals.
and as for buying you things, I just refuse or give them to my bf. I recently got sweets for my bday and I just put them in my cupboard for a day where I have a big enough deficit, or when I'm satisfied with the weight. it works if they don't expect u to eat it right then and there.
you can try avoiding tensing your abs around people, cause sometimes my stomach rumbles even when it's full if I flex. idk why, seems random to me but u can check if it's the same for u lol
hope this helps!
bfs brother again, I asked my bf how many kcal smth had and the brother said "a shit ton, eat it, you're gonna be so fat".
I actually feel unwell and I think I should eat smth, but bro is successfully leading me away from it ToT
my bfs brother is a great motivation. he brought mcflurry for all of us and I said no I can't have that. he asked why so I said that I'm fat and can't. he said I'm crazy but that I should definitely eat so I do get fat so that he could laugh at me lol
what I eat in a day 16
-1400
-150kcal workout
+200kcal cinnamon bun (I literally ate 1, cinnamons are my fav desserts, it's so unfair)
-110kcal treadmill walk
dinner:
technically I used 800g of turkey but I had to cut off the bloody and fatty bits and I gave some scraps to my cats so idk how much it actually is, I'll count it from the portion...
+130kcal, 11g protein cauliflower with nutritional yeast
+400kcal, 51g protein marinated turkey
+120kcal sauce
-60kcal workout
well I was gonna eat a kinder country but I got fucking sad so I didn't
green tea
end: -870kcal, 62g protein
I did so well, yay!
(if u saw me correct the count 50 times, no u didn't, I had trouble counting today even with a calculator idk why ToT)
what I eat in a day 15
-1400
-240kcal treadmill jog/walk
breakfast:
+160kcal, 20g protein pudding
+40kcal beer 0% (my bfs dad gave me..)
+60kcal, 7g protein cauliflower
-140kcal workout
+170kcal, 11g protein bar
I am so hungry omg, we went for such a long walk and also jogged to warm up cause it was cold af, dinner pls I need
dinner:
+583kcal, 31g protein tortilla again
+486kcal, 11g protein hot dogs
+150kcal sauce
end: -131kcal, 80g
the whole day my bf was like don't worry about food omg it's not that much come on. CLEARLY IT IS!! I'm only 131 in deficit but I've worked out so much. this is stupid. idk maybe if I counted the walk outside but I made a rule not to do that. stupid stupid stupid!!
what I eat in a day 14
-1400
-250kcal treadmill jog/walk
breakfast:
+144kcal, 20g protein pudding
+120kcal wafers and green tea
+42kcal Capri sun I drank on a walk cause I was really craving chips for later so I walked to get em
dinner:
+702kcal, 32g protein
tortilla from yesterday
+263kcal, 4g of the chips
-75kcal mini workout
+50kcal borsch
end: -404kcal, 56g protein
the urge to post body checks but the fear and disgust of old wanker pervs looking at them. it's for the girls and the gays, leave!!!!! ToT
what I eat in a day 12
-1400
-215kcal treadmill jog/walk
breakfast:
60g flour (218kcal, 6g)
1 egg (68kcal, 6g)
80g milk (48kcal, 3g)
with protein (180kcal, 20g) pudding instead of nutella
I made a lot of thin ones over less thicker ones to feel like I ate more
+494kcal, 35g protein
green tea
snack
+100kcal, 4g cauliflower and borsch
dinner:
344g I still have that lasagne lmao
+494kcal, 27g
green tea
+50kcal instant noodles
green tea
end: -477kcal, 66g protein
high time we start considering crying a 1000kcal workout
lowk fasting easier than omad. once you wake up the hunger cues it's so hard to make them shut up again.
what I eat in a day 6
-1400
+15kcal energy drink on a walk
-160kcal on the treadmill
I'm skipping breakfast cause I've slept for a long time, then I was busy and now that I have free time, my bf will be here in an hour so I'll just wait for him to have dinner with :3
dinner:
80g chicken (from yesterday) (132kcal, 25g protein)
(+additional 60g of chicken (66kcal, 14g protein) that I stole from a meal I cooked for my bf)
50g rice (180kcal, 4g protein)
200g cauliflower (46kcal, 3g protein)
50kcal sauce
+474kcal and 46g of protein
+60 cause me and my bf snacked on the leftovers instead of leaving them alone..
-100 workout
went out with my best friend, did 12k steps in like 1.5h wth ToT, but I ate and drank, had ice cream and a juice so
+288kcal for both and we don't count the walk since it was recreational, not workout
+150kcal and 20g of protein pudding
+185kcal chocolate
green tea
end: -488kcal and 66g of protein
I'm gonna assume most people listen to music on the treadmill but have y'all tried singing while looking at the lyrics? obv gonna be hard to sing when you're sprinting but even lipsyncing omg, the time literally passed SO FAST, it's a magic trick!!
yall also forget time exists when playing the Sims? fasting life hack, turn on the Sims at 10am and suddenly 24h will have passed!