F4st1ng - Blog Posts
Broke my fast at 75 hours and 52 minutes
I've lost 1.8kg/4lbs and I had a small meal to break my fast under 500 Cal's. And started another fast for consistency.
Convincing myself I'm not fasting so I don't binge. I don't feel hungry. Therefore I am not hungry. I won't ruin this.
Also took 2000 steps today
When you feel faint during a fast and you smile instead of panicking. 😭
🧍🏽♀️okay but like do I need a spark when being skinny will have me sparkling?
i might lose my spark but i'm thinner and that's all that matters
"Why are you starving yourself?"
God forbid I put myself first and try to better myself.🙄
Accidentally fasting has to be the best things ever. Like I don't need food. It's obvious I eat because I'm bored not hungry. I need to do better.
Crying and wondering why my mom picks my toxic dad over me. ):
I've been at my sister's place unable to track any progress since she doesn't have a scale, I've been in a binge cycle to say I'm ashamed is an understatement. Knowing I gained back the little I lost. Why can't I just stay consistent for once.
Might see a psychiatrist today. The day someone finally tells me what's wrong with me. I should be happy...a diagnosis is validation that it's not all in my head.
But how can I be perfect if there's something wrong with me): if there's an imperfection. A flawi can't reverse.
"I wouldn't think someone...like you could have an eating disorder."
- My reasons all the way up to 13. 😮💨✋🏽
Cravings are your haters praying you get fatter. Probe them wrong!!!
"why are you starving?"
God forbid I make my childhood dreams come true 🙄
"please eat for me?"🥺
bruh just say you hate me and move on.
I had a doctor's visit and I was late and had to run- just feeling my fat shake,the heavy breathing,the closed chest,every step had a weight to it. And that is when I realised I was basically a whale. The mere thought of knowing people were watching made it worse,they could see what I felt. I am utterly disgusting.i need to lock in.
Me- I'd do anything to be skinny
My brain- Anything but stop eating.
May the month of May bring us nothing but weight loss and clear skin. 🙏🏽
And in my state of panic suddenly I couldn't stop thinking of the numbers going down,only then did my mind calm down. At the sight of progress.
People- why are you starving??
🙏🏽god forbid a girl save money and food in this economy.
My skin finally clearing up mid starving.✨Slayyyy✨
Sorry for my absence my life has been crying over my ex and doctors visits. 😭 Why'd I get diagnosed with bipolar on a random Wednesday morning. Fuck this shit.
Maybe if I was Skinner he would have loved me more.
The worst feeling is starving for days and still not losing anything - like I'm fucking trying work with me here!!!😭
My face when my dad decides to body shame me on a random day unprompted. 😭