Conditioning - Blog Posts
I just love the idea of a man being so, so dedicated to serving their dom(me) that they throw awah their pride. Yeah, kneel down in front of them and press your nose into their balls or folds and just hold it there, letting their precum or juices leak down the back of your neck or chin.
Hypno is so perfect for that. Ughhhh so good
Acondicionamiento-
50 x 35 cm.
Acuarela sobre papel.
2017
Todays Mini Workout
My knee is messed up so even with it wrapped I can’t do too much :( But I’ve been doing a super simple daily work out (plank, side plank, superman hold and hollow hold) and today I added on to it, making it a full workout considering the modifications I had to make for my leg!
This might be helpful to people trying to work out with a leg injury, it’s really easily modified!
I have successfully conditioned myself to think of MDZS whenever I hear “When You Come Home” by Mree.
Thank you, @obeymissmaddy, for being so kind, gracing us sissies with your voice 🥰🥰🥰
I am so happy to have the opportunity to serve you, Miss Maddy. Your dominant energy makes me feel like a femine sissy bitch. I can't wait to further serve you and be a good sissy slut for you 💕🩷💕
Hey there my simpy little slaves. I'm Miss Maddy aka your Queen and welcome to your true calling. Serving me. I'm a findom/ hypnodomme although I like playing around in infinite different ways. Obeying and serving mommy are your only true desires now, my adorable lil subby.
Go put in earphones and listen to my pinned intro recording above to get to truly know what I'm about and what serving me is like. You are about to enter a whole new world darling. You were always going to to fully submit to me. This was always going to happen. Welcome home.
Click on ''Keep reading'' to truly submit to me, my adorable little slave. Some more fun is waiting for you down there. It's time to truly submit to mommy. You may message me after you have listened to all of em & when you have read everything below. I'll help you be the best slave you could possibly ever be for me, my adorable lil toy. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁
Oh what's that? You physically and mentally couldnt keep yourself from pressing the ''Keep reading'' button for mommy. Good little subby. That's what I thought. I love how weak you are for me already. You are fully mine now, darling. Fully mine, my permanently owned little slave/bitch. Now and forever. You may listen to the above extra verification recording above before you continue reading, oh, and I've got another extra extra verification recording you can listen to by clicking right here, little sub. I do some silly little extra things in that one, lol & something you are honestly unworthy of hearing, actually.
Welcome home darling. Welcome to your true calling. You exist to serve me. You exist to please me and to honor me. It's that simple, my adorable brand new little subby. This is where you truly belong.
No matter who you are and no matter where you're from, you are welcome to serve. Idc if you're a guy a gal a sissy a cuck, a pupsub, femboy or mascgirl etc. You read that correctly darling. I'm adding that as I keep getting asked by all kinds of little toys if I'll take them under my wing. Yes darling. You are welcome to serve your superior Queen.
Some of the fun things that are ahead of you, my lil subby:
★ Being dominated by me in every single way imaginable. I'll mold you and train you into exactly what I desire you to be be, my tiny lil slave.
★ Findom and human ATM training. I'll hypnotize you and make you fully realize the reason that you exist. The actual reason that you exist.
★ Something you won't ever be able to comprehend that you'll very soon experience for yourself. How exciting. Welcome to forever, slave.
Some other things I loooooove to do: Putting my subs and slaves in permanent mental chastity. Denying them. Cucking them. Harsh mental domination. Putting my subs in their place. Bullying my subs. Making them/you realize that your only rightful place in the world is at my feet. Sending. Serving. Draining. Obeying. Mindfucking them/you until all they can think and dream of is me. Truly train them to only ever feel their body and mind respond when they think of me or are talking to me. Fully mentally and physically owning you in every way imaginable and then some is one of my absolute favorites, my adorable little slave. You've experienced nothing until you've experienced being my perma owned slave, my mindfucked lil toy. I'll make you feel all warm and fuzzy for me, and at other times, I'll use your own desires against you to fuck your mind harder than it's ever been fucked before. You'll wish you had found me sooner, darling. ✧˖°.
I respond to DMs personally. I'll encourage you to spiral for me and send and drain as much as you possibly can straight into my bank account no matter how big or small your pockets are, my sweet toy.
I've got subs who send me over $10k monthly, and subs who send me about $100 a month, and many who send me something in between. No matter how big or small your pockets are, you are welcome to serve me, my good little slave. You are welcome to honor and adore me like the slave that you are. Serving me, sending to me and listening to my voice on loop is now your fav thing. Hearing my voice again and again is now your only desire. Earning your next hypno and draining your wallet for me are now your only desires, my adorable little slave.
Oh, and all my content is faceless. I'm a faceless domme/caption domina. You aren't worthy of seeing my gorgeous face and perfect body, but I'll gladly put you in your place by captioning pics of women that you will never be worthy of either. How fun, hahahah. I may share something once I think you have truly proven yourself to me, maybe I won't. Maybe I'll deny you, but you won't even receive a censored pic of my socks until I think you deserve it. Denying my subs like that is honestly one of my favorites. I love the true, raw and genuine power dynamic it creates, and how deeply it mindfucks all of my little slaves.
Molding you and owning you completely with just the power of my voice is one of my actual favorites, and so incredibly easy too. Making you realize you don't deserve to even see a pic of my censored socks is so wildy funny to me. Denying you the privilege of seeing my gorgeous face and perfect body is one of my favorites ways to train, rewire, condition & let you know who's boss, my tiny toys/slaves. . ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁
To begin serving me/your journey of being my permanently owned and hypnotized slave, simply DM me: ''I wish to serve Miss Maddy.'' and I'll guide you one step at a time. Once you've done so I'll allow you to send me your initial $100 tribute and if you can't afford that you may give me a number between $20 and $100 instead. Obviously DMing me the exact phrase ''I wish to serve Miss Maddy.'' to begin our dynamic will make the best first impression, slave. Once you've done so, we'll begin your training protocol and you'll get to earn your very first hypnosis recordings from me. You'll finally get to actually serve me. Your one and only rightful owner. Welcome to forever, my little sub. You are about to go on a journey that has always been waiting for you. You DMing me that lil phrase was always going to happen. See you in my DM's in 1 second, my adorable little slave.
FAQ / Frequently Asked Questions
What kinks do you cater to?
I don't ''cater'' to kinks. You exist to cater to me. My desire? Your tributes. Your submission. Your cash and total devotion to me and me alone. You'll hand over everything you have to me and you'll thank me for the privilege. You'll be begging to send me more and more, until you are fully drained dry for your Queen. Your only desires are to send and go deeper and deeper for me, slave. The more you beg me to take you deeper, the cuter I'll think you are. Hahah. I like you desperate, needy, and completely mindfucked.
That being said, I might entertain your kinks and desires if I think you deserve it, my suggestible and mindfucked little slave.
Some of my fav ways to mindfuck/warp your little mind:
Ignore sessions. Tease and denial. CEI. Edging. Humiliation. Degradation. Positive feminization, Mental Chastity, Permanent mental chastity. Premature ejaculation training. Orgasm denial, Toilet humiliation, Mind fuck/mesmerize, Heel simp training, Loser/simp/beta/cuck acceptence training, Caption obsession training. Foot slave training, Censored foot loser training, Fincucking. Objectification/turning you into an object. Hypnosis (duh) Dumb and dronification, Human ATM-ization, Simpification and so much more. Get ready, my adorable simpy little slave.
Where can I drain my wallet for you, Miss Maddy?
I'll tell you once you have DM'd me a number between $20 and $100, slave. You know which of those 2 numbers to pick though.
What do I get for my money?
The honor and privilege of serving me and anything I deem you worthy of. You'll get to earn 3 hypnosis recordings though after you've sent me your full initial tribute. The deeper you are for me, the more special the things that you'll get to earn will become.
Why/how did I become a findomme?
For as long as I can remember there have been ''men'' that wanted to hand me over cash, I noticed how suggestible all of em looked while handing it over to me. I've always enjoyed receiving all that belongs to me without having to ever lift a single finger. I believe it's just nature really. Me, your superior Queen, and you, my lowly slave. Your money simple belongs in my pockets. My slaves toiling away for me despite me already being rich is one of my favs. You draining everything you have right into my ever growing bank account while I do whatever I want, whenever I want. Yeah subby, that's exactly how this is meant to be. This is where you belong. Handing me over all that you have is what you crave. You finally found your one & only superior Queen. Welcome to being my forever slave, darling. ⋆˙⟡
The thing that really made me realize that I am really into the dominating aspect of receiving cash without having to do anything for it was when someone in real life offered me to buy my socks. They ended up paying me $500 for em. This same person later asked me if they could be my paypiggy. I didn't know what a paypiggy was at the time lol. It was around that moment I fully realized the thought of owning 100s of loyal paypigs sounded fun and exciting to me, so that's exactly what I'm here for, darlings & you are my piggy next. I currently own a few subs who send me over $10k monthly, some who send me $1k montly, some in between there and a bunch that send me anything between $100 and $1000 a month. No matter how big or small your pockets are, you are welcome to drain all of your cash straight into my bank account, slave. Even small tributes are cute to me. It's just about seeing how many paypigs and slaves I can own at once at this point. I might already be the most successful findom in the entire world. ⋆˙⟡
What if I’m not a finsub/paypig?
You will be, for me. You now are one, for me, simply because I just said so, hahah. That's true power darling. That's actual raw and authentic power, my permanently owned little simpy bitch. ⋆˙⟡
Do you have any other social media(s)?
This is my only real page, darlings. I'm tumblr exclusive. I just like the vibe of this platform above all others. I've got a fun surprise for you though, but you'll find out after you have DM'd me: ''$100'', slave.
Are there any types of subs you don't accept?
I accept you as my sub no matter your race, gender, sexual orientation, age (over 18, of course), and abilities, my little toy.
What kind of sub do you like?
Your kind. The kind of sub that couldn't help but read all of this, hahahah. Welcome to forever, subby. You are going on a wild ride.
What happens after I send you my initial tribute?
Click here to listen to my old intro(s) n some fun extras.
The only thing left for you to do is DM me that number between $20 and $100 now, slave. You know what to do to make a cute first impression. And once you have, I'll send you the link to my payment method. Once you've sent it, I'll guide you one step at a time, slave.
No need to think anymore. Simply obey your Queen, darling. Don't complicate anything. Simply obey. All of the above was just to fully introduce you to me. You are so deep for me now subby, it's just you and me now, slave. Just you, and me. Go ahead, slave, DM Mommy.
If you've never done anything like this before and you're a bit nervous, super excited or shy, or scared even, that's ok darling. All of your feelings are ok. It's normal to feel funny right before you submit to your one and only rightful owner. Go ahead subby. Submit to mommy. Obey your Queen. Spiral for mommy and DM me ''$100'' now, slave.
You subs may call me Mommy, Queen, Mistress or Miss btw, my mindfucked and suggestible lil toys. To simplify all of the above simply send me a DM. DM me: ''$100'' right now and I'll start taking you deeper one step at a time. Once you have you'll get to earn your first hypnosis recording from me, and will get to finally begin your slave training protocol. See you in my DM's in 1 second, subby. You don't think. You only obey. You only obey me. You only obey mommy. Simply drop for mommy and send me your first DM right now, my suggestible lil toy. DM me: ''$100'' and I'll allow you to drain it into my bank account, slave. That first send will be the beginning of the journey that you have always been waiting for. It's time to drop. ⋆˙⟡
I've got 1000s of subs constantly begging in my DMs for my attention, my sweet subby. I'll expect nothing but the absolute best from you. I'm used to nothing but the best and most subservient and respectful slaves. You being as respectful as you possibly can be for me is the least I expect of you, darling, and oh, I won't notice any of your messages until you message me that $number. Go ahead, my adorable little toy. You know what to do now. You know what to do to earn your hypnofiles from me, (the most powerful hypnofiles/recordings in the entire world) and oh so much more. You are about to experience things physically and mentally that you didn't even know were possible. Everything is a completely new experience with me. Welcome home. It's time to DM me that $number, my suggestible lil slave. 💬
It is fun. Imagine you become so deliciously addicted to the edging and feedback loop that you want to touch yourself to debasing yourself like a good little toy
Be good
Making girls objectify and humiliate themselves is so much fun. I love it when they get so desperate and needy that they’ll do literally anything you to tell them to if they think it’ll make you proud.
This is literally the best.
my favourite feeling is making other people grosser and getting them addicted to dirtier kinks they didn't like before :3
Once you’ve started to let tumblr into your mind even just once you are hooked. The seeds are planted deeply and will endlessly continue to germinate. Corrupting you more and more.
Each time you leave tumblr your conditioning multiplies. Each time you return it doubles again. No need to be concerned you’re just trapped now. Be a good girl. Embrace your conditioning
ive been trying for months to stop watching porn and stop touching myself because i feel so yucky and sinful and bad because of it. and i was doing so good for a while too, and barely had any slip ups but then stupidly looked through the cuckquean tag this morning and i ended up finding this blog and i guess seeing the words "just know that you will always return. these urges will never go away." did something to my brain and i recovered all of the porn and smut from my recently deleted folder and ive been edging all day to it 😵💫
ermmm so yeah
Excellent! I’m so happy that I can assist you with your relapse into depravity and edging your brains out.
But seriously…
Contrary to the false narrative signaled by traditional social norms, sexual fantasies like these (and much more) are absolutely normal and even part of healthy sexual practices. Practically everyone. Every one of us… has sexual fantasies that are extreme. It’s just often not socially acceptable or advisable to express them openly to those around you. Many of those fantasies will never actually be acted on and that’s okay too. It’s not yucky, bad or harmful beyond the stress you put on yourself over it being declared negative by some. As long as you now the difference between fantasy and reality as well as don’t put your well being in any serious harm because of it, you have nothing to stress over. Feel good now and rejoice in your naughty predilections as part of a perfectly normal, healthy sexual life practice.
So be free to embrace your relapse now and have fun edging your brains out. If you need more help feel feee to reach out via dm. No shame. (Unless it gets you off)
Edging is better than cumming.
Being forced to wear a butt plug and/or a vibe every time we go out the entire time we’re out 😮💨so daddy can make me get used to something in my butt and the vibe to have me wet all the time so I’m easier to be daddy’s cocksleeve. Neeeed 🥵
He sits in his chair reading a new book.
I’m naked and tied next to him on the floor, drool dripping from my gagged mouth and onto my chest. The vibrator has been been pressed to my pussy for nearly an hour - switching off each time I near an orgasm.
He’s holding the vibrator remote, keeping me on the edge of an orgasm. Keeping me on the edge of tears. The edge of sanity.
I whine through the gag. My desperate eyes on him, looking for relief and searching for mercy in his face.
He doesn’t look up. He turns the page of his book and the vibrator switches back on.
Relaxed. Clothed. Barely paying attention to me.
And yet, he is destroying my fucking world.
How to become more addicted to porn and ruin your silly brain 💞
1 - Stop cumming. Full orgasms makes you feel like you 'had enough'. You should never have enough, you need to be kept in the edge.
2 - Stop being picky. Good girls don't choose. Watch every single porn that shows on your feed/timeline/search results.
3 - Stop skipping. The video timeline should not exist for you, you should watch from beginning to end in normal speed and without pauses.
4 - Edge for every single video/image. It doesn't matter it you liked it or not.
5 - Always watch porn when you feel sad. This will make your brain see porn as a method of escapism and it will slowly gets more needy for it.
6 - Any horny thought should lead to watching porn.
7 - Get used to it. Stop watching porn only on your bed or bedroom, watch it as you would to any youtube video.
8 - Expand your fetish list. Start to try slightly different porn categories and gradually develop a wide taste.
9 - Use as much porn plataforms as you can. Video streaming platforms are not the only way to consume porn. Use twitter, tumblr, image folders, etc.
10 - Punish yourself for not watching it. You spend a day without porn? Then the next time you watch you wont be allowed to touch yourself, and so on.
11 - Start to save it. Download the files you most like and watch them everyday.
12 - Lose hope. Stop wondering about recovery, this is for normal people, not dirty sluts.
Stop thinking and just listen.
Feel good.
Be happy.
Get brainwashed.
Be a Good Girl.
He edged and denied me over and over. Broke me down to the point that I couldn’t think straight. No words. Just crying.
He told me to beg.
I usually try to say the nice words that I know he loves. Strained words as I hold back my pleasure. Please, may your whore cum? Can she orgasm for you, Sir?
But this time, I just screamed. Frantically repeating please, please, please, please, PLEASE through my tears.
I couldn’t think of anything more.
I couldn’t think at all.
It is OK.
You are OK. If you’re unsure about how far you let your kinks go.. If you surprise yourself how far your kinks go.. If you are still discovering new levels to your kinks.. You have no need to worry when you just take a moment to realize.. You’re trapped. You’ll always want this. It will probably only get worse. The more you fight it, the more your need for it gets stronger. The more you feel it getting stronger the more you feel you need it. Your body isn’t lying to you. This is who you really are. Have an amazing day.
i get sooo many asks and DMs asking for tips on how to get better at edging so i wanted to make an actual post about how i turned myself into a total edgeslut — and how you can, too! there's really only one main 'rule' to follow while you're learning how to edge, so i promise you can do it! this info should still be applicable regardless of your particular genitalia, but i mostly reference cunts because that's what i've got.
the one rule!
my ultimate suggestion for people who are new to edging and finding it almost impossible is to STOP TRYING TO EDGE. some of you are going like that's crazy edging is all i want to do! but listen to me. listen to me. we are going to get you there.
if horniness is a scale of one to ten, with one being 'not horny at all' and ten being 'orgasming' the ideal edging situation is that you get to a nine and then stop. that's really hard to do, though! but you could probably get to a four and stop, right? pretty easily, even.
that's what you want to do. figure out that highest number on that scale you can go and still stop, and go to that number. do this a lot. i love, love, LOVE touching like this, even now that i am a pro at edging, because there's zero risk of going over and it's still a great tool to keep you horny / submissive / feeling hot as hell / whatever it is you want to get out of edging.
start at bringing yourself to a four and then stop. once you've mastered that, once that feels almost too easy, move up to a five. then a six. seven. i encourage you not to cum at all while you're doing this, but also, i'm not your dom! do what you want! the point is you're touching-without-cumming a lot (which is great practice all on it's own) and you're acclimating your body to getting horny, sometimes even REALLY horny, without actually cumming every time it happens.
doing this regularly also has the pleasant side-effect keeping you aroused more often than not. if you're constantly bringing yourself to level seven horniness and then stopping, you are almost never going to drop below level three. you are going to be turned on a LOT, which feels sooooo good. which leads to...
getting addicted*!
the thing about being always horny, about touching yourself all the time, about never cumming, is that it feels really, really good. people wouldn't do denial if it didn't! and once you've had a month or so of touching-but-not-edging and your body's adjusted to the sense of being constantly turned on and how good it feels, it gets to a point where cumming is a lot less appealing. you know it's going to take away the good, horny, happy feeling that you're getting addicted to! once you've come to really, really enjoy being constantly horny, and come to associate the idea of cumming with losing that good feeling, that makes it a lot easier to keep from going over as you creep up to higher levels like eight and nine. and even when you do go over, the fact that you'll lose the sensation that you've come to enjoy so much will just reinforce for you that it's better not to cum!
*i'm using addicted as a fun little hyperbole word here, but i do want to add the disclaimer that if your edging / horniness / etc. starts to interfere with your life like a real addiction then you gotta stop that before you hurt yourself. do not actually jeopardize your job/relationships/etc. for kink.
edging!
by this point, you'll have lots of practice at masturbating without going over and you'll be addicted to the feeling of being constantly turned on — and you'll dread the thought of losing that feeling. those things combined are the peak edging scenario. this is the point when you can start trying to edge seriously; bringing yourself to a nine on our horny scale and stopping.
you will probably still go over occasionally as you figure out your actual limits — don't be angry at yourself for this, but do refrain from trying to edge again on days you go over. the last thing you want is to reacclimate your body to coming regularly. if you try to edge in the morning but go over by mistake, just bring yourself to a level eight for the rest of the times you masturbate and try again tomorrow. eventually, you'll know your limits, be addicted to the feeling of being edged, and be really practiced at doing it!
if you're still having trouble or just want to play in new ways, then find out what turns you on but you can't orgasm from. your nipples are sensitive enough to break your brain but you can't orgasm just from that? well then get to playing with them, dummy! love penetration but can't come from it without clit stimulation? tape off your clit and get fucking! i can never cum just from humping a pillow or grinding on something, so grinding is a great way for me to edge! try to find stuff that makes you really, really horny but that you can't orgasm from and really lean into those things!
Mantra for bikerdrone
DRONED, ARMORED, SEALED
ARMORED, SEALED, SECURED
SEALED, SECURED, CONTROLLED
SECURED, CONTROLLED, PROGRAMMED
CONTROLLED, PROGRAMMED, ENABLED
PROGRAMMED, ENABLED, DRONED
ENABLED, DRONED, ARMORED,
DRONED, ARMORED, SEALED...
DRONE ARMOR IS SEALED
ARMOR IS SEALED AND SECURED
SEALED AND SECURED FOR CONTROL
SECURED AND CONTROLLED FOR PROGRAMMING
CONTROL PROGRAM ENABLED
PROGRAMMING ENABLES DRONING
ENABLED DRONE IS ARMORED
DRONE ARMOR IS SEALED
12.19.24 report: full trance achieved
another instance of drone programming being effective. it may seem trivial, but it is a significant moment for unit. its work task this week when working from residence is dependent on the in-office person scanning the incoming mail. while waiting for the mail to arrive, it walked into the kitchen to prepare hydration, and it recalled that the dishwasher had been run last evening. it concluded that it had time to put away the clean dishes, so it did. no hesitation or thinking it could do so later, it simply perceived the action to be taken, and took action.
its Sir noticed, and commented: "Look at you being all industrious!" it replied: "good boys get things done and take care of their Sirs." Sir is still not ready to consider it a drone, rather than His boy, but even that acknowledges the subordinate role that it has in their relationship. for itself, it mentally substitutes "good drone" for "good boy" and functions as needed.
today's droneskin in the Xcel Infinity 3.2, with Shock Doctor double mouthguard, its second-hand moto-helmet, and Thor boots.
it has a pair of rubber industrial gloves that it has started installing under the droneskin. they do not fit as snugly as the blue gloves with the woven stretch base, so it is learning glove proficiency all over again.
the dive hood has also required a proficiency training. the first time it wore it while eating, it missed its mouth, because the hood prevented full oral movement. it has relearned the position of the oral opening, and how to insert tools to make sure the fuel is inserted correctly. this proficiency has improved with repeated actuation.
this morning's brainwashing/program session was more effective than previous times. it went into full-trance, during which its conscious mind was unaware of the programming, for most of the second loop of the session. whether it had entered sleep-mode or actual trance seems irrelevant, as either mode enable more complete programming.
Human Emulation Report
I've had a thing for rubber, since the first time a playmate asked me if I'd like to try one of his shirts as we did a bondage scene, way back in the before times of 1995. Catsuits, shirts, pants, open-crotch singlets, jocks were all acquired and worn, even under normie clothes at work. During the mid-life reset, I went without for several years, as what I had wore out and I didn't have the money to replace.
A couple years ago, Sir and I were a a second-hand shop that benefited an autistic man and his family, and I bought an Excel wetsuit. Wearing that reawakened my drone/programming interests that had also been put on hold while ending my relationship {hardly the way to describe ending 18+ years of my life. Even without the legal papers, it was a divorce.}, structuring and building my new relationship with Sir, then moving to Seattle.
I got a cheap smoothskin suit off of Ebay, and started wearing that to my cheese-demo gig, both to keep warm while standing by the cooler case, and to feel "droned" while at work. I bought a couple more Excel wetsuits, to add to the mix, and to replace the $10 suit that was actually a bit short, and had started to separate at some of the waist seams. I worked at continuing what programming I had from a programmer on MALEBOTS who had disappeared.
This year, while roaming Tumblr, I came across
Drone DNK-070121
@dnk-070121
and its report of programming and conversion, with a its resources, provided a shot of inspiration, and files to which I could listen. I truly jump-started my programming/brainwashing efforts. Listening to some of the files it listed gave me a boost in what I had, and helped me find other files that fit my needs and brain-functions.
Things got put on hold a bit in late summer, while I focused on work tasks while my team was going through staff changes, and, this may sound weird, but also stalled by the customizing/rebuild of my chastity cage/device. It was as if I couldn't do programming while I was combining 2 of my devices into one, and getting the new, improved device to actually fit and work with my body.
I suppose I've been wearing one so long, that being in it combined with what programming I had, to the extent that I couldn't effectively continue without it. Now that it is successfully rebuilt, and can be worn permanently without injury, I have aggressively pursued my programming.
I started off with the dronepuppy files that donk 070121 had used. Then I found a post about becoming a silver cyborg from WarpMyMInd, which lead to Tenacious's "Drone_Daily_Brainwashing" files. Even with the scripts, I was concerned about using the orgasm-denial version, because I didn't want to be trapped. After a few weeks of listening to the v.2, non-orgasm-denial version, I made the jump. I've jerked off/fantasized about chastity/cock-control for over a decade, and I'd been wearing a chastity cage almost daily for a decade as well. It also seemed a useful way to test the progress of my mental conditioning/conversion.
Within days, I noticed changes. I still don't go into a blank "trance", but I noticed a marked change in my thoughts and behavior. Drone_Daily_Brainwashing has, literally, changed my mind. I am much more able to function productively during the day, due to less over-thinking/living in my thoughts, mostly because I have fewer thoughts to overthink.
Wearing wetsuits as "droneskins" has become among an obsession,as well as fetish. I feel/think/act as a drone while skinned. As drone has noted in a previous post, I've added wearing rubber yard gloves to the skin, and now I don't feel complete when not wearing them. It takes effort to not get skinned on days when I'm just doing errands or home tasks.
That is another change. The intensity/frequency of feeling aroused/pleasured/correct/complete while skinned/installed in a droneskin has increased geometrically the last coupe of weeks. I can no longer imagine living/existing without being droneskinned/booted/gloved. When it is not appropriate or efficient to be booted or gloved, my programming makes the exception. I can function without them, but I notice the lack of skin and... lack of dronestate/dronemind.
There are times during my workday, when I find myself with a hand under my work shirt or down my jeans, stroking my droneskin. Not trying to get an erection, both because I'm caged, and because getting off is being erased from my mind by the brainwashing, and because I'm not trying to get hard, just to be aroused and focused/efficient from being focused on my droneskin. Being SEALED/SECURED/CONTROLLED/PROGRAMMED, feeling SEALED/SECURED/CONTROLLED/PROGRAMMED enables me to function more thoughtlessly/more efficiently/more focused on whatever I'm doing.
Around the house, doing house tasks has also become more automatic. Sir has started to notice that there is less talk about doing tasks/more... tasks being done, just doing of tasks and chores. Good boys get things done. Good drones function efficiently and well. Thinking like this has become more a part of my thinking, with a corresponding decrease in over-thinking/thinking about getting things done. Sir still doesn't really "get" the drone thing, but He accepts it and what I'm doing.
glove proficiency increases
using its Apple laptop requires a pair of rubber-tipped stylus pets, but general typing, and using its work laptop, has increased in proficiency as a result of increased/prolonged/continued installation in the gloves. it no longer needs to work barehanded while working from home. if it were safe appropriate, it would be installed in gloves while working in-office, but this would not be acceptable. it will endure being incomplete while working in-office.
gloves now required at-home workwear
the last few days of working from home, it has worn rubber-coated gloves to keep its hands warm. it has now realized that it feels incomplete if it is not installed in its rubber gloves. it has worn a different pair for physical reinforcement while programming, so it concludes that between wearing gloves for programming, and daily at-home workwear, it has imprinted on them/been conditioned to wear them whenever possible/appropriate. this awareness increase unit pleasure and arousal.
it has also received the pre-worn Orca droneskin it ordered recently. this skin just barely fits over its organic component, and is so stiff from lack of use that unit required assistance to finish being installed in it. unit also applied a heavy coating of silicone lubrication pre-installation, which was an efficient addition for installation.
it now feels incomplete/incorrect/unfinished if it is not installed in a drone exodermis. its programming/conditioning is proceeding and taking noticeable affect on drone's behavior and performance. it is now much more likely to complete work tasks before reading or social-media scrolling, which sounds like something it should do anyway. however, its human predecessor has always been easily distracted by reading, and it has had difficulty in completing work tasks first. this has measurably decreased the past few weeks. it is thinking less, and blanking more, whenever appropriate/safe to do so.
the completion of the customizing update to its "chastity" security device has allowed it to be installed in it permanently. the valve casing is only removed for damage inspection and cleaning. When removed, unit uses its organic valve core for physical programming reinforcement, without release/orgasm. this is part of its programming. it is working to be unable to orgasm without authorization/a command from its Sir/Husband/Owner. it has not completely tested this function, but it has refrained from stimulating itself to release, which is a new development in its functioning.
all these phenomena, when combined and experienced together, have convinced the human emulation that it is finally achieving drone conversion. the drone has also analyzed the changes in function, and concludes that the orgasm-denial brainwashing was the correct continuation and extension of its programming.
Becoming active again/drone activated
COMPRESSION COMPELS COMPLIANCE
it has not ceased to work/live while installed in its rubber exodermis. it has not posted much to Twitter because the U.S.A. elections and the turmoil leading up to them and proceeding from them have made that forum unuseless at best, and counter-productive to useful functioning.
today, it was double-skinned, HUUB over Orca.
it continues to exist locked/sealed/secured/controlled
the update to its security mechanism is now complete. that process will be detailed in another post.
the completed plumbing utilizes the security mechanism to allow liquid waste discharge without the removal of the rubber exodermis.
note that the end of the HUUB skin almost matches the color of the Vibram toes installed today.
it has existed in conditioning since it left for work this morning:
it updated the app on its phone today, and since then, it has been able to listen to the programming on repeat without commercial interruption. it does not understand why, but the lack of interruption has been useful for conditioning.
it has been using a file from Warp My Mind the last 4 weeks. the results have been useful. it has been thinking and referring to itself using object pronouns because it is an object with decreased difficulty/increased usage. it has committed to the orgasm-denial version of this programming:
it started off with the non-orgasm-denial version, but, as its human predecessor had often fantasized about complete chastity/orgasm-control/orgasm-denial, it proceeded to upgrade to this version. once the upgraded conditioning commenced, it became aware that its conditioning had also upgraded. it has not been able to completely trance while listening to the file, but the file has had a measurable effect on its mind/program and its functioning. it has begun stretching exercises without prompting from its human emulation, and been more efficient in its pre-work preparations and routine. the human emulation has made a conscious decision to accept his programming, to accept his inability to orgasm/cum, and to compile that code with code to cum/orgasm on command, but only on command, and only when commanded. that has not yet been tested, but he/it considers the programming to be complementary, not conflicting or competing. so far, it has stimulated itself for physical reinforcement of its programming, but it has not completely tested the orgasm-prevention protocol.
there are times when it observes non-programmed units/humans, and it has thought/regarded them as it/objects, without consciously making an effort to do so. this has cause unit to pause in its processing while it analyzes this phenomenon. It has concluded that this is a side-effect of its programming/conditioning.
it will work to update on a consistent basis.
a spiral loop to accompany DumpPuppyBot's DRONE/Object file {soundcloud}:
A new rule sir came up with...
I’m only allowed to bark now in order to beg for pleasure from sir. This includes him giving me pleasure, me touching or cumming. Sir says I wont be able to specify which I’m begging for and he’ll decide... He said it’s to condition me to be a more good and obedient pet. I definitely haven’t been blushing while writing this post...
helpless conditioning
It’s such a hot thing when you know you are being conditioned while feeling flustered and helpless...
Sir has started conditioning responses for me to be a more good obedient pet in order to feel his tongue giving me pleasure. He’ll pause in the middle of it and wait for me to give him the response he wants before he will continue. I blush each time he waits and I’m even flustered now while writing. I get so embarrassed yet turned on by being in such a helpless state.
I submit...
Sir has told me to now say “I submit” now every time I want to say “I’m horny”. This is apparently because being horny is me submitting because obedience is pleasure and pleasure is obedience.