Depression - Blog Posts

My new single: Forevermore 🌹🥀🌹🥀

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Music video of "Melancholia" is out now. Check it out, thanks 🦋

After the first vocals: day of recording guitars and drums 🎸 coming soon 🎸🎤

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Love this photo I took some years ago... not so much the >Red< Label in it, but it's still whisky, the best kind of alcohol 🤣 I imagine the history of a young girl who lost her innocence too soon, falling into the self-destruction world...running alone around the world with just 3 things: a piece of hope/ an attachment to her innocent side (represented by the bear); a drug/ an addiction to ease her pain (represented by whisky bottle); and a protection from bad people or even from herself/ a suicidal mind/life (represented by the gun). And the sheet music in the second photo is about her huge love for music. It all really represents me. This is me 💋

I'm in love with death

But life can't let me go

I dreamt about blue skies

But I have fallen from them

I dreamt about deep oceans

But I have drowned in them

I dreamt about true freedom

But I have been stuck inside my sick mind

I dreamt about to be warm, to free me from the cold inside

But now I'm burning in flames

Every friday night I die

Oh, I die

Trying to feel me alive

I have anxiety, I have had it for a couple of years now. It has now giving me or turning into a depression as well.

I haven’t been able to work/ studie for almost 2 years, and had to almost quit my education. But pulled through, not to the best it could have been, but I new I wouldn’t be able to have to take it over again. That is like almost 2 years ago. And my mental has only gotten worse, because I got the depression as well now, but I keep fighting and keep trying!

if you have ever suffered from…

• depression

• anxiety

• eating disorder

• self-harm

• ocd

• bipolar

• feelings of guilt and hopelessness

• suicidal thoughts

can you please reblog to show support for people who also suffer.

you are not alone.

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what's the cure for heartbreak?

I get through the stress of grocery shopping with the help of my Kirby purse. And the help of Floyd the Shark, who used to be the charm on my old flipphone and who now marks which side of my bag I put my keys. And the help of Bunny!

My mom gave me Bunny. Bunny used to help my dad, who died when I was a baby. My dad also suffered from depression and he carried Bunny everywhere in his briefcase. I’d been carrying stuffed animal helpers for years and never knew that my dad did the same thing.

God I really wish carrying stuffed animals around with you was socially acceptable