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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal
➁ Green apple 309g - 180 cal
➀ Tortilla with with tuna and corn - 545 cal
Water - 1.6l/2l
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Steps - 8698/10000 - 353 cal
Exercise - No - 0 cal
I was so absent gah daym. I binge watched trigun again then watched trigun stampede and grrr the brainrot was so real and strong (curse you knives for being so crazy and yet so appealing for my brain) and quite honestly I just didn't bother to write logs.
The whole week been really chill, mostly spent my time at home mainly because I got kinda ill...for a day lmao. After that I was just kinda tired all day so I stayed in bed, only woke up to do my nails, which took me 4 days btw because Im not a professional and I wanted it to be perfect.
So yes, I only logged my food down in the tracker and wasted away. Makes me kinda sad, kinda guilty but at the same time it is what it is.
AlsonI noticed that now it's not as hot and warm outside so my body doesn't "crave" water so I forget to drink and that's not good. It makes me hungry and bored so I often catch myself wandering in the kitchen, opening and closing the fridge door to see if my stomach wants anything other than meat, veggies and fruits. Not too big on eating carbohydrates and if I can I will avoid it even tho my body supposedly needs it. (I was a hypocrite today tho I craved rice and gave)
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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal
➀ Pickwick green tea (lemon) 350ml - 0 cal
➁ Green apples 287g - 166 cal
➁ Eggs 106g - 152 cal
➁ Bowl of Basmati rice with tuna, corn and broccoli - 700 cal
Water - 1.6l/2l
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Steps - 10217/10000 - 410 cal
Exercise - No - 0 cal
Waking up early is never a pleasant thing, since family is home and they remind me to pack food. Fortunately my mom gives a lift to my brother who starts really early, so she wasn't be able to force me to bring food and my sister and father doesn't really care.
It was so cold today I could see my breath in the air. My dumbass also forgot to pack handcream into my bag because my hands dry out because of the chilly air, so much that it's starts to cut up or something. I could wear gloves sure, but it feels restricting.
Alsoo! I weighed myself in the morning and I was 73.5kg! When I was talking with my best friend I could see it on my face an neck how much thinner it is already so I am really happy.
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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal
➀ Pickwick green tea (lemon) 300ml - 0 cal
➂ Green apples - 291 cal
➁ Homemade margherita pizza - 204 cal
Water - 1.7l/2l
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Steps - 8249/10000 - 330 cal
Exercise - No - 0 cal
Today was surprisingly really cold, but fortunately not as cold to have the winter coat out just yet.
Other than going to school and coming home, nothing really note worthy happened.
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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal
➁ Boiled eggs with hot sauce - 156 cal
➁ Green apples - 139 cal
➀ Tuna with hot sauce and light mayo 62g - 134 cal
Water - 1.4l/2l
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Steps - 8973/10000 - 359 cal
Exercise - No - 0 cal
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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal
➀ Green apple - 78 cal
➀ Boiled egg - 72 cal
Water - 1.5l/2l
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Steps - 10391/10000 - 419 cal
Exercise - No - 0 cal
Mom asked me to accompany her to give my sister a lift to uni and while driving back we stopped to pick up a package and to buy some ribbons for my halloween costume. I decided to look for cute plates, mainly heart shaped ones and although I did find two types, one was too deep and big -also had blood on it so I had go scrub and sanitise my hands raw because I felt icky - and the other was too shallow for me. Unfortunately I didn't buy a cute plate but a basic small ceramic one.
I love how the trees are colorful, how chilly yet somehow warm it is in autumn. I could wear my current favourite sweater and pants that are now big on me a bit. Mom always tells me that I am getting really skinny and I love the attention I get from other people.
Oh! Also I am finally at my lowest weight in 5 years! Still high, but it is going down surely and I am addicted.
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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal
➀ Basmati rice with tuna, broccoli and peas 200g - 466 cal
➀ Banana - 62 cal
Water - 1.4l/2l
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Steps - 6394/10000 - 259 cal
Exercise - No - 0 cal
I went to school today, but didn't have the best day, because I got angry at my classmate for some silly reason, so I feel like I need to apologise. Maybe it was the hunger in me, maybe I just didn't sleep well.
Also I took a walk on the treadmill again to get to 10k steps. Dunno if I mentioned or not but whenever I don't get to at least 6k steps I feel guilt and I feel like I don't put in the work I should.
Once again didn't exercise. I could blame it on the absence of a watch that would note the calories I burnt, but I would be lying. Well half lying. I may be just too lazy.
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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal
➀ Pickwick green tea 250ml (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0 cal
➁ Green apples 140g - 81 cal
➂ Eggs with light mayo 83g - 119 + 24 cal
Water - 1,2l/2l
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Steps - 10499/10000 - 422 cal
Exercise - No - 0 cal
What the hell noone told me losing weight is so addictive. I can already feel my hipbone and ribs so much????
I stayed home, just like yesterday and this pressure of not putting in enough steps for me to feel comfortable was getting too much so I decided go use the treadmill and walk on it for an hour and 50 minutes. It was so good honestly, in the confinement of my own home, comfortable and quiet while I can do whatever as I walk and I don't need to look out for people I would bump into or cars that could hit me.
Sadly as much as I promised myself to eat as little as possible when mom came home, saying she bought some cookies and sweets I caved. I may have mentioned this, I am not one to crave sweet things, especially if it's sticky, full of cream and sugar. Yeah, well to my misfortune everything she brought home was notjing of sort, so I indulged. Lavender cookies, snow crescents, small piece of bundt cake and gingerbread macaroons. I could look for a basic recipe but I doupt I could calculate the correct estimate of calories.
I try not to dwell, thoughts of simply not listing these down had ran through my mind but I would be only lying to my own self.
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➀ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal
➁ Pickwick green tea 250ml (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0 cal
➀ Hell energy drink 250ml (lemon & ginger) - 118 cal
➁ Green apples 326g - 189 cal
➂ Eggs 130g - 186 cal
Water - 1,6l/2l
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Steps - 11781/10000 - 476 cal
Exercise - No - 0 cal
Broke my 60 hour fast with some tuna today. (To be honest I don't remember what exactly I wanted to note down, because I am writing this on the 13th so im sorry)
I really want to restrain myself from snacking on things while I cook and/or bake, because I ate so many seedless cherries, what wouldn't be a problem, but they were kept in a sugary water that preserves the cherries for longer and ugh. I don't even know how I should estimate that.
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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal
➀ Pickwick green tea 250ml (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0 cal
➀ Tuna with tomatoes - 157 cal
➅ Shrimp chips 13g - 45 cal
➀ Cinnamon roll - 199 cal
➃ Choco-coconut balls - 431 cal
Water - 1,7l/2l
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Steps - 6953/10000 - 281 cal
Exercise - No - 0 cal
Been fasting all day, yippee! It was really cold today and had to wear a sweater and a jumper over it and both of them felt looser.
Tomorrow will be a bit warmer fortunately, but overall I am glad that autumn is finally showing up, even though it was kinda late this year.
I also went shopping with mom and I saw so so SO many nice knitted sweaters. I always like just trying clothes on or just looking at the colors, feeling the fabric, trying to find the best kind of material. I uses to buy XXL clothes to feel comfortable in, to feel that they are lose on my body. This time I bought an XL and it felt loose and comfortable, even though I only lost 5kg so far.
I also bought hairdye with my classmate and dyed my hair from a poopie blonde and greenish blue to a color that matches Hatchi's haircolor. My ends stayed a lilac color because the blue stained my hair pretty bad, but it's fine because I will dye my hair until it fades or comes out.
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➀ Plain black coffee - 0 cal
➀ Pickwick green tea 250ml (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0 cal
Water - 1.2l/2l
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Steps - 11499/10000 - 462 cal
Exercise - No - 0 cal
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Unfortunately I did not finish my fast, nor did I held back on "binging". I went out with my friends and slept over at my best friend's house who kept feeding me because she doesn't want me to be hungry even tho I told her that I am not, then when her mother came home she made sure I ate again so yes.
I appreciate them, because they are so nice and caring, but how can I keep up my plans if they want to disrupt it along with my family.
Fortunately I am home and tomorrow is monday. I forgot to buy a pass for trams so I will be walking everywhere this month, whether I like it or not.
I'd like to get better, as in try not to beak fasts because I have a sudden urge to binge or because I crave something, or because of family. Sure there are instances when you simply just cannot refuse because it would be suspicious.
Anyhow, this week was kind of a failure, but it's fine. I try and that matters. I reached my first gw this week, even though the weekend made me gain 1.5kg back, so that was one success.
For the next upcoming week, I wanna loose at least what I gained back, then 2kg more. That is what seems realistic as for now.
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As happy as I was in the morning, I broke my fast of 42 hours because of a bowl of pasta and few pieces of broccoli. Then later my mom informed me that we are having pizza for dinner, even tho I deliberately asked her not to tempt me and allow me to get weak when I say I crave a certain thing.
In the end it was fine, I restarted my fast an hour or two later and now I am fasting through friday and the majority of saturday.
I am still really weak when it comes to certain food and that's fine. I know that my willpower is not the best but it's getting better.
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➀ Plain black coffee - 0 cal
➂ Slices of pizza - 612 cal
➀ Spagetti pasta and broccoli with thousand island dressing and hot sauce 225g - 272 cal + 108 cal
➀ Hell energy drink 250ml (ginger & lemon) - 47 cal
Water - 1,7l/2l
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Steps - 8335/10000 - 335 cal
Exercise - No - 0 cal
I JUST REACHED MY FIRST GW!!!! AAAAA
I am 24 hours (I am logging this the next day on the 5th, but once 10pm hit on the 4th it was the 24 hour mark) in my fast and so far I am feeling well! I cooked risotto for my family today and it was so tempring to eat but i needed to steel myself. Been craving garlic cream soup tho all week ao far and maybe next week I will make some.
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➁ Plain black coffee - 0 cal
➁ Pickwick green tea (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0 cal
Water - 2.3l/2l
Full - 0 cal
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Steps - 8284/10000 - 334 cal
Exercise - No - 0 cal
Burned - 334 cal
I ate only this morning and fasted the whole day. Tomorrow is another sucky one because I accompany mom to her work place then go to school so she will ask me to bring something and knowing myself I will eat it probably, but let's hope for the best!
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➁ Apples (211g) - 110 cal
➀ Black coffee with ice - 0 cal
➀ Tuna-egg-mayo sandwich - 280** cal
➀ Pickwick green tea (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0cal
Water - 3l/2l
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Steps - 8510/10000 - 346 cal
Exercise - No - 0 cal
*edit - math is not my strong suit and i added the tomorrow's sandwich's stats too...
**edit 2 - I forgot that I need to count in percentage when I multiply (my last math lesson was 2 years ago)