Grief - Blog Posts
Flower
Deep into the dark of night
a single seed was cast to earth;
buried with no star in sight
hoping for a loving birth.
And a flower was to rise
from the dusty ground it grew;
could I really trust my eyes
when all I saw in it was you?
And I watered it with tears
and given it your name;
still it wilted in its fears
was I the one to blame?
by Weltenasche.
Your Words
Recently you wrote to me and said:
„Your words aren't what they used to be. You wrote of love and so naive; Now all I read is full of grief.
Was it me who left you scarred; Who made your words and heart so hard? If so; it was never my intent I hope some day you'll understand.“
by Weltenasche.
[TW: Death and shit that comes with that, idk maybe more? If you find any more things that should be in this trigger warning pls tell me.]
Also, shit is happening in my life rn. I recently [on September 11th] lost my cousin, she died and we aren't sure how exactly yet. So, yeah. Death is fucking weird and I don't think I process it normally (AuDHD). So I may end up not posting for a while or might end up posting like every day.
Just sharing so ya'll know what's going on if I disappear for a while [even though I would likely do that even without this shit happening].
We aren't sure when the funeral thing is happening yet, I slightly hope it's soon so I can see my family, I don't live by that side of the family, sadly. Probably gonna end up missing like a day of college, but whatever, my family [my pack] is more important to me.
My cousin left behind a son. He is a kid. He's younger than I was when my mom in this life died. [I was like 16 when that happened, and I won't be sharing how old my 2nd cousin is]. So I really wanna see that side of my family, so I can try and be there for him. He's gonna need people there for him, and if I could without getting in trouble, I would drop out of college rn to be around him while he is going through this. (Protective wolf/dog instincts?)
There's just a lot of shit going on rn with my life, I wish it would stop for a bit.
- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/xe/ze) :((
[We is referring to my family, btw]
Emotions: Writing Grief
Anonymous asked: Hi, I was wondering if you folks had any resources that describe different grieving processes people go through? I think most everyone has heard of the ‘stages’ process (anger, denial, bargaining etc.), but it’d be awesome to have something that goes into greater detail about it, or offers some sort of alternative. :)
— Paul McCartney for the documentary "Beatles '64" on Disney+, 2024.
L. V., i found this poem on the back of your hand
L. V., i found this poem dripping down my forearm after taking a bite of a freshly-plucked summer fruit
L. V., an excerpt from the poem, happy birthday, i wrote 6 years ago
L. V., i found this poem at the tip of your lit cigarette
L. V., i found this poem in its attempt to mimic maelstroms
L. V., i found this poem towering over us
Please read my newest piece, a short memoir/essay, if you find the time. And a big thanks to The Grief Diaries for accepting my work!
That moment when Hillary Clinton fans learn she is convicted of perjury, treason, and excesses of power
grief is so crazy like what if i forget what her laugh sounds like. does she know i loved her. i miss her so much. i catch myself doing things she used to do. i wish i could call her. i miss her so much. i do a crossword puzzle. i cry while washing the dishes. does she know i loved her? my heart feels like a hummingbird. i miss her so much. what if i forget what her laugh sounds like. what if i forget.
Insert incoherent screaming
this test of the mountain
Grief is such a funny little thing because sometimes you’re just going about your day and then you remember you never came out to your Nana, and also if she was here she would fully love and support you (even if she had no clue what was happening) and also slap the shit out of your Dad for being an ass
i used the metaphor for pomegranates in my brothers eulogy
“And when your heart realizes you’ve truly lost them, it will only have one question: How could this have happened to us?”
—disbelief in her eyes, grief in her heart (6/13/19)