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sleepover, april 11-13
I stayed over at my cousins house for 3 days last weekend. it was so fun. My Beatles ita bag got so many compliments. I love meeting other nerds when I'm out. My cousin also made her own my melody ita bag
I smoked the tiniest bit and my head feels clear. Why can't I feel like this all the time. I can get everything done, and I did get everything done. It's not even 8PM. This is the best.
30/Mar/2025
I don't know if anyone else thinks like this, but the real reason I love performing is because it feels like I'm finally showing my true self on stage. It's like ripping open old scars and touching tender wounds. I love the rawness of it all so much. And the high afterward is dizzying, like after an amazing kiss or a buzzy smoke sesh. It hurts but it's my vice.
28.12.24 (I can't wait to regret posting this LMAO)
Also holyshit why do fanfics have a way of literally changing your brain chemistry, I don't remember myself before that one fanfic where gee and frank escape from the mental institution (whatever the fuck the name is) and that one fanfic where high school frank gets into a toxic relationship with gee. Jesus christ.
i genuinely hate being here sometimes, i donβt understand how people do it
11.03.2021
Hii Tumblr People! Last night was full of emotions for me. The person I love is not well and it worries me to the core. I've been trying my best to be with him and I'll continue to do so. However, I really wish he gets better quickly. It makes me sick when he is sick too. His jacket is the only thing that gives me comfort when I feel sick like this.
Besides that, I've had online classes and I'm trying my best to catch up with my revisions. Fun fact about me: I do accounting.
10.03.2021 (Part2)
I made myself some Shin Ramyun and some coke as lunch. Very unhealthy I know but at least my tummy is happyπ
10.03.2021 (Part1)
Hii Tumblr Peopleβ€οΈ
Shu here and I just wanna share a small insight of my recent days.
So, I live on an island in the Indian Ocean where there were zero local cases of Covid19 for the last 3 or 4 months. Life here was back to normal compared to other countries. However, two days ago the authorities found a local case and since then the numbers keep increasing. The government came forward yesterday to address that we will be in lockdown for around 2 weeks.
So since there isn't much to do at home, I've decided that I will take this opportunity to share more here; about my day, the news, and much more.
As you can see in the picture, today is a good day. It's sunny with a little bit of wind. The perfect weather for a beach day. Sadly covid19 said no to beach day. I'm feeling rather overwhelmed lately. I've been feeling a lot, both negative and positive and it's hard to control. I'll do my best to sort those feelings out.
You people can follow me for more and I appreciate any support. β€οΈ
Do you ever get sick? But it's not physical or mental. It's just emotionally sick.
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There are so many little things in your day-to-day life that you didnβt even know impacted your mood, but they are so crucial to understanding how and why you feel the way you feel.
Humans are like plants, we are what we absorb. You wouldnβt be surprised that a plant dies in an environment with no sun & no water, so why would you be surprised that you canβt thrive in an unmotivating environment?
ππ The weather - This one is obvious. We humans really are like plants, in that we need sun to thrive. Have you ever noticed how much more pleasant people are during those first few sunny days of the year? Itβs biological, we love the sun. So when itβs sunny outside, even if you think itβs too hot, go out and enjoy the sunshine! If you stay inside all summer, don't complain about being tired and unenergized.
ππ The music you listen to - I know you love to listen to sad break up songs and daydream, but itβs not good for your mind. If you donβt believe me, do a little experiment: one day, wake up to the saddest song you like to listen to, and the next, wake up to the happiest, danciest song you like. See how much of a difference it makes in your mood.
ππ The people around you - If all of your friends constantly complain about their lives (justifiably or not), then youβre going to constantly complain too. If all of your friends always focus on the positive, laugh and smile through hard times, youβre going to adopt that mindset too. The thing is not to ditch your friends if theyβre negative (to themselves, if theyβre mean thatβs another thing), but to be the one to influence them towards a better attitude through being mindful of what you feel and say.
ππ Your living space - Don't even bother wondering why you are always distracted or unmotivated to do homework if your room is messy. Don't bother to ask yourself why you can't find discipline if your house is dirty and unkept. The space you live in is a direct reflection of your mind, you'll see how much more clear-headed and motivated you will feel once it's clean and organized.
ππ Your digital space - Having an organized & simplistic phone/laptop is key to make you see things clearer when being on them, and avoiding useless screen time (which is notoriously bad for us). That means deleting apps you don't use or don't serve you a positive purpose (games, negative social media platforms, etc).
Please tell me in the comments if you feel I have left an important point out, I will be happy to edit this post to include more valuable advice!
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How do I feel when I spend time with this person? What emotions or sensations come up for me when Iβm around them?
After being with this person, do I feel more like myselfβor less? What does my energy or mood say about the effect they have on me?
Do I feel heard and valued in our conversations, or do I often feel dismissed, interrupted, or overlooked?
When Iβm with this person, do I feel genuinely understoodβor do I feel the need to explain, justify, or hide parts of myself?
Do they do most of the talking in our conversations? How do I feel about it?
What role does this person play in my life, and what role do I play in theirs? Do these roles feel balanced? If not, how does that imbalance affect me?
In what ways do our goals and motivations align or differ, and how does that impact our connection?
Do I notice them putting me downβsubtly or directlyβto elevate themselves? Do they often try to position themselves as morally superior in our conversations? If yes, how do I respond to it when it happens?
Do I see myself sticking with them in the future? Or do I feel that I would be better without them in my life and why?
When I imagine my future, does this person fit into that vision in a healthy, supportive way? Or do I feel I would grow more freely without their presenceβand what makes me feel that?
Am I holding on to this relationship out of love, habit, fear, or hope? What would it mean for meβemotionally and practicallyβif I chose to move forward without them?
Managing relationships with people can be difficult when they aren't a right fit for you, and taking the decision to cut them out of your life or not is a hard thing to do. Hopefully these prompts can help you see things clearer when it comes to that <3
xoxo, Hannah
My May 2025 moodboard !
{journaling, studying as much as possible, going on walks through the forest, watching movies and their bts}
xoxo, Hannah
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What am I looking forward to this Spring?
How do I feel about my Winter season's productivity and how can I improve/keep up this Spring?
What were the highlights of my Winter season?
What mistakes did I make this Winter and how can I avoid repeating them this Spring?
What do I wish I did more/less this Spring? How can I improve?
What was my worst point this Winter? How can I make sure I never get back to it?
What are some positive changes to my mindset I can make this Spring?
What was the biggest source of negative energy this Winter? How can I cut it out/minimize it?
xoxo, Hannah
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What am I looking forward to in March?
What do I wish I did more/less in February and how can I achieve that in March?
How do I see myself being at the end of March? (physically, mentally, spiritually, etc)
How did I improve in the month of February?
What changes to my mindset can I make in March?
xoxo, Hannah
"Weird one out"
β Forgetting one's true self to find friendship.
There's something so sad about being alone, for the sole reason that you were different. You just can't seem to fit in, you try to blend in, compete in competitions to be seen, butt into group discussions, and replacing your humor and true self to be seen, heard, and most importantly; to avoid being left out.
"You're weird."
They laugh at you, of course as a joke. They think you're quirky, a bit out of place, and awkward. You're funny to them, you're finally seen, but as a joke. It's a bitter moment for you but that's okay, it really is. It's okay because they're friendly now, right? You're their friend now, you're a part of them, all you have to do is to be funny because that's what they want from you. You need to act on this comedic persona so you'll finally have friends, don't worry they'll eventually see who you truly are once they're comfortable with you.
But they don't.
Who the hell are you kidding? You're just a casual friend to themβ no, you're just an acquaintance. Oh well, you'll find other groups to try and fit in, and then you did! The kids behind class are just as quirky as you so that means they'll understand, right? With the first few you weren't so lucky but this time is different. They're different, just like you.
But they don't like you.
You don't exactly fit their archetype of what is "quirky". Unfortunately you don't fit the aesthetic they were hoping for. Even to the smaller groups you don't fit in, because they've made up their minds on who and what they are as a person. They don't know the true you since you put up too many faces to hide what's beneath, you're weird not because you're you, but because you don't even know who you are anymore.
Everyone knows you differently, in the pursuit to find companionship you've created too many faces for only one body. Which one is your true face? Do you even know yourself anymore?
It's so lonely out here.
I love journaling so much my fav moment of the day. but I definitely need f1 stickers β οΈ I WANT PHOTOS OF CARLOS AND SEB π€π©
first hiking of the year
January 3, 2021 β Wilmer Edson
First of all I wanted to let you know that if you are reading these words I have to congratulate you for having survived this year full of "adventures".
I also have to say that this year I have a greater commitment to create more content, both written and photographs, and why not some video as well.
And finally here are my first photos of this year. It was an incredible morning to be able to enjoy the views from the mountains in Navarra.
I hope you enjoyed.
Navarre β Spain
SONY Alpha 5000
Instagram: wilmeredson
the Enchanted Forest
December 3, 2020 β wilmer Edson
In this post there is little to tell in words and much to show through the lens of my camera. So I hope with all my heart that you enjoy the small landscapes of an "enchanted forest" in the region of Navarra - Spain.
Navarre β Spain
SONY Alpha 5000
Instagram: wilmeredson
A masterful drink
November 12, 2020 β Wilmer Edson
Several weeks ago my wife and I decided to go collect Sloes to make homemade PacharΓ‘n. It is a tradition that I have been doing in recent years, it always makes me happy and I am excited.
What I usually do is go to the forests every week to see how the Sloes are maturing, but this year I could not do it since I had to resolve many issues and did not have the necessary time. But this time it was a bit late to find many Sloes, many of them were out of season. But thank God we were able to find enough to make a few bottles of PacharΓ‘n.
Yes, PacharΓ‘n with beer is one of my favorite alcoholic beverages. I love it because it has the perfect sweetness along with the necessary degree of alcohol, 28 degrees to be exact. If you live in Europe, it will be very easy to prepare this delicious drink, since this area of ββthe world is where the sacred fruit of the Sloe is found.
For the preparation of Pacharan it is very important to find the largest sloes and this is done in late September or early October, it is very important to control where there are sloes in the forest and visit frequently when they are ready. To know that the sloes are ready, you have to try them, if they are sour you still need time, but if they are sweet they are ready for harvest. I emphasize that it is very important that they are the largest as they will provide more flavor and aroma to the PacharΓ‘n.
When we already have the Sloes we have to wash them to remove all the impurities they may have, we do not want it to influence the taste of the drink. Fill a glass bottle one third with Sloes, then add the Aniseed with 28 degrees of alcohol to fill the bottle and cover it with a cork. And basically that would be all to do PacharΓ‘n.
It is important to know that you are not ready to enjoy it yet, since the drink has to be red. What we will do next is to rotate the bottle very carefully once a week for 3 to 4 months but nothing happens if it is done for 5 or 6 months. Finally, when the necessary time has passed, the Sloes will have to be removed and it is from this point where you can enjoy the magnificent PacharΓ‘n.
Whenever I make this drink, I find it something magical, as if I went back to the principles when we had to prepare things from scratch, where you would have to be patient to get good results. We can still go back to those times and learn that things are not born done but that we have to work to obtain the result.
Navarre β Spain
SONY Alpha 5000
Instagram: wilmeredson
October 10, 2020 β Wilmer Edson
Hunters forest
On Wednesday afternoon we decided to go to a hunting forest that we usually go to many times as we like it a lot. We went for a walk, take photos and collect Sloes.This forest is very close to home if you drive about 7 minutes. It has areas that strangely look like a jungle and others as if magical elves live there.
Like I said, we really wanted to collect Sloes and we did, although we couldn't find many. I plan to write in a next post about how to prepare homemade PacharΓ‘n (liqueur), it is something very easy to do.
Walking towards the search for Sloes, we realized how minimally we can notice how Autumn begins to change the color of the perishable leaves of the trees. For me it is a reflection that little by little everything will be "dead" and we will have to put hope again in our hearts to see the forest reborn again, I have always seen it as a very real hope year after year.
We were at the point that I like the most about this place, where you can be surrounded by mountains, mountains full of life and color (still). We were sitting on a small hill as it drizzled, observing the landscape, reflecting on what God has created. It was beautiful.
Finally we crossed a small stream, then we entered a path that looked like an entrance to a humid forest but I think we had that idea since there was a lot of fern (we love it).
We want to go back to this forest and see how little by little the leaves change color, more yellowish and reddish. And we hope that is very soon.
October 8, 2020 β Wilmer Edson
A short trip
Last Saturday we went to San SebastiΓ‘n to visit some friends and also to enjoy the city. Although we only went for one day we had a great time.Β
We were able to enjoy the road and the wonderful rainy day.Β Β When we arrived in San SebastiΓ‘n, the first thing we did was meet our friends. We were able to prepare a good meal and talk. As you can clearly see in the photos the weather was very crazy, it was windy and raining a lot, but despite that we wanted to walk with our umbrellas.Β
We went to see shops, to the cathedral and to walk to the beach. We went back to our friends' apartment to prepare a delicious Russian meal with my wife, unfortunately we didnβt take photos of the dinner or the food but everything was delicious.
It was a good day, a great short trip.
August 22, 2020 β Wilmer Edson
A little forest
Last Saturday we went to a forest about 19 kilometers from home located in the Imoz Valley. I'm still amazed at how wonderful places can be found in our region (Navarre). I have always been amazed by nature, many times I am speechless and wondering if it is really real or am I in one of the landscapes of The Lord of the Rings.
We had a great desire to see horses, in fact before leaving home we prepared some fruits to feed them. Unfortunately we did not find any horses, as is evident since there are no horses in any of the photos. But we saw a group of goats in the distance and also a small group of sheep, we did give them the apples that we had prepared. At first the sheep were shy, they probably would give them something bad.
Although we hadn't prepared anything for ourselves at home, we bought some crab sandwiches at the gas station that were delicious. Walking through the forest we find a spectacular place to enjoy our little snack. We sat under the shade of a fruit tree that gave us a perfect shade and through which you could feel the fresh air.
I am grateful that we don't have to travel that far to be surrounded by such beauty. Our Creator has painted it as a perfect picture to show us how great He is and we can enjoy what He has done.
August 16, 2020 β Wilmer Edson
The beginning
So here we start. A year ago I wanted to start with this little project for a website. A place to share about the places where I go, about what I keep learning about life and about my unshakable faith in God.
I see it very advantageous to have something like a diary on the web since it serves to unburden myself and at the same time show the world the interesting things (for me) that surround me. The idea of ββshowing the things that I observe through the eye of my camera, a Sony Alpha 5000 that has accompanied me in the last 5 years. This fills me with emotion. But not everything is in my camera, but also in the experiences that life has given me, sweet and sour, but ultimately experiences where I could learn something good.
I also love being able to share what I have been able to learn about God in the Bible, where I hope my faith grows stronger every day. I firmly believe that in God I can have a kind of inexhaustible, eternal joy, something that cannot be found in this perishable world. And without a doubt the text in the Bible that has helped me to delve into them is Psalm 16:11 where it says: βYou make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore β. To this day I have found nothing more satisfying than to understand this great truth.
As you can see in the photo, that is the place where I will spend some time working on this little personal project. I will try to be honest and to the best extent to be persistent without meaning to lose meaning. But obviously not everything stays here, my wife and I love to walk in the woods, go to the mountains and sometimes walk around town with some good fries potatoes.Β
I really hope that this stint on the web is a light for your life and that you can learn and appreciate the things that are really worth it.
if we're assuming that this page was written the morning after they defeated bill then happy 10 years of that triangle fuck being dead!! Woooooooooo!!!!!!
Music is the language of the spirit. It opens the secret of life bringing peace, abolishing strife.
Created this after a long time, definitely it was worth it β€οΈππ§Ώ
βHold fast to dreams, for if dreams die, life is a broken-winged bird that cannot fly.β
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