Latest Posts by jailposes - Page 4
Watching Euphoria last night with the homies until like 4 am that shit is hilarious đ why is everyone gay and toxic. ALSO THAT NIGGA NATE NEEDS TO FUCKING DIE BRO. FEZ HOLDIN IT DOWN GO WHITE BOY.
ordered a Large âITS LITâ with extra âSTRAIGHT UPâ on the side.
DIS SHIT FUCKED MY STOMACH UP BROZAY đ I AINT EAT FAST FOOD SINCE THE PANDEMIC STARTED
TRAVIS COME ON MANE *boosie voice*
(MORAL OF THE STORY: DONT TRUST A SOUL WHO EATS PICKLES)
ya boi stay cozy đđŸ
YO BADBADNOTGOOD AND KAYTRANADA REALLY SLID ON THIS BEAT đđ„
Dakota i love you bro. i miss you, nobody cares i miss you. idk how many years itâs been since youâve been gone. iâm just mad i was gone and never reached out enough just to see how you were doing. my greatest memory will forever be coming over your house and learning to play the bass a little bit. we only had a few lessons but for you iâm going to master the bass. Rest up buddy â€ïž
i draw energy from ascetics, word to God.
IM IN LOVE WITH THIS WOMAN. I COULDNT EVEN TELL YOU WHY. HOPEFULLY I CAN COLLABORATE WITH HER IN SOME WAY IN THE FUTURE.
Just need a moment to say Happy C Day and thank you to this man for everything heâs done. it was crazy to see your rise since 2010. The Hussle Way was the first song i ever heard from you and since then i was in it for life. TMC.
Literally RN.
I made this beat a couple days ago, i had no idea it was a J Dilla sample otherwise i wouldnât of touched this shit.
MOVING FORWARD IM ABOUT TO START SHARING MY LIFE MORE ON HERE. TO ANYONE PEEPING THANK YOU BUT YOUR SUPPORT WOULD BE MUCH MORE LOVED AND APPRECIATED. đ€
PROMOTING IS FUCKING DIFFICULT BY YOURSELF, I KNOW THERES ANOTHER WAY BUT I NEED HELP ANY IDEAS?
Righteous Justen - Who Got Next? (Produced + Directed By The 199x.)
1.20.19
Man life is fucking crazy. i think i need to start documenting my life more. i need a damn diary. i just want to share everything, every part of me. im so human. soooo soooo so human. its so hard for people to understand me, sometimes i feel people dont even try. I know everyone feels this way but it feels sooo much worse for me. All this shit thats happening and im experiencing its just like bro why is this shit happening to me? i dont get any of this. i just want love to be existent everywhere. what am i going to do? i feel like ive been so distracted from who i am and my purpose ive looked out the window when i should be looking straight ahead focused. i dont feel special anymore, i know i am but thats not enough ive realized. my physical being doesnât matter it doesnât mean anything. my spirit is my essence. why have i been so jaded by life? im so hurt. what do i do? how do i keep fighting. but Slipknot is playing in the background so i wont fall. im so fucking weak tho. my bestfriend has been missing for a week. its so weird. with all the relationships i have with my neighborhood friends and how different my relationship with each and every one of them is. Its so much pain behind my door. i just remember growing up with you and meeting you for the first time. when i let your brothers see my magazine but not you because i didnât know you yet. i had trust issues early bro im sorry for that day maybe thats why you snaked me so many times, haha. Â Man i love you even from moments that broke my heart, you never really remembered my birthday but you always a day or two off so man i love you for the constant effort every year, i remember trying to express my love for you with a handshake and a hug, i told you i loved you and you didnât say it back, but i know you love me bro i know you do, even the one time you almost called me your bestfriend, i still remember your voice i said you were my bestfriend and wanted to make it clear and you said i got you bro youre my bestfr.. and that was all i heard. i think the saddest part is werenât even kids maybe we were like 17? 18? shit maybe even 19. and ive known you since i was in 5th grade. ever since those moments i questioned if you were my bestfriend. i havenât really had one since you tbh. Â so i guess you really were my bestfriend. at the end of the day. its so surreal. idk if youre alive or not. you were such a great soul i hope god spares your soul. You got the whole city looking for you my guy and everyone has had nothing but good things to say about you. i know how tiring that is, so many people you showed love to. We really are the same lowkey im just a cooler version of you lol. man im dead inside without you. there just an absence of me. i just want to escape everything i just want to feel really good for once. my life is just kind of unstable. im not sure if all this is happening because im about to be someone important, i know God has to keep me within his arms, not within his reach, but his arms. i fail him every day. he still chose me, he still loves me. i still fight for him no matter what. no one will change that. i will not fight for anyone that thinks because theyâre above me in some sort of caliber i have to respect and fear them, save them so to speak. You cant do anything to me, period. i dont serve you, my destiny is not any mans hands and that will never change. everyday i wake up feeling like someone special, important, different, destined. but what am i really doing with myself. why am i so stupid, slow and lazy. im trying so hard but i aint trying at all. how crazy is that. idk how to educate people and put them on when they dont listen. you always gotta fucking prove something to people first and i guess thats why im chasing music right now. thats really my whole purpose for making music, for wanting to be in this industry. i got something to say. im not ready to be a leader or a king as was destined for me but i gotta fucking do the job. im sorry im crippled as fuck right now. i just really hope all the people that are by my side and join my side can and will stick by me no matter what. my heart is always in the right place, never forget that. and i wont either. everyone does dirt dont forget that. we can win but only together, i just hope i mean enough for you all to defend some day, when i need you the most, dead or alive. my hearts a little too big and im sure no one will be able t0\o understand what i truly mean. itâll always be an understatement because fuck niggas being using these words and phrases religiously but dont mean it and yet again another reason why you always gotta prove shit to people. nobody takes my word for my word. and yâall wonder why i dont speak often smh. anything that comes out of my mouth now i will always mean and stand by 100%. but niggas dont trust me, my own team dont even trust me entirely.
1.2.19
It is a new year, im not really sure how im feeling cause im kind of drunk right now, but im just chilling, waiting, i feel this year is going tp be very special, this year isnât even about me ive come to realize and accept that i have to do everything in my power to make sure that my guys make it. they are my mission i dont care exactly what happens to me but i just want my team, my guys to do everything they want, everything they dreamed of. i feel like ive been trusted and they put their future in my hands and ill do everything in my power to make sure they can do what they want, they are too talented too good, they honestly  are too good to have to settle for any of this shit, id hate myself if they didnât achieve everything they dreamed of. i love them with all of my friends, they parents even trust and love me, at least to an extent so i have to make sure they win, i have too. thats my goal this year to make sure my team is winning and is content with their lives and what they want. i really loe them got damn theses niggas are talented like honestly. they gotta make it, even if its before i do. ill do whatever i can for these guys i just hope they trust me but ill prove myself i hope they see it. but anyways as for mw. this is the year i know it, i feel it, ive been waiting for this, nothing will come in between us or my mindset for this year, FGod has built me up and made me so strong, even mentally. i love these guys honestly. damn i cant stop thinking about them. i care for these dudes too much Jaylen you got this i believe in you the most out of everyone you know? you are the key to greatness. you will play a huge impact in all of our lives. remember when we were at theBig E and this random girl asked who you were? and she swore on everything you were famous? ill never forget that day bro, thats how i knew you were everything. you are me bro, just a mini version and i love you bro please never stop. we can do this together, separate, it doesnât matter YOU can do it. YOU can really do it, youre mindset is beautiful you will be the greatest to ever do this shit no joke. Dayvi, i love you bro. you are the chosen one, Hod chose you bro, why you playing with your gifts? if i could just get you to take me serious bro, younger special why are you playing around with this music shit. i know you know how good you are soooo please bro just let me help you its all i care about. i want to protect you from all these distractions and fuck shit you got going on, but i cant. i know that. but im here for you through all this shit bro. just trust me please we can really do this shit, we just have to do it together. i need you on board you play such a huge part come on bro, help me out here. i love you tho. CURRENCY WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU BRO, WE NEED YOU TO BE GREAT THIS SHIT ISNT GOING TO HAPPEN WITHOUT YOU WE NEED YOUR IDEAS YOUR MIND YOUR GENIUS, COME BACK PLEASE. this is the year we follow God i need all of us to be on the same page. i want this year to be about us, we got this yâall just trust me. please. i cant beg enough. X i love you, youre on my mind everyday. i never met you, never knew you but its crazy how connected ive felt to you since you left us but i know you gave me your energy. i love you born love you, idk what you did to me or put in my spirit but i will carry on and live out your legacy. this year is our year i promise i know it. theres so much to reflect on and consider and think about. failure is not an option. what am i going to do if i cant everyone on the same page? this is our future, i see why God put me ahead shit is wild. but i accept this responsibility im not tripping about it anymore. i know a lot of lives are put into my hands but it depends on how i am personally. and im okay i swear i just need people to help keep me on track. where are my core supporters the people that actually love me and want to see me succeed. My success is your success. so please people help me. whoever is down for me? anybody? Brb.
12.12.18
Im not sure why life has been so crazy and out of hand lately. aside from all the bullshit tho my mom did tell me i was becoming a man for the first time in my life. that was cool. But after all the shit ive been through this past week i gotta be stronger. I gotta focus more. People are counting on me this time, i can feel it. Just the simple fact that these people trust me with their future just tells me i gotta go my hardest. this year is different. 2019. i feel stronger, taller, more grounded in who i am. people still judge me from the outside, my quiet side. the side that doesnât really talk to anyone because im uncomfortable. the part of me no one understands, the part of me that people believe is the only part of me. i just want to make better music. i need to create again. i need my crew. i love them niggas. i still feel lonely. currently having an oreo fetish please forgive me. i feel temptation creeping close. not that i can act on it anyways, but its there. i still know im not ready for the lifestyle i want to live. and i only say this because i dont want my significant other to suffer on my behalf. am i wrong? am i selfish? should i take time to figure out myself and what i want? i want her, thats no doubt. but will i get everything i need from her? idk. i cant help but feel this feeling in my heart. i just dont know what its telling me. what am i doing? im starting to see how great i am. legendary. its a lot of responsibility and thats why i gotta be on my shit. for my team, for my guys, my family, the people that wont leave my side no matter how much i fuck up. i do this for yâall, for us. its all love. i hope everyone is patient with me, give me a chance. maybe chances. im not perfect but being looked at like im perfect is stressful. any mistake i make people hold it and dont let go. its a gift and a curse. life so far. nigga honestly im just trying to go home. i need to build my foundation again. i need a clean fresh start if that makes sense. i havenât seen my mom in over a year. im scared what everyone is going to look like. fuck you JC whyâd you put that thought in my head. is my family scared to see me and vice versa? it doesnât matter. i love them. i love everyone who supports me. the fact youre even trying to read my thoughts is a surprise. how long should i keep this blog a secret? well its a not a secret my name is so easy to find lol. i still think about you everyday X. i hope youre in heaven i love you with my whole heart bro. im not sure why i have to carry your legacy but i will. idk how you took care of all these kids but ill do my best. your âchildrenâ as you called them lol. damn i miss you. everything i do i do for you. and God of course but that goes without saying. i will carry on what you started idc if i didnât know you. you left something with me, i felt it ever since you were gone. youre still the yin to my yang bro. idk why i feel so close to you but i got your back forever. forever. Bad Vibes Forever. i love how our group names are so similar. Rare Vibes Only + Bad Vibes Only. Fuck bro. i love you with all my heart my nigga. how am i gonna keep moving without you? seriously. i love you, i wish it was me rather than you. i just hope you can and god can guide me. i dont ever tell anybody how i feel about you. they dont understand its too close, too personal. you were a genius bro. i love you. i respect you. i wish we became friends. you were really a hero to these kids bro. 2019 is ours. just dont let me get lazy or unmotivated please.
When I fell asleep in all my clothes as a kid my mother would call it âready to rollâ.
10.28.18
Last week of school. Im embarrassed of my own mistakes. i never want to hurt you or anyone ever. yet im still not perfect. a lot of ego been coming into play and i realize its one thing that separates me from all these other guys. i also peeped im just getting older. these niggas gotta grow up and get they shit together. but so do i. everyone just so selfish i know im not the problem anymore. but god puts us insinuations for a reason maybe we are all just lessons for each other.pieces of a man just came out shit straight fire. tired of people putting me in a box musically. i gotta try harder. im walking away from hip hop for a while one day. im tired of my music having one label on it. if i go somewhere else wit it then maybe ill get my respect. i cant wait to leave AZ. ive been craving an areo blizzard from DQ, i hope Alexus takes us soon. i love you Melissa. Why is bianca back? its weird how i always get what i pray for, never within my timing tho. God moves funny. But i love him heâs my life. All heâs been showing me is how much ive grown and i cant stop thinking about how intone i am with him. he shows me so much, im so grateful. i want my hair to grow. i hope i dont have cancer. i hope this last week of school is nice and pleasant. idk why people assume everything. its so tiring. im on twitter too much, i hate reading peoples opinions so often. but i feel like i need to be in tune with the world. today X motivated me again to make music outside of my âgenreâ that arms around you is crazy, heâs so diverse. his goal is slowly becoming the same as mine. its like he knew what i was after this whole time. spoke to my mom today and sheâs content with not knowing her children she feels God will solve it all and she claims she doesnât know if itâll be in her lifetime that shit gets to know her children, why is she so ass backwards? its never to late. Sheâs just a quitter like everyone else. i cant teach them. they dont listen i just live and hope i can be a walking example one day. if only people could see whats inside my heart. still learning to work in environments that aren't fit for working in. I gave so much of myself this year.
10.20.18
Im tired, i want to brush my teeth. however i dont want to be home. this year has been crazy a lot of downs and a few ups. thank you to everyone who held me down this year. Melissa, Joel, Alexus, Elena, Roy, JC, Jaylen. Yâall deserve special shoutouts. You all have made my year worth it. As i get older im learning people make mistakes. People do things that arenât always good but these things are done without reason. I have made a list of mistakes this year and i can admit to that. The funny thing is its very hard for people to forgive. Most issues happen because of communication and thats fair. It happens. I feel like people assume more then they communicate. Im not sure why. Pride? anyways it doesnât matter. Its not about peoples actions its whats in peoples hearts that matter. Thatâll show peoples true colors. Either way im ready to get out of Arizona. Im in a very ugly situation and the people around me has given me no relieve from stress. I found a bike yesterday. I hope i didnât steal it, but it was definitely put in my path. Bike rides are actually therapeutic to me. I like feeling the wind and shit. Im not sure what i would do without the few friends that ive had this year. i know ive been acting and assuming that some people dont care about me and im sure they do but im getting older and i want to create my family. I need to know the people that are riding for me for forever. i hope i dont sound selfish. but i just need my foundation laid straight. im always down for friends. Next year will be my year. Much much love to Melissa. Not sure how i would breathe without youAlexus youre more than a lifesaver. Thanks for being my greatest friend out here, i hope i taught you some things. i really hope i can get my group in action again. we need each other i know it.