Latest Posts by sadjapes - Page 4

“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.”

— Maya Angelou

It is okay to make mistakes. You are going to fail at times in life, and that is okay. That is part of existence. You make a mistake and life will continue on. You are not defined by your mistakes.

If I follow you and you're uncomfortable with it you're free to block me.

“Stop justifying, defending, and explaining yourself. If something is correct for you, move forward with confidence.”

— Unknown

Having a traumatic childhood means you cannot talk even objectively about your basic foundational experiences without it being "venting", even if you're not actually venting. You just straight up have a huge chunk of your life you can't talk about, full stop, without it being trauma dumping.

And it not being socially acceptable to talk about your own childhood is super alienating. Sometimes people want to know why, and any answer you can give them is going to be off putting.

It's to the point I get irritated when something I said is framed as venting when I'm literally just talking about my life experiences, doing my best to keep emotion out of it.

I talked about my past again but this time to my Free Company in FFXIV and I'm nervous because I'm afraid I killed the chat or made people not want to respond or talk to me at all.

You deserve to not be in pain

Never really held fast to this but I do now because it's just how it is.

Aro/Ace. He/They.

Me after thinking about something for three day straight: it… really isn’t that serious

Occasionally, it hits me that I can just disappear. I can be whoever I want to be. Whatever I've told people, whatever anyone knows of me can all be history. I can move on and become a totally different person if I wanted to. Anyone can. I think that's what's so scary.

"this too shall pass" well can it fucking get on with it

reading old messages is really fucked up because you see things and you’re like i would not fucking say that

Will you commit to this path?

Drawing using both my tablets today until I get better at using my tablet with a screen on it.

Having delusions today. I won't let them win.

“Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than to hurt yourself trying to put them back together.”

— Unknown

I was debating whether to post this one or not, but I suppose it isn't too bad

I used to say I was a void person but not so much anymore and I used to feel like I shouldn't take up space or exist at all but now not so much. Being terrible at communicating sucks though. I used to have wit and charm and good looks but I'm just rotting away. I'm giving myself till 35 to pick up the pieces and improve but I doubt it'll go anywhere successful.

Socially I've ruined myself by being insane and having bpd like symptoms and now I'm just rotting inside while snacking like crazy and I'm not sure how you're supposed to be after electroshock therapy but I'm definitely not the same anymore. I can't hold conversations or anything like that without them being horribly awkward.

It's so easy to accidentally reblog on mobile.

“Whatever you do, good or bad, people will always have something negative to say.”

— W.H. Auden

I went insane for a little while there and let the delusions win. Now I'm doing better.