Yes! I’m Spiraling Deeper! For Some Reason It Makes Me Think That By Getting Worse I Will Magically

my parents were warning me about the dangers of malnutrition. at dinner. i just wanna eat my noodles ugh. i couldnt even stomach the rest of it. im so tired and its hard to breathe. doctor appt soon at least :') im screwed if its not my low blood pressure causing these problems, im worried my parents will freak fml. i just gotta make it to the end of the year

yes I will in fact romantize my ed, because if I posted about real ed experiences, like being constipated for 3 days and then have di4rrh34, no one would like my blog.

I don't wanna hear how hard your eating disorder is, you've barely done anything, you're still just as big as when you "started", we all know you're pretending

ur daughter is not fine she’s on ed tumblr in 2022.

I’m brainrotted. ITS NOT FUNNY!!!!!!!!!!!

🦋🦋🦋

Remembering c/s exists when your balls deep in junk food cravings is like the lord himself smiles upon you

I’ve been wayyy overcomplicating my diet so I may just simplify it to just having tea for lunch and whatever my family have for dinner

Like, this system worked for me in my honeymoon phase, and tbh it’s too hard to keep track of my plan when I eat during the day

Anyway! I think I’ll start to track a food diary and stats here too. Hopefully I’ll be on here more when I can use my laptop!!!

Weight - 58.1 😵‍💫

Fast - 18:02

Steps - 1762 👎

LUNCH

- Black Tea w/ milk (9 cal)

DINNER

- 3 x Mexican chicken tortilla wraps (~612 cal)

EXCESS

- Earl Grey Tea w/ milk (7 cal)

- Mint gum (26 cal)

TOTAL // ~654 cals

Bit embarrassed about how much I ate at dinner, but I guess thats why I’m posting here for accountability (and why I need to do OMAD). I did feel dizzy today which was good I guess

My psychiatrist deadpan staring at me as I try to tell her why baking as a hobby means I don't have an eating disorder

My last couple of weeks: