Actually Bipolar - Blog Posts
I have this really bad problem of constantly acting how other expect. This is currently an issue bc when I met my friends I was in a manic phase (bipolar) and am currently in a more down area. So not only do I have to overreact and be hypher around them, this bleeds over to my personal life. I'm typically a very introverted person with a few exceptions, but I have to act happy to talk to them an it so annoying! Like bro jst let me be emo :( bc my preferred style is earthy yet kind of emo, yk like therian kind of style. But I allso dress scenmo on occasion so I'm jst pretending like that's my mane style bc that's what they expect!
"The way you talk sounds like you don't respect me!"
1: I don't
2:autism
Trying to not to be afraid of this energy. One of the days when I feel sorry for myself. Sigh.
my body is tired.
my mind is cruel.
i don’t know which one will win.
how unfortunate it is that love doesn’t find you worthy enough to even give you a chance, as if even heartbreak is a privilege you are denied
- shya via yousmellofstorms
cant tell if i just finally have motivation to do things or if im entering a (hypo)manic episode
what if i just never took my medication again
I don't wanna take these meds
this mood disorder is indeed disordering my mood
it being dark before 6pm might be my final boss actually
I'll constantly see people list of disorders that cause psychosis and talk about how they're highly stigmatized and somehow they never ever mention bipolar disorder? ever? and it's almost certainly because people online tend to have this perception of bipolar as the "socially acceptable sad happy disease" and it is not. it is just not. bipolar disorder is so incredibly stigmatized and its symptoms go so much deeper than just "sad and happy"
did you know bipolar causes psychosis?
do you know what mania actually is? (hint: it's not "extremely happy"!)
did you know bipolar causes hypersexuality?
did you know bipolar causes aggression?
did you know bipolar causes generally socially unacceptable behavior?
did you know bipolar people are more likely to kill themselves in a manic episode than in a depressive episode?
did you know bipolar causes a thousand other highly stigmatized symptoms?
did you know that after my bipolar disorder diagnosis people started gossiping about how I was "unstable" and therefore "untrustworthy" and I was "erratic" and "a liability"? would you guess that these things were said by a progressive activist group who were "anti-ableism"? does this all sound like an destigmatized mental illness to you?
does it????
if I gain one more pound on this zyprexa I'm gonna snap
I'm so sad my bones ache....
got put on olanzapine...
if one more person tells me I'm stable when on abilify I haven't cried or felt excitement in MONTHS I'm gonna snap shut UP
I really have to take this medication for forever huh.....
Respect psychotic folk!!!
respect psychotic folk by not assuming they're automatically dangerous or hostile.
respect psychotic folk by not feeding into and/or confirming their delusions/hallucinations.
respect psychotic folk by not calling strangers "delusional" when they disagree with you.
respect psychotic folk by not pseudo-diagnosing criminals as psychotic with barely any evidence.
respect psychotic folk by not interacting with "schizoposting" posted by non-schizo specs.
respect psychotic folk by not showing them potentially paranoia-triggering memes.
respect psychotic folk by not interacting with memes that make fun of the psychotic experience.
respect psychotic folk by realizing that none of the things listed are too much to ask for, and that it takes no effort from your side to not be sanist.
"I know someone else with this disorder and they're nothing like you!!!"
Maybe that's because we're entirely separate fucking people who have lead different lives, are at different points in our life, and literally have different brains, not because I don't actually have the disorder.
