What the hell noone told me losing weight is so addictive. I can already feel my hipbone and ribs so much????
I stayed home, just like yesterday and this pressure of not putting in enough steps for me to feel comfortable was getting too much so I decided go use the treadmill and walk on it for an hour and 50 minutes. It was so good honestly, in the confinement of my own home, comfortable and quiet while I can do whatever as I walk and I don't need to look out for people I would bump into or cars that could hit me.
Sadly as much as I promised myself to eat as little as possible when mom came home, saying she bought some cookies and sweets I caved. I may have mentioned this, I am not one to crave sweet things, especially if it's sticky, full of cream and sugar. Yeah, well to my misfortune everything she brought home was notjing of sort, so I indulged. Lavender cookies, snow crescents, small piece of bundt cake and gingerbread macaroons. I could look for a basic recipe but I doupt I could calculate the correct estimate of calories.
I try not to dwell, thoughts of simply not listing these down had ran through my mind but I would be only lying to my own self.
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➀ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal
➁ Pickwick green tea 250ml (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0 cal
➀ Hell energy drink 250ml (lemon & ginger) - 118 cal
➁ Green apples 326g - 189 cal
➂ Eggs 130g - 186 cal
Water - 1,6l/2l
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Steps - 11781/10000 - 476 cal
Exercise - No - 0 cal
Broke my 60 hour fast with some tuna today. (To be honest I don't remember what exactly I wanted to note down, because I am writing this on the 13th so im sorry)
I really want to restrain myself from snacking on things while I cook and/or bake, because I ate so many seedless cherries, what wouldn't be a problem, but they were kept in a sugary water that preserves the cherries for longer and ugh. I don't even know how I should estimate that.
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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal
➀ Pickwick green tea 250ml (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0 cal
➀ Tuna with tomatoes - 157 cal
➅ Shrimp chips 13g - 45 cal
➀ Cinnamon roll - 199 cal
➃ Choco-coconut balls - 431 cal
Water - 1,7l/2l
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Steps - 6953/10000 - 281 cal
Exercise - No - 0 cal
I started my red days today and feel really poopie right now. Fortunately we have strong medicine for cramps at home so I will live. I fasted down the weight I put in during the weekend but now I have a feeling that it may or may not have been because of the approach of my period. It doesn't really matter.
Been craving garlic cream soup for a while now, but since its a cream soup I'm sure it's full of unnecessary calories that I don't need rn. Plus I would be too lazy to cook it so im better off fasting.
My sister asked me if I wanted to try her lavender green tea she bought and I was stupid enought to put some sugar substitute (0 cal) and a bit of lemon juice in it, even though I am used to drink plain tea.
Also I have been thinking that I should start working out but I really hate the feeling of sweat on my body, so I'm gonna look for something that is not too tiring for the mornings and not too time consuming.
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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal
➀ Pickwick green tea 250ml (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0 cal
➀ Lavender green tea 450ml - 0 cal
Water - 1,7l/2l
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Steps - 6953/10000 - 281 cal
Exercise - No - 0 cal
Been fasting all day, yippee! It was really cold today and had to wear a sweater and a jumper over it and both of them felt looser.
Tomorrow will be a bit warmer fortunately, but overall I am glad that autumn is finally showing up, even though it was kinda late this year.
I also went shopping with mom and I saw so so SO many nice knitted sweaters. I always like just trying clothes on or just looking at the colors, feeling the fabric, trying to find the best kind of material. I uses to buy XXL clothes to feel comfortable in, to feel that they are lose on my body. This time I bought an XL and it felt loose and comfortable, even though I only lost 5kg so far.
I also bought hairdye with my classmate and dyed my hair from a poopie blonde and greenish blue to a color that matches Hatchi's haircolor. My ends stayed a lilac color because the blue stained my hair pretty bad, but it's fine because I will dye my hair until it fades or comes out.
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➀ Plain black coffee - 0 cal
➀ Pickwick green tea 250ml (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0 cal
Water - 1.2l/2l
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Steps - 11499/10000 - 462 cal
Exercise - No - 0 cal
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Unfortunately I did not finish my fast, nor did I held back on "binging". I went out with my friends and slept over at my best friend's house who kept feeding me because she doesn't want me to be hungry even tho I told her that I am not, then when her mother came home she made sure I ate again so yes.
I appreciate them, because they are so nice and caring, but how can I keep up my plans if they want to disrupt it along with my family.
Fortunately I am home and tomorrow is monday. I forgot to buy a pass for trams so I will be walking everywhere this month, whether I like it or not.
I'd like to get better, as in try not to beak fasts because I have a sudden urge to binge or because I crave something, or because of family. Sure there are instances when you simply just cannot refuse because it would be suspicious.
Anyhow, this week was kind of a failure, but it's fine. I try and that matters. I reached my first gw this week, even though the weekend made me gain 1.5kg back, so that was one success.
For the next upcoming week, I wanna loose at least what I gained back, then 2kg more. That is what seems realistic as for now.
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As happy as I was in the morning, I broke my fast of 42 hours because of a bowl of pasta and few pieces of broccoli. Then later my mom informed me that we are having pizza for dinner, even tho I deliberately asked her not to tempt me and allow me to get weak when I say I crave a certain thing.
In the end it was fine, I restarted my fast an hour or two later and now I am fasting through friday and the majority of saturday.
I am still really weak when it comes to certain food and that's fine. I know that my willpower is not the best but it's getting better.
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➀ Plain black coffee - 0 cal
➂ Slices of pizza - 612 cal
➀ Spagetti pasta and broccoli with thousand island dressing and hot sauce 225g - 272 cal + 108 cal
➀ Hell energy drink 250ml (ginger & lemon) - 47 cal
Water - 1,7l/2l
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Steps - 8335/10000 - 335 cal
Exercise - No - 0 cal
I JUST REACHED MY FIRST GW!!!! AAAAA
I am 24 hours (I am logging this the next day on the 5th, but once 10pm hit on the 4th it was the 24 hour mark) in my fast and so far I am feeling well! I cooked risotto for my family today and it was so tempring to eat but i needed to steel myself. Been craving garlic cream soup tho all week ao far and maybe next week I will make some.
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➁ Plain black coffee - 0 cal
➁ Pickwick green tea (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0 cal
Water - 2.3l/2l
Full - 0 cal
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Steps - 8284/10000 - 334 cal
Exercise - No - 0 cal
Burned - 334 cal
I noticed yesterday that creame colored flare jeans were looser on me than last time and I am really happy.
Same with my mom fit kinda jeans and my fave pink sweater. It is exhilarating to notice these things.
Fasting through the day didn't happen because I binged lmao. Not with some really tempting food but with fish and eggs because they are my safe food and I like them a lot LOT, so I just couldn't help myself. I also realized that I quite like carbonara too even though for long I just couldn't even eat it because of the "weird" (at least for me it was) taste. Kinda ashamed, but as long as I stay under 1200 cals in the end (with how much I burnt) I am content.
Today was a long ass day too and I am exhausted. I made a promise to myself that I am fasting through tomorrow and the day after, plus my best friend is coming home this weekend and I need to prepare to hang out and drink with her, so three day fast it is.
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➃ Fish and eggs sandwiches - 576 cal
➀ Hell energy drink (lemon & ginger) - 117 cal
➀ Choccochino (200ml) - 117 cal
➂ Pickwick green tea (250ml) (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0 cal
➀ Small bowl of carbonara (220g) - 437 cal
Water - 1.5l/2l
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Steps - 7868/10000 - 316cal
Exercise - No - 0 cal
I ate only this morning and fasted the whole day. Tomorrow is another sucky one because I accompany mom to her work place then go to school so she will ask me to bring something and knowing myself I will eat it probably, but let's hope for the best!
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➁ Apples (211g) - 110 cal
➀ Black coffee with ice - 0 cal
➀ Tuna-egg-mayo sandwich - 280** cal
➀ Pickwick green tea (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0cal
Water - 3l/2l
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Steps - 8510/10000 - 346 cal
Exercise - No - 0 cal
*edit - math is not my strong suit and i added the tomorrow's sandwich's stats too...
**edit 2 - I forgot that I need to count in percentage when I multiply (my last math lesson was 2 years ago)
Mom told me I am getting super skinny 🥰🥰
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♡ Via/Anonyma
♡ 20 years old
♡ 5'4 - 165 cm
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₊˚⊹♡ hw: 187 lbs - 85 kg
₊˚⊹♡ 1st gw: 165 lbs - 75 kg - REACHED on OCT. 5
₊˚⊹♡ 2nd gw: 154 lbs - 70 kg - REACHED on DEC. 6
₊˚⊹♡ 3rd gw: 143 lbs - 65 kg
₊˚⊹♡ 4th gw: 132 lbs - 60 kg
₊˚⊹♡ 5th gw: 121 lbs - 55 kg
₊˚⊹♡ 6th gw: 110 lbs - 50 kg
₊˚⊹♡ ugw: 100 lbs - 45 kg
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I play games like resident evil, dmc, metal gear, but I also like watching anime and cartoons.
Looking for moots and friends to interact with! ₊ ⊹