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Parents: "Why aren't you eating?"

Also them:

"You'd look better if you lost weight"

"You're the heaviest in the family"

"Jesus, why are you eating so much"

"Your thighs are so big"

"How much do you weigh? You look so big"

"I was way smaller when I was your age"

"You eat like a grown man"

"Maybe if you ate less your skin would be clearer"

Irl meanspo fr

Do you really want that pizza or do you want to look good?

I love the feeling when my stomach hurts from starving <3

I found some more portion control/foodspo

I hate that I recovered, I was so thin and lovely back then. I stopped being afraid of food and became overweight, I look so ugly. This time I will do better, I will become even thinner. People keep commenting how much bigger I am now and it's giving me the motivation to starve.

My home is empty so pls reblog if you are an active blog in march/april 2023

Gothic thinspo

My personal rules:

Only light snacks after 7pm

Absolutely no food after 9pm

You're not hungry, you're bored

Drink spirits instead of beer, it makes you fat

No sugar allowed

No potatoes

No bread

If you crave it, chew it up and spit it out

Use a smaller plate

Who needs breakfast anyway?

Want some food? Go smoke a cig

Split what you're eating onto several plates, it will trick your brain and the people you live with will think that you're eating more than you actually are

Always eat in your room

day twenty one

im typically XS or S but i dont look like an XS or S bc my arms and face are really chubby

day nine

yes, i always got small comments about my weight from friends and family plus im asian and the weight standards are very harsh. ive never been overweight, but not eating gives me control and im so sick of being average in everything

I’ve binged so much this week, I feel s!ck. I can’t control it either, I always eat too much or too little and I hate it. I feel like such a pig and I’ve gained back all the weight I lost.

im getting so fat again, time to go on a diet 🎀 im going to try not to eat tomorrow, but I have sports so praying I don’t faint

What apps can I use to track things like fasting, weight loss and calories?

I gained a bunch of weight in the summer and I need to lose it bc I actually look disgusting now and I need a good tracking app if anyone knows one 🎀

BTW I talk about eating, and some gross stuff but not eating gross things

I ate good today :3

Yesterday I ate my only safe food fried rice at a certain restaurant and I ate it all!!! I didn’t even feel sick except a teeny tiny bit in my face cheeks, but I didn’t overeat or under eat wooo

Today I ate almost all my spaghetti! I was so happy, and I don’t think I overate but I’m not sure yet. I feel more sick than yesterday, but I’m just gonna keep telling myself I didn’t overeat to make sure my mind doesn’t make me puke. I shouldn’t though that rarely happens

I love accidentally starving myself. :). Life is so easy now that i am recovering from accidentally starving myself. :).

i need new low cal recipes i’m getting tired of the ones i have :/

"Are you okay? I noticed that you lost weight..."

Maybe, my weight is a dream for someone, but I think that I'm fat. I weigh only 46, but I still think that I'm fat. I want to lose 6 kg, and I don't really care that these workouts are exhausting. I wanna be skinny, and I'll do it, and I don't care if it's unhealthy. I want to eat only 500 calories a day, or at least 800, because 1000 is too much. I wanna do 5 workouts today and I already did two. I want to be skinny – I will be skinny.

Diet culture is so fucking disgusting. I'm googling recommended calories intakes trying to figure out how short I'm falling and every fucking website I'd want to use to calculate how many calories I really need is all fucking "CALORIE DEFFICIANT!!! LOOSE WEIGHT FAST" "RECOMMENDED CALORIES TO LOSE WEIGHT" "CALORIE WEIGHT LOSS CALCULATOR"

If I lose any more, I'm gonna be having fainting spells and shit. I'm literally eating an 8th of what I should be. I love being a chef, but it doesn't leave much room to really enjoy any food.

My face is way too skinny, I'm all sunken and shit. I'm cold all the time, I'm bitchy and I'm constantly exhausted. And I'm so anxious about how little I eat it's stopping me from eating. My house is full of food, but there's no dishes, and im too tired to clean anything. And being that this is America all my food is fuckin garbage anyway, none of it has real nutrients or shit.

I'm literally crying cause ive lost so much weight and I don't know how to replace it. I'm gonna have to overhaul my entire lifestyle to accommodate more meals and build habits and it just sounds like so much fuckin work.

Everyone wants what they don't have, I guess.

SAVE ME

my mom is forcing me to eat...i really dont want to...i feel so disgusting

healthy lifestyle!

I haven't eaten anything today..and now I'm drinking my third coffee...i feel shitty aaaa

I need to lose 4 kilos.....but its so hard oh my god...

help i feel like im gonna pass out

i haven't eaten a proper meal in a long time....i feel sick and my body is so weak,I tried to eat because my mom forced me to, but I almost threw up

dinner?

WARNING:

POOR EATING HABITS, PURGING MENTIONS

Man I am so not ready for tomorrow, Thursday, or any day for that matter.

Because of Thanksgiving coming up and my family of course being holiday people, I have to start preparing for people coming over.

The thing is that I don’t want to do anything. Like I’d rather die than do the simplest things like put away my baskets of washed clothing or tune up my bathroom.

If I do the simplest thing I’ll explode, crash and burn. I’ll disintegrate like a vampire in sunlight.

I can’t even bother to be happy about Thanksgiving itself for the food because I hate eating as of recently.

I feel guilty every time I eat and like I wanna purge it all out if I feel like I’ve eaten too much. I’ve been starving myself to the point that I start getting all shaky and paranoid.

I don’t wanna bother acting happy for all my family and friends coming over because I’m so done with people. I feel so disconnected from everyone that I sometimes wonder if this life I’m living is real and mine.

I just hate everyone and everything.. I wish I didn’t exist as a person and as something akin to Lain Iwakura. Just silently watching people.

WARNING:

POOR EATING HABITS

So I just wanted to share an experience I had not that long ago.

Some context: Until 8PM or so, I didn’t eat anything since 3PM or somewhere along that time period. I was eating under my calorie intake recently so I was happy about that because it meant that I had some self control.

Here’s the catch.

I was grocery shopping with my parents and I felt a little lightheaded and had a headache. I also was kind of jittery and tired.

My mom noticed I was looking shaky and asked me what’s up and I told her about everything, she said it was likely a low sugar intake.

Even after I rushed to buy and eat some stuff, I still felt jittery and anxious and light.

If I’m honest, I don’t know how to feel about this

On one hand I’m embarrassed and ashamed, but on the other hand I just can’t get myself to care, because in my head I’d rather die than gain any more weight than I already have.

And it’s true.

I would rather die than be fat & overweight forever.

It’s one of the worst things I’ve had to deal with and I would do anything to have my ideal body type.

And by anything, I’d mean ANYTHING.

WARNING:

SH + STARVING

It wasn’t even worth the trouble. I feel nothing. All that it did was leave an ugly mark and leave a burning sensation.

Fuck I’m such a hideous thing. These scars make it even worse.

I wish I was thinner and flatter and prettier and had a nice smile and didn’t have this goddamn lazy eye everytime I take a photo.

I wish I didn’t have to resort to doing this to feel something good and relieving because nothing feels like it’s working anymore.

I don’t even know if I wanna eat rn. My parents are calling for dinner and I’m hungry but I’m so desperate to lose weight. I’ll do anything at this point.

I just wish I was born a different person.

Gotta love it when you try to cheer yourself up only to feel worse by proxy of being an insecure bitch.

I’m watching food shows to get rid of my boredom but I just feel guilty because I feel like I ate too much..(I literally just had dinner)

I’m counting my calories atm and it feels like one too much for just being afternoon. Last time I checked I did lose some weight but it just wasn’t enough for me. I need to lose like 200+ pounds more.

I want so desperately to be able to fit into size L clothes like I used to but I have the self control of a literal toddler. I’m hella scared for when my DearMyLove buys get here because what if I wasted my moment just for it to be ill-fitting?

They say to be proud of who you are but I hate being plus size so damn much.😒