Depressing Shit - Blog Posts
I dont ⭐ve just because I hate myself.
I ⭐ve because my grief does the eating for me.
Again
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if you guys AT ALL enjoy using the internet whether it's for news, entertainment, or communication purposes there is a bill floating around right now that has a good possibility of being passed that will influence the way we ALL use the internet. this bill is called KOSA and it presents itself as "kids online safety act" but in reality it is and will try to sensor SO much important information out there about LGBTQ+, POC communities, feminism and women's rights, and so much more. the bill targets mainly people under 17 but this bill will affect adults too. your favorite social media and websites will become highly cleansed from anything the government deems as "dangerous" to children online. one of the ways they are trying to ensure kids aren't accessing content that is "dangerous" enforces EVERYONE to upload private information or a photo of your ID to access social media apps and websites. IF YOU CARE AT ALL ABOUT PROTECTING FREE SPEACH ON THE INTERNET AND THE WAY WE USE IT TO COMMUNICATE PLEASE HELP ENSURE THAT THIS BILL DOES NOT PASS.
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Life got so bad I am actually considering getting help
“Do what you can, but nothing will take your pain away when you realize you're not truly loved by anyone.”
hearing your parents talk about future plans, knowing you probably won’t be here anymore
every day repeats and nothing gets better
I never feel happier
I'm trapped in an endless cycle of feeling nothing and achieving nothing in my life
laying in bed at night knowing she doesn't miss me as much as i miss her
she doesn't cry every night, begging for it to end
she doesn't lash out at everyone around her because she's so upset and angry with the world
she isn't in therapy because we're not friends anymore
She doesn't want me back and she never will
I am grieving the living more than I am grieving the dead
I cry over people who don't even think about me anymore
And it hurts knowing they will never want me back
me for the next 97 days without f1
- thinks I might be genderfluid in high school
- wears multiple sports bras at a time in an attempt to bind bc my chest bothers me so much
- gets laughed at when I tell my then boyfriend
- drops it for several years and becomes as girlie as possible
- comes out as enby at 23
- still experiencing awful gender dysphoria
- starts questioning if I’m trans
- spends hours every night explaining to myself why that can’t possibly be it and what would happen if I transitioned
- boyfriend makes jokes about how he knows I wish I had a p****
- is so incredibly dysphoric and stressed that others start to notice but there’s no one to talk to not really
In my annual depression crying rn
🪼Blog Intro🌴
TW- mention of 3d and $h
Hey guys! My name is Laylani. I live in America and I am in school. This is my 3d blog and I might mention $h a bit too. The 3d I have is 4n4 and it’s really hard to deal with tbh. My aesthetic is coconut or beach girl. I will update my stats on this post frequently.
Height (might change)- 5,2.5
SW- 112 p0unds
CW- 112 p0unds
Crying and wondering why my mom picks my toxic dad over me. ):
My dad wanted me aborted. Sometimes I'm sad he failed at that.
Quite a few actually
You deserve a bong hit today. 💨
When I say I'm "Okay" or that I'm "Fine." I dont mean it. The moment I start texting like I'm spaced tf out is when it should click that I'm not okay. I want you to ask what I think, I want you to ask how I really feel, I want you to put as much effort as I do into this relationship. Platonic or not. I've had so many lessons as to why I shouldn't put my energy into someone that wont give it back. Yet when you showed up and i saw how compassionate you were i thought "Maybe this time will be different." Yk what my safe space is? My safe space is being on the roof of a skyscraper on a warm springs night, 1-4 am with light breezes every once in awhile. With my favorite songs humming in the background while I stare at the stars, being so high up that the light pollution doesn't get to cover the beauty of the nights sky. And I just get to stand there in awe as I stare into the sparkling hopeful balls of light knowing that they are so underappreciated and so beautiful. Just like how I have stared into your eyes hoping I could have had a chance when I knew I never would... but then again, you wouldn't know about that, because you never bothered to ask me that same question.
TW: GORE, SELF HARM
Don't worry, I'm doing better now!
someday
happiness isn't something i get often and more than likely I'm sad or empty feel on the inside sometimes i feel like make i just don't deserve happiness. then i see my cat doing random shit and i remember that one day, someday, i'll feel happy too
Every second I only want to spend it with you, they feel like a waste if you're not by my side.
I'm mad at her. I'm mad at him. I'm mad at them. I'm mad at everyone. I'm mad because of everyone. I'm mad at everything, every single thing. I'm mad at myself. I'm insanely mad.
In a romantic way
All I want is love, to feel loved
