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I wish i could fast for days and be able to survive on 200-500 cal each day like other people do:((

update: i overate like a mf today so gonna try to purge when i get home.

ugh i'm so stuffed from thanksgiving. it was at my aunts so i couldn't really purge but i did a tiny bit. gonna try to purge when i get home because i hate the feeling of being full.

happy thanksgiving! tried not to get too much, just a little taste of everything. it was soooo delicious oh my gosh i love food sm.

hello lovelies! today is thanksgiving and i'm so scared because i have to eat so much. if i eat hardly anything then my family will get worried that im not eating again (which they'd be right but i don't want them to know!!). i'm at my aunts house but im still gonna try to purge as much as i can because im finally at my lowest weight (158lbs or 71kg which is still huge but im so proud of how much i've lost!). a lot of people my height (5'7/5'8ish) weigh what i weigh and they look skinny but the way that i carry my weight makes me look like a whale. i carry most of it in my hips and ESPECIALLY my thighs oh my fucking gosh i just look massive.

hi guys update!! went to the doctor again and the same scale gave me ANOTHER different number. my scale says 165, tuesday the dr scale said 176, thursday it said 171!! i didn't lose weight and i was wearing basically the same outfit so WTF!!!

i'm actually gonna cry bc i think my scale is broken. i went to the doctor today and when they weighed me it was TEN POUNDS MORE than what my scale says. ik damn well i did not gain ten pounds overnight SO WTF!!!!

planning to liquid fast for as long as I physically can

~Wieiad~

10•21•24

Breakfast:

• ?g cashews - ~175c

Total: ~175

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~My friend got trail mix this evening and we had been hanging out all day so I took some cashews to not raise suspicion but I really wish I wouldn’t have T . T Ik it wasn’t 200c so I’m not too upset about it ig but my fast is ruined now :C

I wasn’t planning on fasting tomorrow but I might now..tbd..

~Wieiad~

10•20•24

Breakfast:

• 27g Mini Blueberry Protein Bar - 104c

• 3 Unsalted Rice Cakes - ~125c

• 12g Chopped Dates - 39c

• 31g Caramel Rice Cakes - 119c

• Vitamins - 100c

Total: 487c

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I broke my fast right before I went to sleep.. I feel like maybe I could’ve lasted until this morning but my family has a history of heart attacks and my heart wasn’t acting like it’s usual self so I didn’t want to risk anything. Once I’m on my own it won’t matter but while I’m with my parents I’d prefer not to traumatize them if they even care enough lol.. I didn’t do too bad with the cal intake though, so ig there’s something kind of positive to think about? - and I’ve started another fast but I’m hanging out with a friend tomorrow and food might be around * . * Hopefully I can completely avoid eating but idk if I’ll be able to fast for as long as I’d like to :c I’ll l bring a can of green beans or something else low cal just in case so I hopefully don’t cause any suspicion. My friend used to have an 3d so she’s already pretty aware of some issues I have but I don’t want her to know the full extent of much I’m restricting myself.. but besides the food stuff- tomorrow should be fun. I’m going to help her move some plants and other stuff to her new house and we haven’t seen each other in a few weeks so we’ll have a decent amount to catch each other up on✨

(Side note: Caramel rice cakes are pretty good. I avoided them for a while but I got some a few days ago and they might be a new safe food for me now, I haven’t decided yet.. Cals aren’t great but it’s the lowest it can possibly be so I have to deal with it or avoid it again)

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~Tw 3d Question~

How effective is purging when you make yourself vomit? And what should I do for after care?

~(Late)Wieiad~

10•16•24

Breakfast:

• 2 rice cakes - 80c

• Pork cutlet - ~450c

Dinner:

• 22g pitted date - 67c

• 5g LS peanut butter - 16c

• 1.5g unsweetened coconut chips - 10c

• 3g dark chocolate chips - 16c

Total: 639c

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Went over 500c and I’m not happy about it but I’m gonna fast until Saturday so that’ll be fun at least

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~Wieiad~

10•15•24

Breakfast:

• 146g ZS Vanilla Greek yogurt - 60c

• 8g Chia seeds - 40c

• 50ml Coconut milk - 10c

• 80g Pumpkin Puree - 40c

• Ground Cinnamon - 8c

• 68g Frozen Strawberries - 24c

• 33g Frozen Raspberries - 17c

• 30g Frozen Blueberries - 16c

• 45g Frozen Blackberries - 29c

Snack:

• 5g CB whole wheat tortilla - 7c

Total: 251c

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Went mia for a little while because my mental health was complete shit and I had no energy to post on here but I should be back now✨

~Wieiad~(lazy because I’m tired af)

10•3•24

Breakfast:

30g carb balance wheat tortilla - 43c

14g FF mozzarella cheese - 22c

31g LF cottage cheese - 23c

10g Guacamole salsa - 19c

40g Dates - 133c

54.2 g Choc mint protein bar - 195c

1 Fiber brownie - 70c

Total Cal: 505

Water Intake: 34 FLOZ

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•Macros•

Carbs - 87g

Protein - 35g

Fat - 15g

Fiber - 22g

Sodium - 897mg

Calcium - 378mg

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I broke my fast at 3:50pm and started a new one at like 6pm..not too terrible ig but I’m gonna fast every other day for about a week to hopefully speed things up a bit.

Starting a fast :3

~Wieiad~

9•26•24

Breakfast: Blueberry protein bar - 180c

Lunch: N/A

Dinner: 191g Plums - 88c

109g Kiwi with skin - 66c

140g Red Delicious apple with skin - 83c

87g Oranges - 41c

~Macros~

Carbs: 92g

Protein: 15g

Fat: 7g

Fiber: 17g

Sodium: 331mg

Calcium: 141mg

Total cals: 458

Water intake: 68 fl oz

Not too bad ig…. Just glad it’s not above 500 lol

I bust every time I see the word “low-calorie” on anything

When the numbers on the scale goes down:

How i feel after a 48h fast

”How do i lose 10 kg in a week🥺”

Cut all ur limbs off😘

it’s fucking summer and here i am with my fat rolls hanging out in front of all these skinny people. i can’t stop staring. i wish that was me. someone just cut the fat off me i beg

I just realised that people don’t see me the same as I was just a few month ago, as a skinny 45kg beautiful young man.. they see me as a fat guy who is trying to compensate his weight by trying to look stylish and hot; but in reality I’m just fat and ugly. And that’s exactly how they see me.

I’m starting a wl challenge!!! 💕

I’ve decided to defeat the fatty in me by going on a 600ckal deficit for two weeks, and my MAIN GOAL is to aim for 50% protein intake

Protein diet once got me from 55kg to 45kg just in about a month, and I was toned af (I was literally getting complimented from random by passers every day)

Also, I’m doing a harsh gym challenge: every day for those two weeks I will go to the gym to get rid of the fat and build core muscles instead

Also, fasting for 16 hours every day is acquired

There’s also one more rule: only eating 1,5 hours before and after the gym workouts, since it’s the best for muscle gain and quick weight loss

I’m also planning to post my meals on here so I feel too ashamed to binge or not get those 50% of protein intake

Anyone wanna join the challenge? ;]

Basically, I sadly failed my bonesp0 fucking diet. I held onto it for about 4 days, and everything was going great, until a friend of mine decided to FORCE me to eat pizza with her.

She wanted to eat pizza really bad at my place, so I was like “alright, sure, I’m gonna feed you girl”, but then when the pizza was ready she stared going onto me and told me that she won’t eat until I will eat a slice of pizza too, and since she was really hungry it would be MY fault that she wouldn’t eat.

I ended up eating the pizza and then eating around 2000 ckalories every day until Tuesday..

Literally so fucking embarrassing. Now I’m trying a 400ckal deficit.

Wish me luck ;,].

thank god im not alone in this😭 like im not gonna let ANYONE i know irl out-skinny ME

am i the only one whos lowkey gatekeeping weight loss/4n4..like my friend tells me everyday how he needs to lose weight and everything but thats MY thing..

Does anyone have any good low cal ninja creami recipes? Any one I find always has fairlife in it but we don't have that here😭 also xanthan gum is impossible to find but I'm willing to order that

What's even the point anymore? I ⭐️ve, I can't focus in school, but exams are coming up so I tried to eat more for exams. Now I'm even fatter JUST TO NOT UNDERSTAND MY EXAMS AT ALL!! IM A FUCKING FAT FAILURE AND I JUST WANNA ⭐️VE TIL I DROP